Be with someone who knows what they have when they have you


my weekends was spend with the family and the boyfriend. ooooooooooohlalala!

i was having butterflies introducing him to my whole family, the maternal's side on Saturday especially the grandparents. but im glad all went great, because my family rocks! haha. and the boy fits just fine with my family. phew! and as usual his ratings with the makciks and pakciks are good. hmph! hehe. the family pit at Pasir Ris was AWESOME! we karaoked (only my family karoake at the beach!) and them aunties becoming background dancers, we played charades, we bbq-ed, we laughed all night long with the jokes, the teases. too much laughters, too much! ah, i love my family! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY APRIL BABIES! hehe.

in the weee morning, the parents, the boy and myself headed to Johor to top up petrol. sungguh impromtu la! we had way late supper/way early breakfast munching Ramlys while waiting for the cars to be washed and talked about nothing at all. going home was crazy with the jams and the boyfriend stubborn-ness not to follow behind my dad and us ending up heading home way later than the parents. haha. but it was ohhhh so love, love, love having this kinda night once in a while.

and i didn't get to eat my McGridles because both of us woke up late (haha!). so i had to make do with nasi lemak at Changi. sobs, next week nak makan jugak! hahaha. Formula One Drift was oooooooo-kay because i really don't understand the hype at all! trying to, trying to and thank god, the boyfriend too wanted to go off earlier because according to him the drift is normal. i was just happy to get out of the scorhing hot place laa and so we headed to the new Downtown place and watched a magic trick performance while enjoying ice-cream. cinta sesangat!

i had a wonderful weekend! ah, here come's the crazy work week! andand have i mentioned that i tendered? bliss. =)


Pasir Ris Park with family, (the only pictures i have)







my cousins
my favourite Mahir,






Nothing can ever steal the joy of this perfect moment

Faith doesn't make things easy... it just makes them possible




this was taken when we were at Seletar Dam around midnight where we were fooling around the whole morning. i remembered asking him to pose as i was feeling-feeling photographer. the boy layan-ed me every single time, and also because he was feeling hot. HAHA! and even if noone thinks he's hot, he is to me, me, me. nyeh!

this boy is wonderful in million ways, in little little million ways. and i know, in the future if we ever get married, he'll take good care of me just like my dad. i used to get mad at him for fetching his family members everytime and not minding the time, sometimes in between our dates and he never fail to buy breakfast/lunch for his family every weekends before meeting me sometimes resulting in him being late but i finally realised that it's silly for me to do just that because it shows what kind of man he is, a wonderful one.

and because he dotes on me, he too, fetched/send me wherever i want to, he brought me food in large portion because he always think i need to eat more and also because "you mane makan sikit" despite my size whenever im hungry, he take good care of me and even laughed at me when im sick walking like a nenek and puking at him, he became my punching bag when im angry and he's the bestest hug when im down.

actually, i just miss my boyfriend. he took good care of me after my parents this weekend because i sprained my back while dancing (silly me!).and now that he's in camp, im quite bummed. garh!

i love you boyfriend, alot.

God's precious gift to me.




you know how we always take for granted the people that are most closest to us? without realising, i've always forgotten how blessed i am to have my family. not perfect, but perfect enough for me.

i called papa at 9.30pm to fetch me at work and in an instant he came with the family. i love him for not minding the distance every single time. i would call my dad to send/fetch me whenever i feel lazy and almost everytime, he never dissapoints me (unless he's working or schooling). he made me cry just now because of his words, his words can hit me real bad. i know he meant well, but i rarely get this so i cried. i am a crybaby in the family, always will be. pa, your little girl is growing up just fine and believe me, she's the most kental one among her friends. don't worry so much pa. whatever others might say isn't important, because you brought me up so well and i know how to differentiate the rights and wrongs.

mama was trying to make me laugh the whole time, asking me questions after questions to which i ignored. and after awhile, things was back to the way it is, because mama is a natural in breaking awkwardness. i love her because she's the coolest and the most hip mother ever, trust me on this. hehe. and ma, thanks for the hugs and the kisses, and making it all better. i love you ma for being a hero to us. you're a wondermum, i wish i'll be like you when im a mother in the future. because you rock my world and so much more.

my parents never fail to make me feel like im 10 all over again.

kakak sayang mama and papa banyak-banyak.

And when all the stars align at just the right moment...
That moment can be perfect.

mama had a serious talk with us, about us when he went to my place just now. that boy actually booked in tomorrow la so i insisted on spending more time with him even when it spell 2 hours. it's not that he's going to be away for weeks or months, but oh well! hehe. we spend the time washing the car and watching Horton's with the whole family. bliss just bliss.

back to the talk we had with mama, i was suprised that mama had actually think about us in years to come. and i really mean YEARS! haha. we did have our future talks, but it was more of little little dreams to us. dreams that we hope to come true. insyaallah. mama talked about alot of stuffs, about understanding each other, about compromising and about love. she went on about the fact that im already 21 (she insisted la even when i said my birthday is far away and im only 20!) and i need plan early in whatever i do. she talked about stuffs that made sense which open up my eyes.

im thankful to have cool parents that trust me enough. im blessed to have them. i love my parents.

and mama, to the question that i refused to answer (even when i know you know the answer)...

yes, i love him veryveryvery much.

=)

Among those whom I like or admire, I can find no common denominator, but among those whom I love, I can: All of them make me laugh.


there's so many stuffs that has been happening. life's been pretty hectic with everything at all. my whole week was packed and it's exhausting like that. exhausting but fun.

on the 10th, we turned 16th, and we had a wonderful dinner at Js Wok & Grill. we had been spending silly times together, random dates which was full of love. hehe. he's been fetching me from wherever and i love it like this. BUT today, he's going back to his camp and thus back to meeting him once a week. BAH! cik KUDUT, im going to miss you alot, alot, alot!

the secondary school bunch gathered at East Coast for dearest Tisa's 21st birthday celebration and i had an awesome time with them, laughing at silly matters and crapping around over seafoods and bbq wings. after which, we drive down Kallang port ( i think, hahaha) and sat there for more craps. if only, Marl could join us there. guys, we HAVE to make paintball happened okay! so gather all the boys we have and we shall do paintball very soon. i love you people la!

the trip to Little India with my charmed ones (it's been a long time!) for threading session and dinner at Desker Rd was fun. i can't stand Ms Mahani and Ms Liyana fighting every single time they meet. tsk! it was love having to spend time with them girls and making fun of Ili's first experience getting thread. HOHO! Mc Ds for dessert with Ayu joining was full of random talks and laughters. and Ili, stop lying to the people around you. DOSA ok! kaki sakit konon, nanti you betul-betul walk like that then you know. nyeh!

i finally had a date with the girlfriend. she brought me to the GESS production at SP and i was dozing off during the band. haha! thanks la eh jeng for nudging me every single time. late night Simpang was full of catch ups and bitchy talks. my girlfriend is very bitchy if you don't know, laughing at me with the boyfriend. very rude k Adliah! and i sleep very nice la! hahahaha. and gf, please stop being too busy for me!

after eons of not performing, i finally made me debut at AMK Hub. ehem! and thank god, i did not make any MAJOR mistakes. hehe. but the ride i had to go through before the performance was a huge TSK la. at the very last minute, the zip to the corset had to buat perangai and my rambut was nowhere to be found. thank god for Hadi and Shahiran for the instant alterations of my corset zip (zip jeans pun zip jeans la!) hahaha. i had fun performing and i heart them Dian-ians!

the alumnis of SNTs (my batch) finally reunite at Sha's chalet. and i reallyreally miss such moments, where we will be having random lunchs, lepak sessions. those were the times but i thank god that eventhough each of us are heading to different directions, we still are very much in close contact with one another. we were joking around and laughing so hard while enjoying the BBQ foods. and our boyfriends just had to mind their own business the whole night. hahaha! love just love!

last night, the family went Johor without me again! tsk! ni tak boleh jadi, i have to stop silent-in my handphone! i miss such nights with the family! sobsss!

i miss my KBs and they very jahat because they want to meet the day i have dance. aku sedih okay, hati terbelah dua! hehe. meet you bastards soon ok!

OMG, this is rather a long entry! hehe. oh wells, have a great week people!


no other love like this,









Kallang Waterfront thingy,





the trip to Little India,





my girlfriend,





Dian,






Dian, Attri and GDMS.




Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.

And you’re the end of my nights,
The starting thoughts at sunrise


i finally did something funky to my hair. YAY! but im still adapting to my new hair colour because it's like a total culture shock to me. i've been with black hair my entire life and with the new colours, i swear i couldn't see the ohsosweet Diyanah anymore., now it's more of the wild Dee. HAHAHA. and the boyfriend reaction, very negative la! tsk! thank god, Liy and Imran thinks my hair looks pretty fine. i'll rock it, im sure i will! =)

my trip to bank, Bugis. Boonkeng, town with my KBs was fun, fun, fun! them girls rock my world! gue sayang banget sama korangs! we (me and Liy) did our hair(s) and sitting in the saloon for almost 4 hours with her just crapping and joking around was awesome la. andand shopping was the best, we got ourselves good bargains! CHEAPOS! hehe! well, well, if we can get them cheap why waste money kan. nyeh!

yesterday, the boyfriend and i went public. i had such a wonderful time. i forgot for a moment how it felt to sit beside him, clasping our hands together, resting my head on his shoulder and just talking about nothing at all while enjoying the train/bus rides. love i tell you, just love. simple things are really the pleasures of life. hehe.

Pillowman was AWESOME! i swear, im coming back for more of such play. and ending the night with my KBs and the boyfriend laughing over supper at Spize was love! now we know where Rivervalley Spize is located! heh. i love them bunch alot, alot if you haven't know.


Sweetest thing in life,





Pillowman,














Happiness is a choice

i love you and i don't know any other way.


indirectly, he was telling me that i don't know how to show my appreciation towards him. it's not that i don't, i really do appreciate every little things he did to me. i swear, that boy has go through miles for me. but i don't know how to show it in my actions. im not good at expressing myself in actions, in sweet talks, in sweet praises. i just dont go around flaunting to people that he's the best boyfriend any girl could ever have. i just don't know how to.

im better in expressing myself in writing, that explains the thousands of love letters and cards i gave him, and the millions of mushy entries i had of our relationship to show how much he meant to me and to tell him that im blessed to have found him. i admit, im bad when it comes to showing my true feelings.

Ahmad Mahir, i know i have never sing sweet praises of you in front of my girlfriends and all i did was to say how bad you are. love, you're not even an inch close to it, you're the total opposite of it. but that's just the way i am. that's the only way i tell others hey, he's my boyfriend and i love him very much. in a weird way, a very weird way.

i love you very much, very very much.

At any moment, the way you feel is the way you choose to feel.

the Gelang Patah,Taman Nusantara trip was awesome! my Kerinting Bastards are DABOMB, always will be! for the first time, the boyfriend and i drive down to Johor so we were very excited, veryvery excited la! hehe. andand we managed to find our way to Zila's place just fine with my very good direction skills of course. HAHA.

upon arrival, we were welcomed with open arms and legs (hehe) from Zila's family members and dearest Liyana. babe, we can't thank your family enough la. terima kasih banyak-banyak. we were eating non-stop hits from the briyani to the mushroom goreng, which is soo sedaps, to the pisang goreng, to the keropok lekor, to the apam balik.

BBQ was the highlight of the day, we had too much foods from the chickens, the prawns, the squids, the satays, the fishballs and we had too much fun from the cute boy who said "Makcik, nampak bontot" HAHAHAHAHA!, to just fooling around, catching up with one another, to the video takings and the jumping shots. we ended the BBQ with durians and lots of it. YUMS! Monopoly while taking turn to wash up and soon all of us were too tired that we declared ourselves winners. but since the night was still young, we headed to have supper with Sup Kambings which is SUNGGUH SOUPILICIOUS, rojaks and my the nicest mango blend ever! i swear i was bloated at the end of the day!

the next day, was an early morning. im being force to wake up! in their words "Dee has always been the last one to bangun". hehe. mestila, penat babe! we had breakfast and then headed to Kota Tinggi. the waterfall is beautiful and the water is so clear, we even had a free massage courtesy of Mr. Waterfall. we should do this again because cleaning up with you girls was FUN! hahahaha! we had Ramly burgers and Jagung manis, sungguh menjilat jari! and oh, not forgeting the lemangs *drools* to fill in our empty stomachs.

we then drive down to Terbau City (if i got the name right) to have early dinner at Stonegrill. a must try place at Malaysia. the food that is being served is sungguh stylo milo and very sedaps. and we had Baskin and Robbins which ended all the meals perfectly! and i bought pretty sandals there! HEH. sempat la go for a little shopping trip.

the trip down Malaysia was filled with too much foods, too much laughters, too much fun and awesome memories and too much love from them girls! i love you girls alot, alot! another getaway soon my KBs!


busokly looking but loved,



































love sesangat!

Each friend represents a world in us, i love my friends

♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


I forget my existence in a deep kiss with you