i was checking out on foreign affairs, and everything that i read, shocked me. i've been living too happy in my comfort zone, it's time i freaking open my eyes to the outside world. the earthquakes, the tornadoes that hits other countries and everything else.

im so scared. it feels that the world is going to an end soon.

You'll always be a part of me, I'm part of you indefinitely




today, i miss my boyfriend too much. i always have, haven't i? absence makes the heart grow fonder, they say. absence makes me grow crazy, i say. it's too weird how i fell into deep with this boy, head over stilettos.

my entries may revolve around him most of the times but i can't help it, can i? he's my every little thing, my daily reminder that i am being love and care for, for whoever i am, for being Nurdiyanah the talkative, kental girl with a fickle mind and the unexpected bitch fit. it's crazy the way he tolerates me, with the utmost patience.

being in a relationship made me wiser and changed me in ways i can't describe. definitely, for the better. and i know, to love is to risk being vulnerable. life is all about taking risks and i'm taking this leap of faith because without him, my life would be incomplete. he's my first, and insyaallah, my last.

happy 17th love.

You are nothing I ever expected, but everything I ever dreamed

today, is one of the rare nights i talked to boyfriend. because we just don't do the usual talks on phone couples have. TAPI if we did, it's crazy, really crazy.

me: SHUDDAP. you go out on a date with galah then KUDUT!
him: okay. so you, you go on a date with boyar k, DEEMUK!
us: burst out laughing.

blooody mangkuk! not funnay la ahmad mahir muhammad kamil! you scared kan nak cakap gemuk (as it is, want to tambah-tambah my name), takut kan, takut kan. TAHU TAKUT!

and no, we don't get mad, because no joke no fun mah. i just feel like killing him. haha. i love him kudutly and he loves me more gemukly!


ohh my! cik, I MISS YOU SO FREAKING MUCH!!!!

What is the meaning of life? Whatever you want it to be.

my weekends was fun like that, always will be la. heee.

i really have to change my attitude towards work, make work more go-able (if you get what i mean). i've been too late or too sick for work. 2 months will pass by fast, it will, it will.

for every single time, when im so semangat to go for dance practice, it will be cancelled or somethings just have to cropped up like the unavailability of dance studio! so kecewa laa! i hope Thursday training will be as per normal because i miss dancing and we have exams (i hope it's being postpone though). and since i've never attended even a single lesson, i think i shall surrender my white flag now. haha!

my Friday is well spend with my girlfriend(s), very impromptu. so we headed to Geylang to eat because my girlfriend is very makcik-makcik pasar. after which, we headed to Bugis because i wanted ice-cream (so the tak abis-abis) and korangs next time, strudels k. hehe. and since dance is cancelled, we met up with the sisters for Funan IT, donuts and talking nonsense with them. my late night and wee morning is spend with Cipah and Nad Gong, very kental times but i love crazy plans like this. ohh fun, fun, fun!

after a boring day at work, getting stucked at Southbridge! garh! i headed down to Abang Rizal's place to kepo-kepo because them girls are having a show at NLB. and they looked gorgeous, very gorgeous. after the show and them getting ready, we headed to Cineleisure for the yummylicious Crepes & Cremes, sungguh sedaps la! and i love just crapping with them! sayang merekas!

then the boyfriend fetched me from town. and eventhough, i wanted to be mad, acted mad towards that boy, i can't because he's too nice to be mad at for too long. we had BBQ wings for supper and were laughing hard over supper. we were talking about stupid stuffs and kamu, i don't care $22,222.22 okay! HAHAHAHAHA! the 2 hours spend was love and it's hard not being able to meet him, not until Sunday. sheesh! but i'll survive with his crazy sms-es, well, i'll always survive because i have GREAT friends to spend my time with. hehe. i miss the boyfriend too much and sometimes my heart kinda aches at places i never knew existed, because i reallyreally wish i could meet him and make his life a living hell (macam paham la sangat). hahaha!

Sunday came, and i was so geared to dance but heyho, it's being cancelled at the last minute. this part cannot angkat, because i changed already la! hahaha. tu lah, orang call tak nak angkat, padan muka kau Dee! so we sat at Mc Ds to discuss about the production, well they did. hee. PS for my brother's birthday present, Mustafa for their dancing shoes and me and Cipah going kerayzee over bags. they got seriously nice and cheap bags! cannot tahan-ings laa! so i did a little shopping and it made me a happy girl. good bargains cannot be missed!

the family fetched me at Abang Rizal's place and we headed to Mak's Place for Hafiz's birthday dinner. my brother is too cute, i decided to trick him and told him that all he got for his birthday is a box of roches and his dissapointed look is classic! hahaha! yes, i love to prank the people i love. and im glad he love the present, top(s) from Fox and Hafiz, no worries your berms will be arriving soon. tsk! andand Happy 13th love (da teenagers la seh!) and try not to be too naughty ok! kakak love you soo much! and i love my family and their antics. "Papa eh" hahahahaha!

and korangs, PLEASE UPLOAD PICTURES! thank you very nice!


Girlfriend and Cipah,


well, the girlfriend thinks she's cute. haha.









no dance practice (haha),







Family,




please learn to smile Hafiz.




annoying like that.

Love is a many splendid thing



i love how crazy we can be with each other and how crazy we are for each other. hehe.

just now, i was close to strangling the boyfriend! he send me home right after lunch la and we only met for 2 hours or so because his brother been calling him up to help at the shop. and being him, the most nicest boy, he felt bad and told me (very penakutly actually) that he needs to go to his dad shop and will meet me after. ape lagi, i also buat perangai and never talk to him the whole journey home. hehe.

and so i came home and complain to Baby on and on. but after cooling down, i realised that i was wrong to feel what i felt, because that boy is just amazing. hee. and i told him just that. so when we met, he drove straight to B&Js because he knows that im a sucker for ice-creams and we bought cookies&cookies sundaes and shakes. kononnye, nak ambik hati la. hahaha. we then headed home snuggling beside each other watching What a Girl Wants. well, cik, all i want is you, yes you. this little things are really life's pleasure.

im lucky, i know i am. i love him to bits, always.

Live life like its going out of style

Happy Holidays! be merry and be happy!

My monday was impromptu and i love it like that! i finally met my bastards after years of not meeting. very melampau i tell you! hahaha. we were catching up like there's no tomorrow with our cerita-cerita panas at our favourite place, Spize @ Simpang. and eventhough we've not been there for quite sometimes, we still get our usual PER mushroom soup (all thanks to Zila!) hehe. and then we headed to Veen's place for more craps and nonsense. we dance sesuka hati and even choreograph a music video. funny like hell and damn tiring! i swear we've never sweat this much together! i shall post that video up soon! hehe. i love my KBs a whole lot and i can't wait for July! very excited laaaa!

and and i met up with my bestfriends! ahhh, after decades, ni lagi melampau-i had maksima la! we catched up over dinner at BBQ Chicken which left us bloated, and we headed down Bugis for Chewy Donuts (thanks eh Su for kempunaning. haha) and the ride back home was full of stories. i love my bestfriends and how, no matter the distance and the years we never meet each other, i know when we meet we will still be the same, FULL of NONSENSE. hahaha! sayang korangs tak terhingga and Su, about your birthday... DONT HOPE ON IT! =ppp

after which, my family fetched me from Simei and we headed for supper. and so much for my "kakak da kenyang giler la okay". i was munching murtabaks and gulping down mango lassi happily. hahaha. then mama was looking at my handphone dp (a pic of me and Ahmad) and was talking to him la! "cik suker ahmad, handsome ahmad". very gila, i thought im the only one who did such stuffs! mama you kahwin with him better la. hahaha! and we were laughing so much because papa kept on saying "Yahya's family MAKE SOME NOOOOOOOOOOOOISE!" cannot tahanings! my family are crazy and i love crazy!

and did i mention that i miss dancing? for real la! i can't wait fot Friday. oh, oh, i can't wait for later. i miss that boy, my boy. hehe.

Kerinting Bastards,


imagining during THAT day!










imitasi with photos hanging on the wall. HAHA.



obsession over my boobs!





saving the best for last, ROCK WILL NEVER DIE!
Bestfriends,






love.
crazy family,


the underage, cousin and sister. hoho!



mama sayang!
papa stop thinking you're cool please!

random aluminis SNTians outings,


Cipah looked cute here, HERE ONLY! hehe.


Sha looked excited over her new hair.


well, i, i looked pretty. HAHA!









Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.

♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


I forget my existence in a deep kiss with you