Things which you do not hope happen more frequently than things which you do hope

you know how it is when you were really anticipating for something cause you know you'll have a great time when it happened and then suddenly something came in the way and that something you really hope for, just CRUSHED. argh! i hate that feeling.

and im sorry. i really cant do anything about it.

You know when you have found that someone special because you not only have a smile on your face but in your heart as well




how was work? work has been pretty fine despite those boring trainings, and gosh, ive to deal with ACCOUNTINGS! like ndjfjlwoeirndaoeiuif ( you get the drift uh? ). ohh wells, at least ive made new friends that are veryvery fun people and never fail to nudge me whenever i decided to fall asleep which i always does. what do you expect kan? it feels like im in a tutorial, and since when have i ever not sleep in tutorial. you tell me! nyehahaha.

anyhoos, after work today i met up with the boyfriend and i finally get to try my Mr Bean's ice-cream that ive been eye-ing for quite sometimes. haha. and ohh thanks love for bringing my shoes since the one i used decided to fail on me. and ohh, the parents think im bullying him. they're just jealous, tomorrow i will asked someone to bring them shoes when they're working. nyehahaha. we headed to Paya Lebar since both of us wanted Ayam Penyets and yum! yum! Mr K-duts-entalan-lodehs, i had a wonderful dinner with you. i love you!*senyuman yang termanis*

ok, let me get back to revising my work cause there's TEST laa, like a freaking test! haiyo! haha.

and and i cant wait for Friday. *screams LADIES!*


Love puts the fun in together, the sad in apart, and the joy in a heart

If you press me to say why I loved him, I can say no more than because he was he, and I was I

i decided to spend most of the time before i start work with Mr K-udut-entalan lodehs since ill be busy with work in the near future and i know ill be missing that boyfriend of mine so much. hehe. ill be starting work later at 8.30 am. which fyi, is a little too early ( ok ok, waaaaaaaay early for me) cause ive to wake up at 6 so i wont be late. bagaimana ni! nyehehe. wish me luck and do pray for me. im so nervous and yet so excited about it!

so he headed to my place and install sounds on the computer. after which we headed to Lavender to get my IC and have our lunch at Beach Rd. and damn! that mee kuah gravy were all over my shirt ( da la putih! sheesh!) tapi it was sedaps laa. so it's worth the comot-ness, on the other hand, haven ive always been comot with foods. hah! since he had to help his dad with the shop, he send me home. such a short meet up laa. sedih noh! nyehaha.

then that boyfriend told me could meet me up in the evening. headed to my place and he had to do a series of work for my mum. hahaha. my mum seems to love the boyfriend soo much *roll eyes* took my dad's car for a ride and met up with Ili, Mas and Yat at New York Pizza. Ili, even if the meeting was short, it was love babe! after which, the boyfriend showed me places ive never know existed. i love the boy for that. we watched big big aeroplanes that are in the making and then headed to Seletar Dam and damn! ( HAHA!) the place is nice cause the view is so calm and the place is soo breezy. prettay!

i had a lovely time with the boyfriend. and ohh, sorry for the luka-es (haha!) i didnt know i could pinch that hard. nyehahaha. i love you Mr K-duts-entalan lodehs! *hugs*


I need the starshine of your heavenly eyes,
After the day's great sun

There are only two ways to live your life:
One is as though nothing is miracle. The other is as though everything is.

i met up with the bestfriend, Marliany for some quick loving. haha. we miss each other already. so Starbucks it was to do lots of catching up and story telling. after which, headed to Mc D and met up with Fazurah whom ive not met for ages. so we were busy differentiating people-es of all kinds. haha. i had a great night ladies!

and to my makciks-makciks, be strong hor. ill be here anytime if you need anyone to talk to. we shall pray that things will be fine and tomorrow's a better day. aku sayang korangs! and miss korangs so much hor! *hugs*



and and to that Miss Kentals, yes you Tisa,

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY BABE!



Happy 20th birthday babe! Stay pretty hor! heh. May you be blessed with a wonderful year ahead and be rocking and rolling all year long with your loves one, me included. nyeh! insyaallah. Thanks for being a great friend that have always been supportive hor. love you babe!

and like ive promised *drums rolling*,

here comes PENTAS! ( nyehahaha),

Pentas Reahearsals,


practice your hearts out!


baby and i. HAHA








my boobies are da bombs!

Pentas Janji,


bimbo, bitchy, act cute, flirty. haha.


canteen scene


zapin

sinaran



ili and me!




them popular girls! nyehaha.


my leading ladies!


MAG-ians!

and all the loves for those who have helped SNT,


WAWEEEEEEEEEE!


LINEEEEEEEEEE!


NUR SALAI!


and our very own AMIN TERAMAT DIVA! hehe.

and and all the loves for those who supported,


Mr K-uduts-entalans lodehs


the bestfriends, the busok and the kental


my makciks-makciks


i love you veen!


my interns

You know, life's funny that way.
Once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong.

For you see, each day I love you more,
Today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow

the date with Mr K-duts-entalan lodehs was lovely. we promised each other to have a smile plastered when meeting each other. haha. ok la, encik kudut no more masam faces. we headed to Eastpoint since we wanted to try Eatzi Gourmet, the new restaurant and mymymy, we were so full. the service is good and the foods were sedapilicious. crayfish blackpepper pasta, nasi gorengs with satays and prawns, fried calamaris and garlic bread were YUMMAY! went to Marina and i wanted sooo much to watch Music & Lyrics but it was sold out, so we settled for Stomp The Yard instead. and it is a good movie, i love the stompings! best noh! after which, Mc D it was for filling that not so lapar peruts.

i love the mini fights, i love the looong walks, i love the walk in the rain, i love it when i pinch/box you til it hurts, i love the way you never fail to make me laugh, i love your kental cepat merajuk mode, i love getting on your nerves. ok ok, i just love you la. hehe. thanks for everything love.

and ohh, saya miss awak already. nyeh.


With love you should go ahead and take the risk of being hurt, because love is an amazing feeling

I never regret anything because every little detail of your life is what made you into who you are in the end.

Pentas was great and phun, phun, phun! we BOOBIES ( yes, i decided to call my babies that. haha) did a wonderful job despite the glitches. ohh yang penting, we have fun and enjoyed ourselves! i love you girls to bits and pieces.

we wouldnt make it without the help of our dearest alumnis specially Amin Teramat Diva that never fails to support us and teach and guide us all along despite his busy schedules due to NS. Wawa, Lina, Indah, Ash have always been there to give us the moral support and helped us as much as they could despite being working ladies. aku sayang korangs hor manyak-manyak! and and of course who could have forgotten about Salai, our wonderful hairstylist that have been there since Day 1 rehearsal. thank you so much Nur Salai (haha!) for following us around to Bibik and back to school helping us out with the costumes and hair. and thanks Endang who helped us with the make-ups, we wouldnt look pretty if not for you laa. my greatest thanks to each and everyone of you. *hugs*

i want to thank the girls that have always been there for me despite me screaming at them, being sarcastic to them and if ever i was too hard on you girls, im very sorry. now that ive graduated, i must say i will miss each and everyone of you girls so much. and thanks hor for making me cry, the sweetsweet notes and photoframe was beautiful. i am touched and sumpah aku tak mengharapkan ape-ape. hmph! *looks at Cipah* hehe. gosh, im missing you girls already la.

and people need to know us SNT-ians to love us ( hehe) cause i know some of you people-es may think that we are sombong bitches. no, we're not. we're nice people really, we just feel comfortable in our little comfort zone and just being with each other. so do know us before commenting hor.

and and and thank you for coming down and supporting me. the boyfriend, the bestfriends, the makciks-makciks, the busok, the kental and her boyfriend. thanks hor korangs! i love you guys so much cause you guys have been supporting me since Pentas 05. much appreciated. *senyumans yang lebar*

and and not that i can help it, i cant. gosh! ohh wells, i have what you people-es dont. so just save the unnecessary comments to yourself. i have it, so i flaunt it. ADE PROBLEM PE? alermaks!

and and and im happy for the beautiful friendships forged with people-es from different subgroups. =)

and and and and im starting work on Tuesday. OMG! working office hours ya'all! ahhhhh! sungguh tak sabar!

and and and and im meeting the boyfriend later. YAY! i miss that kuduts and i want to fight with him. i love fights. do you? nyehaha.

i'll post the pictures soon.


Everyone’s a star and deserves the right to twinkle

There is a bit of insanity in dancing that does everybody a great deal of good.

it's 2.42 in the morning and im not feeling sleepy at all. sheesh! i have to sleep cause ive got to be in school by 9 am and my girlfriend is fetching me at 8.30 which approximately leave me with 4 hours to sleep, which fyi, is not enough cause i got a HUGE feeling rehearsals will drag til late. argh

but thank god, alhamdulilah, the clothes have been settled. phew! my many many thanks to the girls for helping me ease-ing my job and not forgetting Salai and Abang Yazid. they've been a great help lessening my every burden. we shall loooked gorgeous in Amin's words that day hor. simple yet gorgeous! hahaha. and girls, do work hard for Pentas ok. ah! aku sungguh takut tau but Techno with you girls were FUN. there's always a first for everything. aku sayang korangs laa!

everyone been complaining about how i revolve around dance and dance only and how i have no time for them. that' s not true la. hmph! but then again, what do you expect when the real day is Friday which is in 2 MORE DAYS! ah! the HORROR! but am pretty excited, the makciks-makciks, the bestfriends, the busok, the kental (Tisa, i just have to give you a nick! haha) and the Mr K-duts will be there supporting me. weeee! saya cinta mereka!

im missing the secondary school friends soo much, ive to meet you guys soon! and im missing Mr Ahmad Mahir, yes the irritating kudut guy who never fail to make me laugh and the guy to whom i fall in love with, sungguh maha banyak! cause ive not met him for more than 24 hours. nyehahaha!

the mosquitoe bites have been melampau. bloody mosquitoes!


Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart

A true friend reaches for your hand and touches your heart




Happy 20th birthday Mar! Hope you are blessed with preettay preeettay things in life and always be in the pinkest of health always. Gua sayang banget sama lu tau ngak babe!

Babe, thanks for being a wonderful bestfriend the one who is there for me even if it's 3 in the morning, listening to me going on and on about stuffs that bothers me, thanks for being that bitching partner when i needed one, thanks for the advice and knocking my head sometimes, thanks for being that beautiful bestfriend a girl could have ever need! hahaha. and and may this friendship of 5 years grow and blossom. i love you HOR! =p


Let us be grateful to people who make us happy, they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom

I love my father as the stars - he's a bright shining example and a happy twinkling in my heart.



Happy 46th papa! May you be blessed with a beautiful life with us and be in the pinkest of health always. insyaallah. Stay crazy and keep on rocking! i love you papa!

Im a very lucky girl, that i know of, to have the world's greatest dad who never fails to make me laugh when im sad and clear my doubts away and irritates the hell out of me. Thanks for the unconditional loves you've showered, the sacrifices you made, the guidance you've shown, the freedom you entrusted me, the trust you have in me and the non stop prayers that you have for me. i love you papa and am thankful to have a friend in you. *hugs*

Now that you're a year older, do act your age. hehe. Stop dancing and wishing that Siti will marry you. she just wont! i hope you have a wonderful year ahead. and ohh papa, stop reading my blog. and if you do, stop teasing me and mimic-king what i've typed. so embarassing ok! and and go excercise and lose those excess fats! but then again no matter how BIG your stomach may grow, you'll always be that handsome dad of mine. =)

i cant say this enough, i love you papa!


Dad, your guiding hand on my shoulder will remain with me forever

And when you cant quite match you clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you, I love you
More than you know

Baby I love you ,I love you anyway

the date with the boyfriend was wonderful eventhough HAH! we shall not talk about it. nyehaha. headed to town cause i wanted to shop BADLY but i couldnt find anything to my liking and with him saying how about this? how about that? doest help at all. how BLAH cause when i got no money-es, gorgeous stuffs decide to pay me a visit. the irony.

anyhoos, we headed to Sakura to fill our empty stomachs and boy, we had a feast with kangkongs, pandan leaf chicken, beancurds ( the boyfriend feeds me well. haha) which left us bloated and i had to say no to fried mars bars. sadness! munching my Auntie's Anne (finally!) sitting at a place i never knew existed was indeed fun. i had a great time and you never fail to make me laugh love. i love you sebesar-besar lori IKEA. hahaha.

and i finally got my sister, her belatedbelated present. i know you love me and am thankful to have me as your sister, right baby? go on and doodle at your prettybook! hehe.

we'd talk for hours as time drifts away, i could stay here forever and hold you this way

Bestfriend is like a four-leaf clover: hard to find, but lucky to have

I met up with the bestfriend, Mal and i had a beautiful time spend with her. thanks Mal for accompanying me around! sayang sama kau! Ljs since she was craving for it and walking and walking and walking around Tamp. i wanted to get something BUT i couldnt find anything to my liking. sungguh urgh laa cause it's been eons since i last went shopping and just when i wanted to. baaaaah! anyhoos, i had a great time babe! *hugs*

and i cant wait to go out on a date with the boyfriend. it's been sometimes since we last dated. heh! ah, my craavings for fooods are hereee!

Promoting Pentas Janji,



Tickets at $6 only! Do come and support us, if not them, ME! nyehahaha! i assure you have a great time watching MAG's production!

Be yourself because the people that mind don't matter and the people that matter don't mind

There will be something solid for us to stand on or we will be taught to fly




GRADUATED baby! woohooooooo! *puts on robe and throws confetti* hehe.

i was hit by the sick bug yesterday, in the middle of training. SUCKY laa when all you could do was lie helplessly. sheesh! i was down with food poisoning which cause diarrheo and vomitting like noones business and fever. urgh, im so helpless and energy-less. the parents brought me to the hospital and after being put on a drip for almost an hour, i was feeling waaay better.

and the love and concerns i received when im sicked has always been wonderful despite how bitchy i could be. thank you girls (read: Cipah, Sha and Marina) for being there when i was hit by the sick bug, thanks the parents for being there for me 24/7, ensuring i ate my medicines and get enough rest, thanks to the boyfriend who has been love despite seeing me at my worst state and buying me foods and ensuring i eat and thanks for the sms-es received. sungguh terharu! haha.

ok, now it's time to focus on Pentas ladies! we shall go all out next week! =)

When someone sees you as you really are and wants to be with you, that's powerful

Life is not a movie.
Good guys lose, everybody lies, and love... does not conquer all




I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand,

I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
I wonder why it is,
I wont let my guard down,
For anyone but you
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind

Just Like a Star - Corrine Bailey

and i miss you too much.

You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Because in the end, you always go back to the people that were there in the beginning.

my life has been prettypretty hectic with work and dance and work and dance but it has been love cause i enjoy both of them very much! =)

work has been fun! with my ever so cool boss, David. he's just the man ya'all! *with my sumpah irritating fake accent* hahaha. i get to watched Disney's Finding Nemo and it was beautiful laa, im just so amazed with the costumes and colours. coolness!

dance has alwaysalways been full of laughters and i will alwaysalways love them girls cause they never fail to carve a smile across my face and make me laugh despite me feeling veryvery shitty. girls, PENTAS IN 2 WEEKS TIME! hehe. and thanks for tolerating the bitchybolehtumbukDee! hehe. well, the weather's just hot ya know! (ok am hooked to fake accents, dont blame me! blame Disney!) ohh wells, i love you girls!

the evening spend with them girls ( read: Ad, Ili, Sha, Hani, Mai) was gerekness la. they made my day, they really did. and ohh! that bapok is hot laa! hahahaha. kfc-ing, walking and walking around Tamp, McD-ing was bestbestbest! i had tons of laughters. thanks korangs! LOVE!

on a different note, happy belated 3rd mr. i love you and am looking forward to more and more months with you. and we will go through this bumpybumpy rides together. ohh well, these things add spice to life. but too much of it, ill make you my soup tulang hor.

they say time will heal the wounds, i hope they're not lying about it.


It's true.
The difficulties of life are easier to manage with friends

i almost die from killing myself from being curious OR knowing the stuffs that i regretted knowing which will affect me for awhile.

bang bang! you shot me down.

I'm not afraid of storms, for I'm learning to sail my ship

dance was really taxing on me, because im just scared of the fact that Pentas is in 2 weeks time. god knows how nervous i am every single day. Amin has been a really great listener and advisor. i love him and cant thank him enough for being there for me, us each and everytime. the alumnis have been a great help! gosh, im soo thankful for them.

and it doesnt help that im working in the most crucial period of time. sometimes, i do not know which to put first, SNT or myself. be selfish or not. and i didnt know coming to an end of everything brings much more headaches to me. i guess like others, im just too worried about the WHAT IFs. but after the short conversation i had with Amin, i guess i need to believe that we can do it as a group amidst the difficulties and the short span of time.

of course, i am grateful for them girls have never dissapoint me with their commitment level and their enthusiam to learn every single practice. im excited for the costumes we have brainstorm-ed to wear, sungguh class! hehe. girls, i believe we can put up a great show and end it with a HUGE ENORMOUS BANG! ah, i just love you girls laa, we can do it hor! *throws confetti*

on a totally different note, what do you do when two of your friends completely disregard each other after a series of event? and the whole group of you used to hangout together. gosh, i guess the whole group would not be complete anymore. but i know, things happened for a reason. i just hope they'll find ways to make amends. and taking sides have never been my forte especially between my loves one. baaah.

on a totallytotally different note, the meet up with the bestfriend after dance was love. thanks Su for always being there. i love you hor. i guess despite our differences, we still love each other truckloads and find the need to meet at least once a week. hehe. and then again, i dont call you my bestfriend for nothing right? =p sayang kau!

on a totallytotallytotally different note, i miss my boyfriend MAHA banyak nak mam-pus.

and ohh, on a totallytotallytotallytotally different note, do pray for me, for my well-being and happiness.

and and on a totallytotallytotallytotallytotally different note, my heart just ache. bloody hell.


my bestfriend!




You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand.

Friendship is what gets you through the bad times and helps you enjoy the good times

im a veryveryvery happy girl cause i got to meet my favourite interns! i had loads of fun with them just sitting down at Techno eating our favourite bbq chickens. YUMMY! the meet up was LOVE, we were catching up and talking about everything under the stars, not forgetting ms laughters who never failed to accompany us throughout the night. i love you girls! and thanks Zila for driving us around. *hugs korangs kuat-kuat*

my favourite interns,


"it's been sometimes since i see my face on your blog"- Veen. just for you babe! ;)



my makciks-makciks




love sama korangs!


Kiss the stars with me

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Oh.. I do love you

the date with the boyfriend was superdeduperdedoubly AWESOME! i finally have my donuts!my donuts!my donuts! haha. i love sweetcheese! YUMMY! had our lunch at Banquet then headed to Vivo which was sungguh packed so we decided to run away from the people-s and headed to Sentosa and catch the Musical Fountain! been wanting to watch la and gosh, it's amazing! coolshit tau. and the boyfriend is such a sweetheart, thanks for the charmed necklace love. i had a wonderful time, i love our Sunday dates! *hugs*


noone like him,



my donuts!my donuts!


When everything else is a fade, without a doubt you're on my side

The people who really matter, you’ll see them again

dance was extremely tiring that we got all crazy and keep on laughing. KEPALA TONGKAT! in the words of Amin. hahaha. i had a jollygoodtime with them girls. Techno was love, we were talking about almost every stupid things. aku sayang korangs laa!

central with the girlfriend was love! Ad was being a makcik kental who wants to buy almost everything. i, on the other hand, was being a good friend who follows to her every demands. HAHA! well, i always have fun with the girlfriend of mine. babe, when kau off we shall go on our JALAN-JALAN CARIK MAKAN spree again ok? haha. =)

he's all wrong in the right kinda way and i love it!


The glory of first love and all that

Life is about not knowing, having to change,taking the moment and making the best of it,without knowing what's going to happen next

Miss Hani called us up for lepak session, yes, lepaklepaklepak ( APE NAK JADI! haha) but that's what we do best la. hehe. i had PHUN with them girls. we were busy discussing and listing ( thanks Mas for being the secretary for the day!) what we want to do for the upcoming ermm short holidays we will be having before all of us take different paths in life. haha. soo many plans and im uber excited over them! ooooo bitchybitchy moments here we come! i love them girls laa!

and boy, you never fail to amaze me.


and to that Charmed Sis of mine,

Sharifah Mahani Al Habshee Bte Syed Zainal Abidin ( panjang benar! hehe),

HAPPY 2Oth BIRTHDAY BABE!



Cipah Cipah Cipah Cips!heh. first thing first, HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY for the fourth time. haha. May your wish come true. insyaallah, a car it will be. =)

Babe, im grateful to have known and met you. Thanks for being a good friend and just being you. i love you the way you are, seriously. and goodness, i cant believe that our friendship is 2 years old! time pass real fast eh? heh. realreal fast. Thanks for the beautiful memories created and amidst the misunderstandings, im glad we managed to pull through them all and understand each other better. cheers! for more beautiful/fun memories together!

thanks for being a wonderful friend and a listening ear whenever i needed one and thanks for being my pillar of strength in times of difficulties when leading SNT. without you and all the helps, i guess SNT wouldnt be where it is now and i would have died in the middle. HAHA! seriously babe, my thank you-es are never enough. i love you.


Like a bird i sing, because you've given me the most beautiful set of wings

Life-as it is-always seems to get in the way


noone knows what lies underneath

promises are meant to be empty, just like rules, meant to be broken. get your hopes too high up and the next thing you know, you'll be crushed. cause sometimes one makes a promise, and one really mean it at that time, but life gets in the way and its impossible to keep. uh huh, that's the cold truth about life.

Dian was great cause i just love learning new steps and dance the night away. now that Pentas is coming, i am very much afraid that we only have 22 days to practice! *starts to PANIC!* ohhh i can smell dancing every single day. i cant wait for SNT's training cause i miss them girls!

talking to Wawa made me realised how much my feelings have grow for the boyfriend, thus the MUSHY NAK MAMPUS entries that you people-s have been talking/complaining/teasing about. hah! i dont mind at all, cause im just being honest with my feelings. and yes, im heads over stilettos over him despite the sumpahicancekikyoutilyoufaint moments cause noone can tolerate me like he does.

i was careless. i hope things will be a-OKAY. insyaallah. pray for me hor.


You are exactly my brand of heroin

sometimes, even when you're
having the time of your life you
can't help but to stop and think
about just how much you miss
the good old days


THANK YOU for the good ol days people!

♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


I forget my existence in a deep kiss with you