The truth is rarely pure and never simple

my schedule's freaking packed with assignments, neverending project meetings, MAG meetings and dance. im beat, shagged and physically drained. school's going to end soon and with submissions, datelines and tests, i hope i could make it through the journey and complete the race. insyaallah. now people, do pray for me ok! =)

gosh, i miss my friends alot specially the bestfriends, the makciks-makciks, the secondary school friends and the alumnis of SNT. rindu sangat-sangat ngan dorangs! it's been eons since we last met and spend the whole day together. korangs, aku nak jumper korangssss! *singing rindu, serindu, rindunyaaaaa* hehe.

the short meet up which i managed to slot in between project meeting and MAG meeting with the bestfriend and my busok was LOVE! we were catching up, joking, teasing and laughing and laughing. i can't wait for the movie marathon laa! YAY!

and babe, i don't care if any friendships were to be jeopardise, as long as it isn't ours. cause i love you to even lose you. *hugs*



my betsfriend and busok,







i love them loads!


thank god i found you

In the beginning was the word, and the word was love.
Infinite, unconditional and without judgement.

my date with the girlfriend, Ms Adliah was WHACKED! haha. we were having too much fun with cheese naan and kima/keema, stupid picture taking, meeting lots of weird people and i do mean WEIRD, lots of bitchy moments, talks, teases, jokes, singing our heart out ( sungguh macam paham! haha!) and laughters and lots of laughters. ayam penyet tomorrow! *dances around*

and the lepak session at Mc D was pure funness la. it was cool that everytime we sat at Mc D, the group keeps getting bigger not because we planned it but because it was pure coincidence. so we had too much jokes, teases, singing session and laughters. korangs sumer kelakars laa ok!

Shop n Save for durians and pasar malam for char kuey, otahs, burgers, drinks. after which we ( read: the boyfriend, Ili, Ad and me) headed to the void deck and had a feast. we were laughing and laughing and laughing. sumpah seh penat ketawa! hahaha! and and and i learn a new word again! *smiles proudly* gosh, my vocabulary of not really nice words have expanded. HAHA!

and the incident with the parents and me and the boyfriend is veryvery funny! malu ye bang? HAHAHA! i swear my parents are the one that's so excited over it. mengalahkan anak! haha. and gosh, im missing the boyfriend already. ni da melampau! hehe!

ohh ohh, meeting the busok later during my break! wah, we miss each other so much already that we have to meet even if it spells 2 hours. haha.

i still feel butterflies in my stomach and my heart still skips a beats

Life is too short to protect yourself against this type of thing

i think people should just shut their fcuk up and stop making stories about others. it's saddening, dont you think so? when your BULL, doesn't make others hate me but supported me more. i can do the same BUT it's childish and i know somehow the truth will prevails. hasn't it?

come on Mr ( and i know you will read this), i dont see your motive in bad-mouthing me every single day just because. HEBAT OK KAU! i mean with the rate you're going, you can publish a book or BETTER STILL make a film with neverending episodes ( confirm laku la seh!) and in any case, if you haven't know. membuat fitnah adalah lebih dosa dari membunuh.

and gosh, who are you to judge me/make your fairytales stories about me? you BARELY KNOW ME. and fyi, i can do whatever i want as long as i am happy. and it's NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS! cause even my parents doesn't restrict me from doing whatever i like. so in which position are you to comment on my lifestyle?

it's my freaking problem if i LOVE to come home in the wee hours from lepak-ing with my friends, if i find clubbing FUN, if sheesha-ing is my FAVOURITE PASTIME and it's NONE OF YOUR CONCERN to whichever kind of friends i mix with. at least, i know my limit in everything i do UNLIKE you, you freaking moron.

if you feel/think that i am UGLY then for goodness sake, get the HELL OUT OF MY LIFE. i dont see the need for you to be so nice to me and yet talk bull behind my back. and why do you care so much? it's not you who is with me, it's my boyfriend. sumpah la, aku tak paham ngan kau!

and it's a heart wrenching fact that you could go on about me with no truth in it BUT FAIL to see what kind of person you really are. and ohh i better apologise, if you find this entry rather confusing cause i know you have difficulties having to understand simple english. HAH!

you're messing with the wrong person Mr.


ohh wells, i can't wait for my breakfast date with Adliah later. cheese naan here we come! HAHA.

and i miss the boyfriend.


jangan pernah berubah

Happiness is something that you are, and it comes from the way that you think

so it's been a beautiful journey, simply beautiful. cause today i felt like im the lucky-iest-est girl alive. and my thanks to the family, the friends and the boyfriend. ah! saya sayang semuanya! *senyuman yang teramat manis*

both of the parents have always been supportive of me. i mean, you know how much they wanted to see me get attached. funny thing! haha. and here's to ensure them, that i'll take care of myself and thanks for being supportive of it. i love both of you so much!

the friends have always been there for me and for that SPANKS! thank you for the listening ear, the advices, the jokes, the laughters, the fights. you people know who you are, terima kasih hor! and to the friends that have been feeling down, no worries cause Dee the Cutie will save the day! ok! aku LAME! hahahaha!

to the boyfriend, and i then realised i've never mention his name before ( hehe! read : Ahmad) we'll go through this together cause what matter is not the past but the future, not the batu api-es but us. and i love you.

and i knew it all along but i just need to hear/see it coming from you. just for the record, i do miss you and thanks for being that lovely memory.

and and on a TOTALLY DIFFERENT NOTE ( very low key note ni!) so what's you motive? gosh, you're making a fool out of yourself. sumpah aku tak bedek! but we can't be bothered laa. we're having fun laughing, no? HAHA!


cause the heart can overcome any obstacles.

cause noone told me it would hurt this bad,
my heart could sink so deep,
and i could cry all night.

just dissapointed.

for the way you make me smile ,
the way you cause those butterflies in my stomach,
and the way you always have the right words to say,

i just need you to stay.

Life is great. But without bad times, we wouldn't know the difference




“No one truly understands love. Edison can invent the light bulb, NASA can put a man on the moon, and Einstein can come up with theories about his relatives, but nobody has ever figured out why one person loves another. If there’s a formula for romantic success, it is yet to be discovered. Maybe that’s why we all to be in love. It is so very unpredictable. It can come out of left field. Or if you don’t play baseball, it can come out of the end zone, the sidelines, or the penalty box. It can blindside you knock you for a loop, and toss you out the window. (I oughta know)And yet, love is what makes life worth living. It’s always surprising. It’s sometimes annoying. But it is never dull. It can lift you up with joy or send you down into the depths of despair, all in the stretch of a minute and a half.”

and maybe, just maybe.

and ohh, congratulations to Nira Nyertika that emerged champion for the girls dikir team in Piala Khatulistiwa. (tak sia-sia aku turun support! hehe) and Ili, you did great ok! *doing the "tititititit, eh salah pusing* hehe!

Sheesha was bad. i need another one at Al Majlis, cause Dee very tak puas with Al Tazzaq's. But but having the room to ourselves is pure coolness with lame jokes, battle of the dance ( maklumlah aku ngan Ili suker jadi bahan ketawe), very unstable wall, ghost stories, stupid stories, digging up of old stories, fights, laughters and heaps of it. it was FUN with them girls! sayaaaang korangs!! i'll post the pictures real soon. *shouts at Adliah "Mak cik, nak gambars!"*

i miss you.


absence makes the hear grows fonder

Dreams are how we figure out where we want to go, life is how we get there

i love wirtting special post for my loves one. so to add to my collections, here goes, for that crazy girl that never fails to crack me up with the utmost LAME craps/jokes ever, Ms Nur Ili Liyana Izyan! ( panjang eh? haha!)






GOOD LUCK for Khatu later! I'll be down there ( carik aku tau!) shouting and cheering for you! wohoooo! *shouts and sing along "nanananaanna"* hehe. Babe, this has been your dream so go and prove to others. wa caya sama lu la! Mane la tau kau jadi bintang after this! haha! eh aku nak autograph kau dulu bab takut kau luper aku biler da FAMOUS! HAHAHAHAH!

Babe, good luck! Jangan nervous-nervous hor!


on a much serious note, i need to get back to my reports! BOLEH MATI LAAA! Dee punye side-tracking melampau ok, da terlebih had yang maksimum! ( kalau ice-cream da cair! haha)



If it's good, it's wonderful, if it's bad, it's experience.

Relish the pure beauty that can be found in the most seemingly ordinary moments

cause im sick like that and i freaking dont like it. *sniffs sniffs* blame it on my playing in the rain session-ss that i LOVE ohh so banyak-banyak. ( ah kan da sakit!) sheesh!

project meetings can be a you know, i know, we know sometimes. i was doozing half of the times, macam biasa la kans. and them, groupmates can be such jack-ass ( HAHA) with Mr DB singing twinkle twinkle little star as my lullaby. sheesh! kurangs! the only time i wasnt sleepy is when David and me were busy video watching, Mr DB and Shawn showed other' friendster profile, bitching about others and joking around with them. HAHAH! and ohh i did contribute ok, asked the groupmates! (in defense of myself. hehe!)

and and i want to say a HUGEHUGE THANK YOU to my only girlfriend/lesbian partner cause she has been such a sweetheart and having lunch-es with me. Adliah, i sayang you! hahaha!

the meet up with bestfriends is LOVE. it's been eons since i met up with Marliany and Shaf! Catch things up and bitching, ohh it was fun! and Shaf eventhough you have to go off earlier, it was nice catching up with you and OHH! SING YOUR LUNGS OUT besok ok? haha! we ( read: me, Marl and Imran) headed to NTUC for window shopping, macam paham la kans! haha. after which, Imran suggested Fish n Co after lots and lots of changing of places to eat ( die sungguh indecisive!) sheesh! oyster, baquette, calamaris are good foods! and and thanks Imran for treat! *smiles*


cause i love you, just that way

cause all we need is love

the plan to sleep at Cipah's place is so impromptu and i LOVE impromptu-ness laaa! it started at MAG meeting which was unusually kecohs ok. but i cant wait for camp, sounds FUN!

anyhoos, the sleepover at Cipah's was FUNNESS laaa! the charmed sisters finally REUNITE! haha. and and we're the first friends that have ever slept over ( HONOURED ok!). we were friendster hopping and bitching, kuliah cinta-ing, crapping, laughing, tergolek-golek-ing, laughing and laughing our morning away. and and a HUGE THANKs for the guidance to Cipah and her mom that save my heart! ( hehe!) sayangs korangs sumer laaa! LOVE! *shouts "DULU AKU BASE TIME BUAT PYRAMID!"* HAHAHAHAH!

met up with the birthday boy and off we head to town. the weather's so UNPREDICTABLE. ohh wells, there's always another day for Sentosa! *winks* ayam penyet, Scary Movie 4 at Cine lvl 9 which was sumpah kekek cause it's FULL of craps, Mc D's, Marina Sq, meeting up with Su and Yuz, Esplanade for chilling session, Mc D's again ( as ironic as it sounds, i think the boy is a HUMONGOUS FAN of Mc D! haha!), walks, jokes, teases, laughters and a whole lot laughter. i had a FABULOUS time!

i hope you had a BLAST celebrating your special day, which i know you did. hehe. and i know you love my brownies! and and of course im sweet, im Diyanah remember? haha! *sticks out toungue* and thanks for a BEAUTIFUL day love!


the sleepover (beware ADORABLE but UGLY pictures!),









my charmed ones!


his 20th birthday,


now go awwww *looks at brownies* HAHA!














it was FUN!


dance me to the end of love

nothing lasts forever. so will you be my nothing?

before anything, this will be the first and insyaallah, the last time ( i guess), i'll post a mushytothecore entry *blushing like mad* you've been warn ok? haha.

so i finally found that MR WRONG that made it RIGHT in so many ways. it took me a WHOLE LOT COURAGE to be in this relationship cause i FEAR of alot of things. i fear of getting hurt, falling out of love, changes, commitment and so ons and so forth. im not good in expressing my feelings, so i hope without telling, you know that im grateful and am blessed to have met you. *smiles*


to the person that has added more colours to my life,

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!




Awak! Happy 20th Birthday! May you be bless with wonderful things in life and be in the pinkest of health always. insyaallah. Have a great time celebrating your special day! and and do put on more weight and look your age! hehe.

It was weird how I thought I'll never see myself with you due to many reasons and im just plain choosy. heh! I guess fates has it's ways and guess what? it's been a lovely 10 days. *i can see LOTS and LOTS of mouth wide open* hahaha! so WOW! you're my first and do be my last hor? hehe.

thanks for everything, for making me laugh with your stupid antics, for making me smile with your sweet actions, for being there, for tolerating me and for being you.

i don't believe in forever but i hope this last. *smiles and shaking head*

your favourite girl for now,

Diyanah

I know there's something beautiful, in all imperfections

we ( read: me and Veen je! haha) were geared up to take our NAPFA test. and our main intention is to get Participated. and it was funny that i could do ALMOST everything except for inclined pull up, susah sampai boleh mati! BUT then, the rain has to interfere and we can't take our 2.4. so guess what?? WE NEED TO TAKE AGAIN! like sungguh membuang masa dan rasa kemalasan yang tak boleh carry ok! sheesh!

however, i did have a great time playing with the rain *winks at Veen* we were shouting, twirling and turning around. i fulfilled Veen childhood wishes. hehe. i love rains! *dancing in the rain*

dance was tiring macam biaser but nonetheless fun. we've completed the dance for Charity Show. a HUGE YAY! *smiles* after which had our lepaking session at Mc D. it's been awhile since we laugh at stupid stuffs and jokes. haha. and im glad that things wasn't awkward as i thought it would be. pheeeeew! sayang korangss!

and and i fall deeper as each day passes by. *heart flutters*


One day your life will flash before your eyes, make sure it's worth watching

There is something truly beautiful within you that is longing to be expressed.




a deep breath and baby steps
thats how the whole thing starts,
it's a long slow beautiful dance
to the beat of a heart.

My smile is my makeup

dance was tiring but fun as usual. i was feeling very lethargic, sungguh lemah and i didn't know why. sheesh! there's quite a number of performances coming up, back to back. i hope they could give me the level of commitment i want, i know them girls can do it. yes, we shall dance our sweats away! hehe. sayaaang korangs!

i wanted so much for sheesha but ohh wells, ape kan daya jodoh ku bukan dengannya ( HAHA!). so we headed to CB, Clarke Quay instead ( our next favourite place) since it's very peaceful and by the river ( kononnye romantic laa. hehe!). and a whole lot thanks to Cips and Amin for layaning me and fulfil my wish to take a pic at the glorious dead. and and i love girls talk with Cikgu Amin kiter of course! and babes, i know it's hard but hey, remember hor, we'll always be here. *hugs korangs kuat-kuat*

i wasn't used to so many things that it was almost weird BUT i did try ok. someone told me i was too HARSH/BLUNT, im just not good in sugarcoating my words laaa. sheesh!


and for the pretty pictures taken ( credit to Amin),


at loong last! kents, i know!











1's alone

2's a company

3's a beautiful companion







hadapi semua dengan senyuman

I feel butterflies floating around inside

it was nice to have the first tutorial, and having tutors calling up your name just when you're about to doze off, asking questions and causing you to be clueless. haha.

anyhoos, as promise, i shall now blog about my first time performing with Dian and post beautifulbeautiful pictures during the Kallang CC Open House performance. *smile widely*

i must say, the experience was wonderful and it was great being apart of Dian. hehe! i learn alot of things and i made lots of great, gereks friends. i hope, it doesn't end here. so cheers! to more wonderful time with them. now now, let the pictures do the talking hor!


Kallang CC Open House,






busuk sesangat! haha















Amin dearest!





thanks Abang.


home sweet home.


And there might be some rain,
But the clouds are gonna clear

♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


I forget my existence in a deep kiss with you