Happiness will come when you are with the one
Who can take you to places you never were, but always knew


it's friday, friday, friday! and im sitting in the office smiling so widely because the bosses are away. heaven!

it's a miracle how i actually survive this whole week despite having minimal cash. WOW! haha. the cash will only flows in a week's time. i can't wait, i can't wait! and not forgetting, the boyfriend's bonus too. nyeh!

The Leap Years with the two sweethearts (read: Iffah and Ayu) was love. i love how the movie went, i love the voiceover, the way she reminisce about her love life and i absolutely adore the quotes. we were going gaga over the Thai guy, whoever his name is and were going "ooooohs" and "aaaaaaww" the whole time. sungguh best!

Sup Kambing with the boyfriend is sungguh menjilat jari. i swear the boyfriend is very much an old man stuck in a young body. i thought only my papa likes sup kambing at Kallang! tsk! but i had fun, though i wish we had isi instead of tulangs. no wonder he very kudut one, he loves tulang! and ya, ya, no wonder i very chubby one, i love isi! haha.

dance have been good! i must say i've been spending a whole lot of time on dancing this time round. show going to be in 2 weeks time! it's been such a long time since i actually do shows. HAHA! cause im lazy BUSY like that. hehe. the lepak at rumah Abg Rizal was fun, we're very random with the bangs that Abg bought. i looked like a freaking maid, me and bangs can never get along. sheesh!

i've been planning on a whole new look with my hair and it's driving me crazy! to play safe or be daring. OHH WELLS, in Shaf's words "If you survived bangs, you'll survive anything". hahaha. so Iffah and Ayu, we shall do our hair ok ok? =))

and while Kak Mahani and Kak Rahayu (HAHAHA!) are enjoying themselves at Bangkok. hmph! i miss BKK, i really do. =( me and my kerinting bastards will be enjoying ourselves at Zila's place in Johor, tomorrow! i can't wait, i can't wait! because girls i got CERITA PANAS, VERY PANAS! hehehe.

okay, enjoy your weekends!

Acid Bar







Mar's 21st,


the birthday girl. hehe.





my friends are setans but i LOVE them. nyeh!









Life is simple, its just not easy

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams




i can't help but to feel happy. happy because eventhough, life is life, mindblowing with its suprises, i still have with me, my love ones that i can fall on.

i've been spending short but quality times with the boyfriend. we talked about us and everytime we do, i can't help but to smile widely. i can't describe the feeling; the flutters of the butterflies in the tummy and the smile etched on my heart. it is a wonderful feeling. and i know that the future is uncertain and things sometimes don't happened the way we dream of, but i can only hope and have faith in this. because this journey i share with him is too beautiful to end.

i joined my swinging friends (read: Cipah, Nad and Ayu) to cut, colour, highlight their hairs. my eyes turn green with envy so i shall do something funky with the hair on the 7th! (because it's payday. haha) =)) and i learnt my lesson in Coffee Club, i shall not order iced tea anymore! hahaha.

Marl's 21st was good with the non-stop laughters and the good ol' loving from the secondary school bunch. dinner at Riverside Indo Restaurant was sungguh sedaps and ButterFactory for stupid games in between and some grooving to the music was fun like that. heh! and it's funny that the boyfriend actually agreed to ButterFactory, i love you boy for giving an exception to this one. i was dying to see and laugh at him dancing, but i guess i will never get to, not in the near future. sheesh! but dancing with my favourite busok got to be the highlight of the day. hehe. Marl, i hope you had fun celebrating your birthday. we love you babe and happy 21st once again! and busok, pictures please!

Acid Bar with them secondary bunch and their significant others was awesome. they're just the right remedy i need after a long day at work. with the silly games and the stupid punishments, well for me at least. kenape la kawan-kawan aku setan! hahahaha. in busok's word "BEEEEENCI!" hahaha. i love this bunch a whole lot! and guys, paintball, paintball!

dinner with family was everything that i needed. sometimes, we tend to take for granted the people who are closest to us. i've not been spending as much time as i would love to with them thus this littlelittle time have never fail to carve a big smile on my face.


Real is better than perfect

Embrace the total dork in yourself, and enjoy it.
Because life's too short to be cool.


my throat is killing me. boo the weather for being so unpredictable. tsk!

today is dearest papa's birthday. my old man is 47! happy birthday papa and i hope this year will be a wonderful year filled with happiness with us constantly here to annoy the hell out of you. hehe. i love you papa and im bless to have you as my dad, the coolest dad ever!

yesterday, was love like that because my midnight was filled with the family and boyfriend just talking and laughing away. nights like these, made me realised how lucky and blessed i am. i thank God for my family, for the unconditional love i recieved and so much more. i love my family alot, alot and i love the boyfriend too. hehe!

i should stop being too dependent on car rides. boyfriend, let's go public one fine day okay?

and the bus ride with Mal was what i needed. my bestfriend is the bomb!

andand i can't wait for JB with the kerinting bastards next weekends! girls, i got my leave! =))


no other kudut but him (HAHA!),





St.Patrick's Day,



















Ama's birthday and Arab St,


















For the memories are all you have, and things might never be the same

I am dysfunctional by choice, and I love my attitude problem



life has been pretty interesting with the high highs and the low lows.

im a step closer to something i have been wanting my entire teen life. exciting or what! before my 21st i hope, so i can ask for something really extravagant from the boyfriend. hehe!

i really can't wait for September so i can start planning on my future. not that i've been ignoring my aimless future path, it's just that i can't get started while being stucked here. oh well, i shall enjoy being stuck. thinking of the future still give me the creeps.

im missing my friends like a whole lot! ive been busy making plans with them for the whole week without realising that i actually am on the late shift the entire of next week. HOW APT! sheesh ok! but i can't wait for Friday! the bestfriend birthday and the meet up with them secondary bunch! *dancing around*

i love the morning talks i had with Ili. that woman, slap me right in the face and i love her for doing so. she made me realised thousands of things that i've been ignoring. she made me think. Ili, thank you babe and do come by my place for more sleepovers. i miss you and your farts already! HAHA!

the boyfriend is crazy and being mad at him is almost impossible. cik kudut, i miss you already.


Love is a mess but at least it’s a beautiful one

i was laughing so hard inside. i guess karma hit them monkeys pretty bad.


6 more months i hear! =)

I don't worry cause everything's going to be alright



he, he, he have the every power to make me smile like a silly girl and as crazy as it may seems, im still very much in love with him. don't ask me why. it's just the way im feeling, the way loving him will always be the right thing to do.

the very much needed talk and everything in between was love. and everyday, we learn something new about each other. we're still growing and learning, take my hand and we'll go through this journey together. and despite everything, i still have faith in us because it won't be right if we're not in this crazy thing together.

i can't explain love and i don't know how it works. it's pretty crazy! boy, i love you. my heart, it's with you. and happy belated 16th 15th kudut! hahaha! i actually lost count. sheesh!


i may be a fool in love but im a happy fool. =)

We want to know the reason, the secret, the answer at the back of the book.

it's Friday! but here i am stuck in the office waiting until 10pm because i pity my manager who is sick. well, im the only one with heart, so it seems. i was looking forward to dance since that's the only way i could forget about stuffs that have been happening im my life lately. oh wells, being stuck in the office with nothing to do can be a good thing, no?

ive been keeping myself busy every single day hoping to forget certain incidents. i thank god for my girlfriends who will always be there for me whenever shit happens. i love you girls more than anything. my family, they're the bomb. they keep me sane despite the insanities. my mum, she's my light, my guidance and i love her. she taught me alot from forgiving to giving chances and to take risks.

love is crazy, don't you think so? in a minute, your world comes crashing down with no warning, no signals, nothing. but i've learn to embrace it with much courage and strength. sometimes, they say letting go takes a whole lot courage but i know, this is not the time yet. not until my heart says so, not until enough is enough.

and boy, im taking a risk but i don't care because i feel you're worth fighting for. please prove me right. we'll get through this and comes out stronger than before. insyaallah.


Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you

I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
If there was a way that I can make you understand

But how do you expect me to live alone with just me
Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air

Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you going be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air



Tell me how.

I'm standing on the outside of your shelter, dear,
But I hope I'm on the inside of your heart.

♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


I forget my existence in a deep kiss with you