me: Do you love me?
boyfriend: How can I not love you.

It's funny that we can start the day rolling eyes at each other, me racking up the past eventhough i said not to and you, on the other hand decides to shut me off completely by ignoring my long face and pretend that you're asleep when you tried to explain but i cut in everytime. you and i, we behave like kids.

Yet, what comes out of it in the end, is the beauty of it all.

All we need is a simple gesture to make things right because actions carry more meaning. You continued carrying my heavy bag eventhough i was still nagging about nothing at all, and i would still lean on your shoulder because of the comfort and security it brings even when you're the reason for my madness. And for that moment, i am more than thankful.

These simple things are love. Sometimes, somethings can't be expressed with words. I feel it and i know you feel it too. I love you Ahmad Mahir, and i know you love me too. I can't promise to be that dream girlfriend but i can promise you, me.


When you say love, i say you.

and SHUDDAP la you, who said im not struggling when im unemployed. my anggur tak laku okay!

The magic of first love is the ignorance that it can never end

my weekends was cinta, cinta, cinta! *dancing and prancing around*

the orangkahwin show went alright and i think we smiled too wide, and only us know the reason why we were tersengeh-sengeh-in when dancing. lepaks sesangat! somethings that is being said, gets into my head. im pretty sure, im very much interested in such sidelines. i shall start planning about it, afterall im still young and should venture out in alot of things now. insyallah, i hope this is not a semangat satu minit dan akan menjadi angan-angan mat jenin (OMG! sungguh melayu! hehe).

after which i met up with my pinggangramping and i swear i could crushed his bones because he's irritating like that. but im as irritating as he is, so i think we're on par with each other. hehe. Simlim for his gadgets lookseelooksee, Bugis street for his shirt, TongSeng for dinner and my friedfishsoup (YUMMAYS!) was cinta-rrific! i love how we teases each other and try to get on each other nerves but ended up laughing our hearts out just because. you can be my satay and i can be your burger. you bugger! i dont even know what love is, but i know that it's him. =)

i will be pack with dance, dance, dance. *sings dancing in the moonlight* ohh wells, with a crazy company, dance will always be good fun!

my Saturday was spend with the family at Furama Riverfront Hotel for Masjid Khadijah dinner amal. the initial plan was not to follow my parents but since they paid quite a sum for the tickets, me and Yan tag along. it was fun because we got lost in the middle of nowhere, eventhough we went to the hotel every year. tsk! ohh wells, the food is nice, the performances are great and i had a nice time with my family. ohh ohh, sayang semuanya!

and do pray for me okay? insyaallah, im aiming next week. *cross fingers and curl up toes*

for your eyes to feast on
the wedding show,





dinner,


sayang parents!




my GNO!


Nurazilawati ku!

my dutchlady, i scream at the sight of her. Liyana sungguh comel berpakaian sebegini!



makcik punyer anak! hahahaha






show offs!

retarded, budak-budak IMH.

chipmunks.


my grls, grls, grls!
ah! lubang hidungmu tetap menjadi pujaan hatiku! hehe.

I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be

And I never have to be anyone but myself

i wanted to post pictures entry only, and put the cliche-est saying a picture speaks a thousand words as the title. but since my forte is to talk alot, i cant stop my heart desire to let my fingers do the talking. hurhurhur~

my Friday was such love! i always look forward to Fridays because deep down, i know, i'll always have a good time. and my feelings are always right (about Friday that is)! =))

dance for a wedding show this Sunday (oh! extra income!) was fun like that. i swear everytime i step in TP, i felt like i was schooling all over again. i miss school. we were laughing and laughing away, it's funny la that we can be so confident of our wrong steps! hahaha. i think when i mess up on Sunday, i shall act like im the singer. *sings zaaaaaaaaapiiiiiiiin, penglipulara, penglipuhatiii* hahaha!

after which i headed to my nenek's place and i love how my grandparents pampers me from the ice-creams and cakes and everything at all. tuk always have something for me to munch on. no wonder, im so cute like that! hahaha! nenek, happy 68th birthday! it was her birthday but she cooked for me and gave me money instead (hehe). i snuggled on the bed with nenek, and we talked about every little things from the family, to her past, to my future and the advices she gave me, priceless. i lovelovelovelove my nenek effing much la(!!!)

the night was spend with my older ladies of course! GNO-es have always been crazy and i can't wait for next week for my gonggongs and Liyana kerangs! hehe. Simpang for their dinner and us cracking up at every single things to the jokes and non-stop teases. sumpah! we can be a tad TOO LOUD for others! hahaha. *sings and move hands to sundarhythm tedeh dedeh dededeh dededeh* ( HAHAHA!) after which, we headed to the dome (a place i introduced to them and it's our second best hanging out place! hehe) where we climbed just to get to the top and they flirted with a cute secondary school boy. PEE DO FILE (shuddap, im not good at spellings okay!) betul! talked about every single thing possible, to the random-est topics to the topics that scare the shit out of us. it was gerek sesangat and once again Liyana, my dutchlady, thanks for the ride! i love you girls alotalotalot! and i cant wait for 12032008! love!

i had the craziest chat with Nurul. and babe, thanks for layaning my crap and next time when we meet, please dont talk about my kental state during the videocall ok! wahahaha. but do talk about my nice voice in the wee morning. yes, i sang to her! hehe! and do meet me soon for munchy DOHNUT. *insert inside jokes* hahaha!

my pinggangramping, your iceboxbergerak misses you! (yes, the crude name we call each other. hahahaha!)

pictures pictures pictures,

GNO! *shouts at Veen PICTURES PLEASE!*


*sings STOP, aku cinta pada mu & insert pantat geleks* hahaha!
and FINALLY Radin Mas preview,


mukaku sungguh bulat, you cannot angkat!



At Al-majlis,



Mc Dees,


101 faces of Huda and me.






the road of Bugis at the wee hours,








tiga budak besar. hahaha.


sumpah! our ass were in such pain sitting over the pole!


supersize us.


kalau tutup atas, bawah tak tutup buat ape. so learn from Cipah, tutuplah bawah anda. HAHAHAHHA. this sounds so wrong but at 4 in the morning, it's so funnay!


there were 4 items, but the person refuses to take this one back home. i wonder why. babirusa!


hahahaha. sajak la korangs! Huda is the new spokeperson for this shop, kalau nak discount mintaklah die.


sucha beauty! wahahahahaha!

Sometimes the most important history is the history we're making today

ive typed a whole long entry but im in no HAPPY mood currently, so i decided to save it for later.

They gave each other a smile with a future in it.



I'm not the easiest person to love
Yet you choose to be on the side of me

Everyone needs a friend to hold
When it's cold outside and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
All alone I cried,there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared but you

I'm not the easiest person to love
But you, you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth

On the side of me-Corrine May

my Tuesday was so impromptu right from the meetup and such impromptuness is loveylicious! i was craving for my friedfishsoup at Tong Seng (OM la! ive been craving for it for weeks okay!) but when 51 made a pitstop at Geylang, my stomach was screaming for Ayampenyet(!!) instead. yes, my stomach is that fickle and only the boyfriend can tolerates it. hahaha. but now, i can't get my friedfishsoup off my mind. sheesh! we headed back to my place with the intention of watching Simpsons but we decided to take my dad's car for a ride since my dad had night class. Mustafa for the fun of it and since he's missing his fellow mates (hahaha!) and Giant because i wanted to waste his money. nyeh! sushis, cheese cakes, buns and yoghurt drink! yumyumyum!

we then fetched my dad at school and we had to give the car a good shower. it was fun looking at my dad and my boyfriend talking while waiting for the car to have a good scrub inside and out, and working hand in hand pumping the tyres. haha! they spoiled the tyrepumping thingy at Caltex and sped to Shell to continue their dirty job. funny la! he then drove himself (because papa was lazy to drive, naik syiok la!) back home and i went home with a big fat smile across my face. i love you my pinggangramping! *sings kau terindah, masih ada, itu kamu*


My little spark of madness.

We're only young once, but with humor we can be immature forever

did you guys had a gollyvwundderful weekends? i hope you did, i hope you did! =)

i did not want to blog UNTIL i get hold of all them pictures but blogging is my current addiction (hasn't it always been? nyeh!). so pictures OR no pictures before my memory decides to fail on me, i shall blog my day away!

today, the boyfriend fetched me after interview and we headed to Banquet, Eastpoint for lunch. after which, we headed to my place for Pocong2 which was kinda scarry but i hate how dark the ghost looked. i mean i thought it should be fair, right? hah! ohh wells, i had a cinta-tastic time with him from the Sapetakbolehkenasikit game which involves namecalling and of course, i won!, the teases, the jokes and the non-stop laughhters. awak, saya benci awak! =p

we headed to watch the preview of Radin Mas at Taman Warisan on Sunday. it was ooookay, i had a hard time understanding because i know nuts about history and im clueless on whatever they said, so foreign la. after which, we headed to Mc D (i decided to fastforward to this part. hahaha!) and had a crazy time! i swear we were the loudest people-es in Mc D at such wee hours specially Miss Huda. i was the quiet one amongst them girls of course. hehe. we then did crawzy stuffs like sitting in the middle of the road, making our butt suffer all because we wanted to take pictures. i guess, if it's not for the random scary cina guy who kept on walking pass us, we would have not been home by now (okay, part ni ade exxxxxaggerate sikit). hahahaha. sayang korangs! and can we have our own AlMajlis session? hehe.

the performance on Saturday was alright, cause we did mess some steps up due to 2 days of training. madness i tell you! butbutbut the girls made it alright at the end of the day. heh. it was gereks-licious drumming and shaking our body. sumpah fun! i smeell more practices ahead for the lightup. ah! sheesh! haha.

my Friday night was lovelovelove! it's 3 weeks overdue and we finally met for more TLC-es from each other. Lau Pa Sat for satays, prawns, chickens was sedaps sesangat tak boleh angkat y'all! haha. we were crazy girls laughing and laughing away, singing to our heart content and grooving to the music in the car. *sings blablablabla rehab, i say NOOO, NOOO, NOOO* haha. kentals! i can't wait for sleepover, Batam and Bangkok! wooohooooooo! i love you girls la okay!

for the only pictures i have currently,


my GirlsNightOut,


Liyana has always wanted those teeth! hehe.










my older girls, girls, girls.

Time may take away a moment, but memory will always bring it back

When Im with you, the sky's a different blue

i swear i keep on buying and buying stuffs eventhough ive been reminding myself not to UNTIL i find myself a job. sungguh tidak boleh jadi. i hope i wont make the same mistake as last month, not this time. *cross fingers and pray hard*

it's amazing that after all these time, everytime i meet him, i fall in love with him even more. it's like i find something else to love about him everyday. i guess that's how relationship last and i hope this crazy thing we share last. insyaallah. and we've not been fighting that it's scary. i think, i'll find something for us to fight about. haha!

our date that was very much anticipated was pure cinta with the littlelittle teases and non-stop laughters! i guess my boyfriend is the only person who can tolerates all my random cravings and know what i want even before i tell him, it's like he can read my mind. teehee. KFC for lunch and im very upset because the size of the chickens have shrunk! tsk! and the new Surf & Turf meal was dissapointing like that. Rush Hour 3 was dope y'all! hahaha. *sings Kung fu fighting tedadadada* we can't stop laughing and i laughed too loud and a lil too late sometimes. nyehaha. after which, we had desserts at Gelare, waffles ice-cream never fail to carve a smile across my face! thank you pakcik for a lovely date! saya cinta awak sedalam-dalam pacific ocean and miss awak already!

yesterday meet up with my MallyMallyMalMal (in the tune of bouncybouncysmacksmack)was sungguh mengubat rindu! it's been ages since we last went out and YAY! we finally met! shopping at Bugis and tempting each other to buy stuffs is phun la and Starbucks for truckloads of catching up, laughters and camwhoring was love. babe, we finally talked about that ONE topic we've been avoiding. haha. i still am thinking about my wild dreams about you and i know, you know, the world doesn't know. hehe. i love you!

after which, the supper at East Coast with the family-es is bliss! we were eating and eating and eating from the satays to calamaris to ikan paris to satays to bbq chicken wings to kerangs to everythings la! thanks Kak Nor and Abang Sufian for belanja-ing us and have fun honey-mooning and have a safe trip! sayang semuanya!

dance later and i can't wait! ive been missing on alot of actions and them ladies!

cause he's unlike any other,


haha! strangling him is good, real good! =p




cinta, cinta, cinta!

friendships that have stood not only the test of time but the test of change are surely best,






i love her like that!

Caue you can make me laugh even when nothing is funny

I don't need a certain number of friends, just a number of friends I can be certain of




i finally met dearest NewRewl (the way she liked it spell) after eons! i swear we're just too busy with anything at all, that a decent meetup took such a long time. and it was such fun just hitting town with her. we still talked too much and i really mean TOO MUCH (haha!), LOL-ing like noone's business, gossips just because and people watch cause it's gereks like that. and yes, salvation army please! we really have alot of places to hit and foods to eat!! i love her la!

i bumped into Hanim on the way back home and we were talking about our primary school days. she was shocked that im not in contact with anyone from school. hahaha! it's not that i don't want to, i don't see a point to (a very egoistic Dee speaking). i mean, sometimes when i bumped into them, its either we pretend not to see each other or we're faking a smile because we have to. so what's the point, am i right people? however im open to gatherings, i swear it would be awkward but it will be quite fun to see all of us again, much older now. i miss my primary school days okay and i still remember the cliques i hang out with, everyone of them. Hanim, im waiting for the invite and it's time i start recalling names. damn! i kept on saying "SAPER SAK DIE!" everytime she pops up a name. sungguhpelupa.com/mcmnenektua/biasejugaks!

1 more day til my date with my kental boy!

and do pray this week GNOs will take place. i miss them girls so much! oh, let Friday be bitchy and flirty like always!

and i miss my secondary school friends too specially Shafique since he's a BONGER-ER and kept rejecting us. kau better make it this Monday la ok, kalau tak, aku tak kan bebual ngan kau untuk selama-lamanya! we shall meet on Monday, all of us! *twirling and spinning around*

i can't wait for later! the meet up with that girl, NurAmalinaSurani, i miss banyak-manyak!


It's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts

Two souls, one heart

my weekends was full of love, love, love with the cousin's wedding! *sings to ohhh mama, saya mahu kahwin, kahwin dengan siapa, ohh dengan si diaaaa* hehe!

i swear it was one of the most beautiful wedding ever and the theme is PINK & WHITE laa, ohh cinta! Kak Nor looked so gorgeous, i kept on falling in love with her and her prettypretty dresses! and it was just love seeing one of the cousin's tie-ing the knot. Selamat pengantin baru hingga ke anak cucu! insyaallah.

and of course, wedding is the place for more gereks time with the family. sungguh bliss like that! saya cinta family! and terima kasih banyak-banyak kerana mengutuk ideaku untuk pelamin berpusing! tsk! you people, dont have any idea about fun weddings la! haha.

andand the family (from the maternal side) has a new addition! welcome abroad Muhammad Escandar Dzulkarnian (panjang benar namamu)! Congrats Cik Yah and family! confirm handsome sebab kakak sedara die lawa! nyehaha!

ohh! i miss the boyfriend and since we're busy people, i shall countdown to Wednesday for our date. a REAL date, finally! *dance around*

andand i miss my secondary school friends and my GNOs! BAH! busy people!


i love happy pictures!,

the couple,

Hari Pernikahan


Kak Nor and Abang Sufian (i hope i spell his name right)





the wedding day,


Kak Nor looking so lawa!




pretty!

the beautifulbeautiful deco,


the in-house pelamin






sungguhcantik.com/taklehangs!

the family,

on Saturday,


now meet my anak sedara, Zara! sungguh cute macam makcik nye!


Papa is always doing kental stuffs like that. Pa, stop sucking your stomach in okay! hahaha

















on Sunday,


he came.


when my mum said "Kalau jadi penghalang lambat jodoh", all the girls backed out! hahaha! dasar mentel! so here's the 3 young ones who's willing to hold the pole.


Abang Zul doing the penghalang job. damn funny la!









Abang Dayat's son is like a mini-me of him. sungguh adorable!




comel!






love like that!

sayang mereka!


cinta!

You are the star that's in my sky
And I am yours and you are mine

♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


I forget my existence in a deep kiss with you