For once in this whole week Im truly happy and my troubles seems so far away.I had fun.And I think I talked non-stop, errrr ... ok,i talked non-stop BUT it felt good somewhat a therapy for me.Talking has always been my forte eh?ehem ehem.hah


International Cultural Night was great.I had fun.I think Im going to miss staying up till late for dance,memorising every single step and sweating like mad.And of course the company.I'll miss every single moments la.=)


Taking photos is like a must on every performance seh.Crazy poses+silly faces+closed eyes=funny thing!Reason eyes being so small was because of glitters so the va-vavoooom seh.We're all so glamorous ok.heh.


After dance,headed to Starbucks with dearest Izyan,Aida,Cynthia,Zu,Irfan and Fid.It was super enjoyable.Thanks to lovely Cynthia for the yummylicious treats. =) "And Dee is sucha darling" quoted from Izyan.hehe.I crap alot.isk isk.haha.And Im glad Ive got to know new friends along the way.They make me smile.


Moments,


Thanks Shikin for the vogue make-up!



Credit to Salai for the lovely hair!



the girls!



us!!



Zoo and me



petik petik kamera



grp picture.those who make it happen!



starbucks snap


The heart has stop believing.

And I thought I was strong, I am so wrong.I tried to be, reminding myself never to breakdown,never to let even a tear flow down this cheek of mine but I failed.I guess I wasn't strong enough and in times like this I just feel like giving up. =(


I gave you my shoulders to cry on, I gave you a hug, I acted strong for you, I never showed the tears in my eyes but do you know something?I want your shoulder to lean on, I want a hug from you, I want you to be strong and I dont want you to cry.It breaks my heart knowing you are hurting.


Im glad I got a hug from my bro.A hug from a person that matters the most, a hug from someone who understands the state Im in now, a hug from someone who feels the pain Im feeling.I love you.


Thanks friends for being there for me.Thanks so much,you guys don't know how much it means to me.


I once wish for love to cross my path
But now I pray it will never happen.

Pity?Im shocked listening to your explanation.You just don't know how crushed, how hurt I am listening to your every word.Why the freaking hell would you pity someone who isnt one of your freaking kin?Im numb.I want to cry, be angry, shout at you but I cant.I lose every respect,trust I ever have towards you.Why?Why do you make me feel this way?


I want to sleep and forget about all these.I want to be get away and fly in my dreams.Be free from all the troubles.I cant cope with the responsibilities I have as a sister, a daughter, a student, a groupmate, a friend, a dancer.I wonder how long more I can cope with everything.I will try my best to stand strong with umpteem prayers to HIM.Insyaallah.


Im sorry I cant hear your rantings and complain.I really cant be bothered anymore.Im sorry I cant be a much help to you.I try my best to stay strong for you and only you.You know how much I love you and how hurting it is for me to see you in the state you are now.Im sorry.


Bring me to a faraway place.
Where Im free from all my troubles and mishap.
Bring me there stranger.

Haven't you hurt her enough?Haven't you wasted her tears enough?Haven't you see her down enough?What more do you want? See her crushed,bruised,battered?Please, I beg of you.Stop, stop whatever you are doing.And then I thought history wont repeats itself.How could you?


I don't know how to react.Tell me.Should I be angry?Should I shout at you?Should I be dissapointed?Should I breakdown like always?Im tired of these.I really am.I thought you could keep with your words.LIAR.You're a liar and you expect me to tell you the truth?I am truly hurt by your actions.Please dont make me despise you.I love you so much to be feeling that way.


I want to run away from all these.Why?Why when I thought things are going to be normal it turns out ugly?Why when I thought we were going to be happy like always everything just turns unpretty?Tell me,what did I do wrong to deserve this?Tell me.


Broken.
Broken into pieces.
I dont know if I could be a whole ever again.

Hola!I had really really great super deduper fun watching NDP preview at padang yday.Thank you Amin for the tixs. =) Thank you Izyan and Aida for the great company.We were screaming our lungs out the whole day, singing ever so loudly to the songs though we know we sound horrible and out of tune.hehs.After NDP met with Mastura and headed to Lau Pa Sat. We ate satay, deelicious though our satays were being exchanged for upteems time.haha.I had a fantabulous time with you girls.Hugs korang kuat-kuat. =)


AGM was alright i supposed.I did enjoy myself with the games and of course snapping of pictures.hehe.I had fun during the dance though there were some glitches here and there. Ohh well, at least we were dressing down for once with black tops and bottoms and our silvery cloth tied ard the waist.haha.Cute thing.


For the first time during the last few weeks im at home on a Sunday.hah.And I like it at home maybe because Ive been out alot and it feels good being at home.Im glad.Alhamdulilah, things have been smooth lately.


And Ive my IJ to complete.sheesh.Im going to start soon.Man,I so cant wait for every single projs of mine to be submitted.Then I can actually celebrate my hearts out during the semester break.So cant wait.


Mal and Su, I miss you girls sooo much.



Smile.
That's all you have to do to make me happy.

Hola!I like the previous entry.Thanks Zila!It's so merepek+meraban la.heh.Ohh well,yes im so stress out over projects.urgh!!I feel like a walking zombie.Man,im so lacking of sleep.


Im still in school when it's almost 9pm doing projects.haiz.So much more to do seh.And guess where is my dearest parents?They're now watching the SitiNurhaliza concert!!!!Arrrrghhh!!I want to go to her concert.It's like so not fair.But i guess it's a good step for them.Im happy,delighted.Alhamdulilah.


Life has so ben revolving ard school and dance.But alhamdulilah I have wonderful friends during school and also dance.At least tak lah boring kalau tak agaknye Dee da boleh mati seh.hehe.


Going to meet Yan after this.Irritating bro of mine asking me to join him in a game of bowling.Like haiz.Tiring-tiring.


You are the reason im smiling.

Hola. I am typing this on behalf of Dee. She is so lazy to blog, I wonder why. Suddenly, she is so busy doing her project, which is so unlike her. By the way, Dee has a new handphone and she has been busy snapping pictures of herself (which is not surprising) and pircutes of her friends. Diyanah is so tak tau malu becos she keeps saying she is a princess. Come on Dee, get a life ok. haha

At this moment, Marketing students are busy finishing up our projects. It is so stressful. Very stressful. There is FAOM, Marketing Research - where we have to survey 200 people, Marketing Principles and Consumer Behaviour. For myself, I have to finish up my Psyhology report which is due tommorow. What a life. Haiz

If you people are free, you can go to Dee's link, and click on Zila and read my blog. Haha

That's all for me for the moment.

Hola!I did not sleep the whole night because I needed to complete a very important project.And alhamdulilah Ive completed it.Yan told me that Im crazy for staying up the whole night doing something he calls stupid.My brother never agrees of the way I am so into that project.But ohh well, it's for a very special friend and I think not sleeping beats the reaction I will get when she get the thing.Yes, a very long awaited bdae present.And Im so proud of the final product. =)


I was busy running thru pictures in my memory box when I found an almost torn, crumpled paper.I read its content and I realised that it was one of my composition I did during sec four. It was during an English mock test. And I saw his hand-writting scribbled across my paper as he was helping me with the compo. And that incident replayed instantly. A smile across my face,it was such a funny moment.And then I realised, I miss him.heh.Ohh well,the memories are great. Who says we need to forget them right?haha.


Wish I could read what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life
Wish I had someone to share my ups and downs

Hola!It's only the first day of school re-opens but it seems that I have quite a number of things to do.I have individual journal that has to be submit in two weeks time.Im not even aware of it until today.sheesh.I have my MIG thingy.lots of works seh.


Ohh well,yday session with dearest Izyan was a great one.Full of laughters.And I think I have a new nick for her,comot.hehe.You know,i know la eh Izyan?Apparently BayBeats wasnt our thing and so we ended up staying there for awhile.I had fun yday. =)


Why is it that we seems so near yet so far?You used to be someone I go to whenever I have problems but now ... Maybe you're busy with life and I just couldnt come and pour all my problems to you.I feel that you wouldn listen to my rantings,ramblings.It's partly my fault.Im too afraid of little things.I know I can still count on you to be my 'sister' but i feel that we are now somewhat far from each other.I hate myself to be feeling this way.I love you.


If I could wish for one thing,
It would be you

Hola!Im beginning to see the brighter side of my life.I hope I can make it thru.Insyaallah.Yday performance for Grad was good.I had so much fun.What is it with girls and photo takings?They never are bored eh?hah.*Looking at myself and nods agree-inly.*hah.


Im so blessed with wonderful group mates.I love you girls la.I cant contribute a single thing for FAOM but they are really understanding.Really im so glad I have you girls. =)


After meeting,met with Izyan and Aida.Bought shoes at Mondo.Damn cute la!hah.Headed to Bugis and window-shop and also we took neos.Super adorable k.hehs.Send Aida off. Ceh mcm pergi jauh gitu.haha.Izyan and me went to Bugis st to window-shop.And ohh ya, my dear friend bought this super nice and flowy white skirt.We like!


Pictures,



Aida and me



Amin/Mr Vice-president and me.heh



Cynthia and me.She's super funny.



us and Mr Vice president and Cynthia!



SNTians



im glad ive found you girls.



e reason im nvr sane.heh



Today,



Izyan oogling her new shoes.



reflections of us.



we just have to snap our cute shoes.hehe



super sweet. <3


Im blessed to have friends like you girls.Im glad Ive found a goodfriend in each of you.I hearts you girls to bits.=)


Ive learn to see the positive outlook in life.
Ive learnt to be blessed by what/who I have.
Ive learnt to be contented.Alhamdulilah.

Hola!And they said it's all parts and parcels of growing up.But what if I dont want it to be?Ohh well,do we really have a choice?urgh.Do we?


It hurts not wanting to come back to a place I once call home.Things happened too fast.It's frustrating living in a world of denial.But life goes on.Like hey, come on who really want to stop and listen to my griefs and yaks?The world dont stop and mourn because of my sad story.It doesnt.


And thankfully,there're people I call FRIENDS that are always there for me during my Ups and Downs.alhamdulilah.Thanks for the listening ears and the advices.Thanks for making me smile and show me there's more to life than what I know.Thank you. <3


And in times like this,I need a someone to assure me that im not alone.
Appear in my life soon.
I need you badly.

Hola!Grad preformance was alrite but i had fun la.Sumer mcm retards snap-snap pictures.Funny la u girls.It was more of picture taking rather than feeling nervous abt the dance. We were so crazy like small girls seh.With our monyet poses.hehs.Yes,tmr i'll snap more pics since there performance too.haha.


After performance,wash ups and blablas then headed to Bugis and met Tasha n Mar.We went for sheesha.Too bad i didn like sheesha and so I had less than 10 puffs.I hate the taste.Yes, Tasha im free of sheesha.hehe.But i like e mashed-potatoes so sdap.Talked and talked till 8 then took cab to Eastpoint.In the cab we had soo much laughters due to dearest Tasha craps.haha.Sat at Starbucks and chilled there.ceh ceh.haha.I fun with you girls la.Thanks for e enjoyble meeting!! =)


Moments,







3 retards.hehs.



classic.



i love this la.my creation.ehem.








busy siaping.



our 16 crazy poses.haha.





poses after poses.



plus mr president.


sheesha moments,





sheesha





yum!yum!






mar n tasha.hah



me n mar



me n tash.posing je si Dee tu.hah



jgn nak act la.



I want a moment of peace.Please.Im tired of crying myself to sleep everynight.Tired of hearing all the shits/whatnots.Ive totally shut myself down.It's hard trying to put a strong front when the real fact is im weak.Weak.I cant shoulder the responsibility.Do you know how hard it is to smile when the real fact is i can break down any moment.


I cant take it any longer.
I wonder if i can live another day like this.
Save me stranger.

Hola!Had a proj meeting cum bitching session.I had fun la.We were productive k but we talked more.Maybe because I had so many stories to update them with eh?hehs.And while they were doing Faom I was busy snapping pics.I even forced them to pose for me.haha.


After meeting met with Mar,Shaf,Ariff n Faz.Went to town and had our dinner at Ayam Penyet.Somehow the guys find e name of the dish amusing.Weird-ness.Ohh well,then headed to Heeren went ard HMV and Faz joined us soon after.Decided to go Mc Cafe to sit and chat.Snap here and there and here and there.I love taking pics la.Typical Dee.Went to Borders and snap more.hehs.


On the way home,we were laughing and laughing.Funny la u guys.merepeks lebih.Went to Pasar Malam at Tamp and headed back home.n somehow my friends tell me that im slow.am I?I think they are too fast.sheesh.I had fun with u guys till our nxt session.


Pictures,




i told u im bored.





see how focus they are.





pose for me =)




toilet snaps.




shaf and me



ariff and shaf.



e girls.





pics i snap.hehs.




faz,me,shaf n ariff.


jaded.
im lost.

♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


I forget my existence in a deep kiss with you