after dance, we headed to Sri Sun to have our late lunch and it was fun as the bond gets closer. heh. we ate, talked, joked and laughed. after which we headed to Mc D just to sit, take tons and tons of photos and crap without getting anything ( takut seketika ok) and headed to Starbuck just to kill our time. ohh well, i had fun.

headed to starbucks (simei this time. hah) and met up with the bestfriend which ive not met up for a very very long time, Cik Marliany sayang. heh. we sure had alot alot alot alot, heaps and heaps of things to catch on. ohh, how i miss you girlfriend! hah. well, though the meeting was short it was wonderful, love! and please dont let me be mad at you and scream at you again for doing ever so pandai things ok. i love you ok makcik!

and to you-know-who, my darling friend, you have no reasons to feel that way ok but i cant stop you, can i? but whatever it is, life is full of dramas and there is no way you can avoid them so embrace life with grace, not your insecurities. im always here ( you know that right? heh) and will be true to you. aku sayang kau la.

and oh ohh, to kakak Nurazilawati minah yang terkental, aku MISSSSS kau la! yes, meet you on hari wednesday for the meeting thingy mingy. haiz. aku nak gigit kau. heh. =)

this ended my day perfectly, aku hearts same kau la! hehe.


and yes, its been sometimes. hehe.


picturess time,


gi menari bukan berposing.hah


sweetness-ism


sayang korangs!


lesbianism alert! haha


hanyuts la konon!










sumpah, me and wawa are cam freaks. haha


get well soon amin!! hehehe


go blajar ok!



the magic that u do plays on me fine
my dil goes mmm mmm mmm

it was supposed to be the sec school friends gathering. but sadly, almost all could not make it due to personal reasons. ( now it's better that we make plans impromptu eh. hehe) ohh well, but i had a great fun with the sombongest person that never fails to irritate the hell out of me, Shafique and the ever so fun and ohh so love bestfriend, Mal.

we went to Seoul Garden and we had a sumptuos meal with lots and lots of mengaruts merepeks moments, non-stop teases, picture taking and oh not forgetting the NASTY flying oil. heh. i had a whole lot fun la. thanks guys for the wonderful time. aku sayang korangs!!

after that headed to meet up with the ever so kental bunch. well, things were pretty bad at first with alot alot of major problems BUT BUT BUT the day get better and better. the ramasing was ohh so still there ( TING-TONG! hah), chocolatey cake with sweet mangoes, smashing of chocolate cake on face (ohh! the smell of the hair. sheesh!), singing ohh so loudly the bdae song for the ever so "pretty" charmed sis Sharifah Mahawi (hehe!), taking videos, snapping of pictures, rooftop, cockroach, coffe bean, the pssst game, the forfeit (joget sharifah, jangan tak joget! heh) and snapples.

after spending the day celebrating we headed to Ili's house for the sleepover. super fun to the max ok. sitting on the floor of the bus which fyi resulted in a cramped feet, taking of pictures again!, eating, Salaaam Namaste (fuh! Saif Ali Khan super the duper the tripler cute la), the seeing of Ili's zaman kekentalan pictures, the talks, the charmed sister on bed madness ( sumpah di bawah cahaya lampu mengelikan ok), the teases. ah, i love you guys la. thanks for the great time!

and Sharifah, hope you had a great time!! aku sayang kau. happy advanced birthday love! =)



waiting for some lost souls. hah


eat your day away!


i love love love her.




and when the imaginary friends come and have a sit with us!


and you become crazy.


and becomes sad.


the bestfriend gets the kiss!! hah


im loving us.


you guys keep me sane.




we cant wait to get our hands on the cake! heh


Sharifah loves hugging her present. hehe


im cute!im cute! im cute!


macam kat hotel eh? hah


i love us and the madness.


pictures snap during Ili's production,


macam main guitar kan kan? mcm paham je. hah


feeling la konon nak drive.


don't you love the sky?


us us us. hearts!


so won't you take the crazy chance?

ah, i so freaking sayang my parents can.


*jumps up and down, roll from side to side, does a cartwheel and split*
(fuh! perfecto!)

i cant wait for tmr! seoul garden with the secondary sweethearts. super missing them la specially the bestfriend. and my all time ever so irritating yet the most touchable charmed sis of mine, Sharifah Mahani birthday celebration! yehaaa!

Sharifah headed to my house just now after so many kentals trips to choose on where to eat before settling for Long John. kite kental ok! we were feeling very artistic la. konon nak buat design kat paper, at last jari on fire. tulah, mak cakap jangan main api, degil! hehe. did her hair which fyi was nice (maklumlah, Dee hairdresser). it was fun.

ah, the talk with Ili temaning her on her way back home was ohh so merepek. ohh my, i cant wait for tmr. serious ok. so excited la! tidur dlm tent, mandi kat community centre pun Dee percaye. selenger selenger. heh. and oh Ili, like promise, im going to tell the whole world "HIS HEART BEATS ONLY MY NAME!!" hahahaha. im going to miss you la kental!

heh. im so happy. the parents gave me the green light. (ok, can cross the road now. haha)


Aku tak kuasa
Aku tak tau harus berkata apa

To that fun and ever so kental friend of mine, Nur Ili Liyana Izyan.

well well well, knowing you had been great and the memories we created are priceless. im just so glad that we kick it off well and we clicked! i never regretted that Magus Luna moment where the both of us crazily click. macam tak percayer gitu eh. hehe.

and so you're going India for 2 months. ah, wipe that tears girl! heh. am so going to miss you so so much, bnyk-bnyk sampai tak terhingga ok.

i am going to miss teasing, poking, ramasing, running, having breakfast, lunch and/or dinner, starbuckings/ coffe bean-ing, esplanading, walking and walking, conferencing (with that Ms Arab , of course) and doing nothing at all with you! yes, yes, yes, am so going to missssssss you.

and oh, have a safe trip there and dont worry, you will own something that remind you of me. heh. biar bau india aku tak kesah. haha. kau belum lagi pergi tapi aku tak sabar nak tunggu kau balik. i cant wait to see that 2 months effect. haha. maner tau balik, fuh DROP DEAD GORGEOUS. heh.

ili, ili, ili, meet you soon ok before you go off that is. i cant wait! i cant wait for the future plans. am going to have a BLAST before you go off ( si Mahani abis exam lambat la). hehehe. Ili, you have been a wonderful friend to me and knowing you is one of the bestest thing that have ever happened to me in my life. i love you alot alot.




i love us and the stupid things we do.

from your ever so cute friend,
NurDiyanah

ps. see ni entry specially untuk kau, just like you wanted. muacks!

accompanied nenek to visit the uncle. it was a wonderful trip with nenek topping up my prepaid. i ohh so love her to tiny bits and pieces. the uncle looked so happy and eager to go out. i hope this will be his ever last stay. so the grandparents will be the happiest parents around. haiz. too frequent too many.

and oh! it was so unbelievable. we actually jogged!! JOG people! JOG! hah. went for 2km before walking back and jogging for a short while. it was fun. if this were to continue, ah, the results! hehe. we had it all plan out, if it were to rain, gym here we come. oooo la la la. im loving the maintain badan club and the members of course. cheerios to Caca and Indah for making it to the first run. =)


I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer

the lil cousins went to my house today. super kecohrables la drangs. bringing them to the nearest NTUC was very tiring yet very very fun. stopping at every playground there is and every void decks with chairs and dripping ice-creams and their sticky icky super meleket body. ah, cuteness la.

met up with Shaf in the evening. catchin up, stories and more of it, laughters, 20 nuggets, large ice tea and chocolate sundaes. yummy! 3 hours at mc d. wow! hehe. i had a wonderful time. and oh dont worry so much about your papers. you'll do just fine maklumlah da jumper aku sebelum exams. haha.



thanks for a jolly great time!


Ku mencari tanpa pegangan
Dan tersungkur di ketepian

headed to Sp to meet up with the bestfriends. 45 mins worth of train ride that have always bore me. fortunately, there was the brother's i-pod to keep me accompany and a few cute guys around. hah.

so we went to their fc3 and had our lunch there. ah, it's been sometimes since i met the bestfriends. it was fun meeting them and getting to tease each other. oh and btw, their milo is expensive. haha. so we catched up and talked about alot of stuffs. wanted to take pictures, but the ever so clever me brought camera with a low batt. sangat terpandai ok.

ohh well, Susu had to leave us for her study meeting and sadly we parted. hehe. followed Mal to MediaCorp Publishing building to collect her prize. stopped at the wrong bus stop, run in the rain, walked and walked. Mal, u better love me big big ok. =p ah, the laughters and the wonderful time we had beats the ohh so annoying rain. i love my bestfriends. eh korangs, good luck for ur papers la. and yes im teasing. wakaka.

oh oh oh, i ngaji!! at long last, i am free on a Friday evening which I will make sure I am if there's nothing really impt coming up. i miss the feeling of ngajing and it was fun. the best part, cikgu comes to my place.

and it's thinking day! if you were once a guide, you know. Come all my sister in guiding specially Tasha and Ili sing with me " Hey Hey Hey, it's Thinking Day! Everywhere is Thinking Day! In Mexico, it's Thinking Day .... " hahaha.


These wishes I wished and dreams I chased
Take this broken heart and make it right

mungkinkah kau tahu
rasa cinta yang kini membara
dan masih tersimpan
dalam lubuk jiwa

ingin kunyatakan
lewat kata yang mesra untukmu
namun ku tak kuasa
untuk melakukannya

mungkin hanya lewat lagu ini
akan kunyatakan rasa
cintaku padamu rinduku padamu
tak bertepi

mungkin hanya sebuah lagu ini
yang selalu akan kunyanyikan
sebagai tanda betapa aku
inginkan kamu

- ungu, laguku

despite all the non-stop coughing and puffing of my ever so trusty inhaler, i had a great time laughing the day away.

it all started with me and Sharifah giving Ili a lil suprise for friendship day. then staying over to watch the production. very funny ok. i was laughing all the way bcoz of Fana's expressions in dancing, Caca's selumberness and her hair-do, cute seh! heh, Fan's menhayati-ings the "guitar" and Ili's dangdut. hahaha. kekek ok.

after which, the charmed sisters ( charmed la konon) headed to KFC cause the princess is craving for it la. heh. we were so hungry but at the end of the day, my appetite to eat was not really there. ah, i hate to be sick! we were recording stupid actions and shoots ( Ili had her school video camera), laughed and laughed like we own the place (buruk ok). hah. walked towards the bus stop and while we ( me and Ili) were teasing each other, pushing and pushing, i accidentally pushed her a lil bit too hard causing her feet more pain than the previous injury she had. sheesh! and we had a chat with an apek with a walking stick, itu apek sarcastic lebih. kelakars.

then sat at one of the void deck when all the stupid nonsense stuffs happened. sharifah now finally master on using the video camera. haha. we shoot Hanyut siri 1, 2 and 3 ( underaged sex, smoking, an offend Sharifah thinks serious waakakaka and rembats sekali! ), we had our own malay series of Charmed featuring Sharifah as Tipah, Diyanah as Peah, Ili as Joyah and the walked towards the bus stop with me and Ili practically making a fool of ourselves. super merepeks and mengaruts and menggelikan peruts ok. ah, sayang korangs! and ili rest well ok, serious aku sorry banyak-banyak.

the father was so happy cause apparently he said he did well for his presentation. suker tersangat bapak aku tu. haha. the sister is angry at me just because i didn get her the construction papers. bah.

ah, i miss my friends. too many a name to mention. you guys should know who you guys are. meet all of you soooon and dont miss me too much. heh.

what happen to the good times? but again, from a person like you whom mentalilty is of a small child who needs frequent attention from others and only will be close to them when you need a help or someone to accompany you for some shits, it's expected. im tired on making the first moves, the first hi. my friend, I GIVE UP.

ohh, Mr fever is catching up again. i better see the doctor, my medication doesn work anymore.

and blooooging's fun. uh-huh. hahahaha.



I'm searching for some kind of miracle
Waiting so long

what a relieve, my lying down days for hours and hours has ended. im feeling so much better now except for the throat and the heavy head. da tak leh dapat special treatment from the parents. heh. the parents predict my going out streak after im fully recovered. wow, i didn know my parents could read the future. haha.

but now that ive actually think of future plans that im having with friends, i realised that im so preoccupied with alot alot of stuffs. ive got sentosa, seoul garden, fondue & pizza hut, mos, sleepover-s, ice skating, zoo, tioman. woohooo! i so cant wait for eveything but too bad ive to work to enjoy every outings. hah. i shall start work nxt week. lil cute ever so soft haired children here i come! heh.

the father is so excited about the presentation he will have tmr. haha. he's adorable la, practicing and practicing asking me to grade him and asking me which outfit suits him and blas blas. and oh the mother told me a good news just now. yee haaaa! i shouldn be worrying so much about the trip to tioman, i guess. heh. and she specially made syrups for me just because i told her plain water taste of my medications and it's e truth ok. in fact, my whole mouth taste like medicines and the teeth hurts so much and ive got no freaking idea why. sheesh. i love them , parents.

and i went around home kissing my siblings on the cheeck with a super red lipstick on without them realising it. haha. it was funny thing la. just one of my crazy stupid idea. haha. their reaction classic ok. hehe. i hearts my siblings specially the chocolates and sweets they gave me today!

=)



I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful, he's such a beautiful disaster

Stickgal

well well, my turn hasnt come yet. im waiting till the cupid strikes bull eyes. haha. and oh, happy friendship day guys. haha.

the parents are love. i got to eat my bubur eventhough i couldn finished it. well, at least i got my cravings fulfilled. i slept and slept the whole day. badan sungguh lemah la. and zila voice aku sedap ok. haha. and to Sharifah, thanks for dropping by and the beautiful pink rose. am so in love with it ok.


Biar pun ada yang terlepas
Cintaku tak sempat ku lafaz

ah, i couldnt make it for the maintain badan club today. will come down for the next jogging session. sorry korangs. jangan luper larikan aku ye. heh.

the fever is getting worse. the asthma is coming, i hate it when i couldn breathe properly. the coughs is really menyakitkan dada and the flu will never stops. and oh oh, the sorethroat is such a pain, voice sexaaay ok.

well well, thanks Sharifah and her boyfriend Yusoff for playing a prank on me. hah. krangs due memang mengaruts ok. but hey, it did make my day. haha. =) and i appreciate you coming down today. aku sayang kau!

oh, im badly craving for bubur. sheesh.


You took me by surprise and
You stole my heart before I could say no

learn to love hate. cause when you embrace hate, you will find that you could sail through life with ease. it is without question that all of us, no matter how much one try to deny, hate something. maybe instead of learning just how to love, we need to adapt to hate. afterall, everyone knows how to love but they tend to forget how to control hate. yes, control cause with much hatred, fights/ misunderstandings will occur. and no, that is never the solution.

"before we snarl and expose our deadly fangs, take a step back and scan, analyse, use the complexity and treasury of the human brain to see the other side. it's time we let it all go and learn."

and im tired and torn. why do we love to complicate matters? funny, how things can change in a blink of eye. ah, im sick of everything. sick of being the middle person, the person who tried so hard to make things right eventhough i freaking know it wouldnt, the person who feels sorry for everyone, the person who has a freaking soft heart. bah.

" i can't bear to lose such a wonderful fren" -
that bring tears to my eyes. such sincerity from you is all i needed. and never get the idea that i am mad, angry at you. no, im not and i will never be. we are matured enough to think on our own two feet and remember whatever decision you make, i will be here supporting you. i love you.

shaf, thank you so much for always being there. and yes, ini semua tak penting. i want to meet the bestfriends.

and the fever that makes me shiver, sore throat that freaking change my voice, flu that never stops running is killing me. thanks to the sister la. isk. sheesh.


love me tender, love me sweet,
never leave me alone

hahaha. korangs merepek, mengarut, boleh dibuat gaduh, boleh dibuat ejekkan. aku sayang korangs, Sharifah Mahani yang takut kan semua bende dan Ili Liyana yang pikir namanye one in the world. haha.

visiting nenek was superb la. sambal tumis udang that is so spicy yet so menjilat jari, sweet sweet oranges, cookies and creams ice-cream, apple and aloe vera juice, sweets and extra income from Datuk was love ok. i love going there talking and lauging with the grandparents though they can be old-fashioned at times with the non-stop advices. BUT i appreciate their support for me in things that i do and their ohh so tender loving care. heh. i love them ohh so much.

and it is childish to walk away yet it is stupid for me to stay. i live up to my principles in life. there's just somethings that have been instilled in me since im young and it's hard for me. im sick of people taking advantages of me just because im not one who says no, feels bad/guilty 24/7 easily. im not a freaking replacement.


ku bertanya inikah aturcaranya
patutkah ku harung rintangan seterusnya

school is officially over for us, Marketing students. wooohooo! well, except for the very bitchy Comm Skills 2. slooooow ok. every other class has that done and over with la. sheesh.

ohh well, im so going to miss my ever so united and fun classmates. the bitching, the laughters, the jokes, the teases, the lunchs, the shopping trips, the ohh so friendly and gerek to the max friends. im going to miss miss them la.

ITAS with dearest Zila was fun with dripping nose, tissues, cabonara, bandungs and fruits and more fruits. maklumlah feeling healthy. heh. Lily joined us and we had a crazy idea to take pictures inside the spaceship. and it was very funny with half of our faces on the pictures. kelakarrss la. Starbucks with them girls had always been ohh so wonderful with lotsa lotsa stories. orang gilers, flashers, pakcik ngan uncle gatal, dreams and their interpretations and a whole lot other stuffs. you girls are a wonderful company. hearts.



the crazy moments


did i mention that i LOVE her? heh. ;)


the ohh so wise friends.



and to my ohh so wonderful friend that has always been there for me during the rough times, Miss Noraida sayang

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!!



yes, you're still young at hearts la. heh. like the same old routine. im going to wish you the very best in everything you do and may you be in the pink of health always. insyaallah. be happy and smile always. and thanks for the wonderful times and the great laughters. i love you girl and i miss you kental. and ohh ohh, good luck for your exams eh! hehe. you can do it, perserverence. go go go!


When you hear me talking, what you think?
When you looking into my eyes, what you see?

well well well, our main intention to go Toys R Us is to get Zila's niece birthday present. but what did we get ourselves into? we played with the toys which fyi is super high tech and is much jealous by me and Ili. haha. gereks la krangs. i had a fun time at Toys R Us, pandai cakap budak sekolah deprived childhood. aku raser kiter la. haha. Kampung Chai Chee, the she toilet which was much love ( ade orang sempat baring kat sofa lagiks. hehe), Mc D for sundaes and fries, sitting at bus stop for almost an hour soaking ourselves in the sun with stupid stories was great. thanks Ili! i had a wonderful day with you girls.

headed to City Hall to meet up with the sec school friends. Hanisha's heading to Australia this Thurs, another year not meeting. See you soon babe and have a safe journey there. Ate at Gelare, the waffles wasnt that good seriously, headed to Esplanade and we really did explore it seh. sit by the river and talked about stupid stuffs and boy watching was fun specially the ACJC guy in front of us. sedap mata memandang. haha.

and ohh ohh, ive talked to one of my eye candies at school. ooo la la, cute and merepek to the max la die. now i have a reason to smile at him. *smile widely*



im a princess. (ok, let me live with this fantasy)


mak cik nak gi mane tu? cute la anaknye. hah


orang ckp ambik license betul-betul tk nak. kan da angau nak naik kereta.


ways to keep one fit


aaaaaaaaah, sampai hati kau Zila! heh


ah, tidur sekali kan bagus.


and i met them in the she toilet


you girls are ohh so KENTAL! hah


she's leaving again.


Faz and the ohh i like old man Mar. hehe


Cinta hanyalah bayangan yang indah
Jauh dari alam nyata

and i have so many tak terkires cravings and it's starting to scare me. ohh my, i ate alot ok. complete breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper. sheesh. so much for trying to lose weight. hahaha.

had breakfast with the family. nasi ayam black pepper and roti keria. yummylicious la. we were laughing all the way. sumpah sufiyan merepek to the max.

met up with Mal at town and ohh my banyak makan la. haha. Double Chocolate and Doucle Chocolate Chips muffin at Mc Cafe (heaven ok), black pepper hotdog ( pedas to the max but sedap to the core not forgetting the cute workers. heh), Mc D with large fries, coke and vanilla ice-cream.

and and and we were laughing hard looking at two girls who seems to have met KFC old man for the very first time. they were talking to the statue, touching its hands, face, poking its stomach and cheeks. freaky seh. haha. and they actually went for a second round talking to it. banyak stories seh dorang nak share ngan orang tua tu. and people were actually looking at us ( me in particular) ter-ketawe ter-kuat la. haha.

reached home and a pack of nasi kuning awaits me. ape lagi makan la, rezeki kan jangan ditolak. hah. then when I was about to start revising for Comm Skills test which fyi I haven even started. the parents asked us out to Simpang for supper. chocolate prata and teh. deeeliciousss.

my mouth cant stop munching seh. menyeramskan. sheesh.

and dearest Susu. good luck for your test tmr!! meet you sooons. da lamer tak meet sayang aku satu ni. hehe. muacks!!



i love you and our kental faces.




the bestfriend.


mungkin hanya mainan perasaan
tapi semuanya bukan bayangan, bukan mimpi

♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


I forget my existence in a deep kiss with you