hopefully, insyaallah things will be better for us. im praying for the best.

i know life is so full of ups and downs, a rollercoaster ride BUT i dont ever want to go through all this over and over again. yes, just like what Shafique said this is a test from HIM. but im tired, and i just dont want to feel so hopeless anymore. bah.

im glad ive friends to turn to. you guys make me sane. thanks again. =)


We'd go walking late at night
Count the starts up in the sky
Just you and me

chalet was a short getaway for me. a place for me to escape from the complications of the real world. haiz. but how long can one escape eh? bah.

ohh well, it was fun. THANK YOU guys for making me laugh and laugh. I hearts you people la for the laughters, the jokes, the gossips, the walks, the stupid games, the wonderful treatment I got by not bbq-in but just sit and waiting to be served! heh. Yes, afterall im a PRINCESS rite? hahaha. i enjoyed every moment of it. =)

And to dearest Aida sayang, thanks. Thanks for being there for me and all the advices. *hugs* I shall take it as it is. I shall be strong and go through this rough,ugly moment of my life eventhough it hurts. I shall constantly pray to HIM for the well-being of my family.

I miss mama.

ok happy happy thoughts Dee!
Pictures make me smile, i hope it does to you too!


i told you im their princess. see e cup!see e cup!


mrs tay and me. heh


i love these girls!


eileen!


the girl who took good care of me when im sleeping! ;)


who's stronger?


i swear we got nothing better to do



ok! stop fighting over me! hahaha


when a girl meets a girl, a guy meets a guy


we were trying to hard to look cute! heh


muker, nak kene tampar!


yes, i know we're preeetty. =)


angels from above?


a cute one from the cute us. hah


and they play mahjong as if i know how to. bah.


weilin dear, dont be jealous ar!


we're nvr bored of e camera!


the LAMEST guy on earth!haha


i hearts her.


where are you mr prince?

im scared. im frightened. ive learn never to question what HE has instore, plan for me BUT when this happen I cant help but to ask why. to make me a strong person from a very fragile person i am? to make me cry all night thinking of my almost broken family?

i need a hug assuring me things are going to be alright when i know it isnt.
i need a shoulder assuring me things will be back to normal when i know it wouldnt.

it's affecting my freaking life la. it hurts ok. HURT. my world just come crashing down instantly. no, im never going to hope things will be back to the way it was, im just hoping that things will get a little better. i dont want this affecting my siblings. i love them so much that it's killing me seeing them cry.

i need to be strong for them. i wonder how long i can put a strong front. im tired.

berikanlah aku kekuatan.

im drained. totally drained by the countless bickering. it's getting on my nerves, it's hurting me though over a million times i told myself not to bother. but hey, how can i? afterall, im your daughter, your precious-precious daughter. bah.

camp was fun and very very tiring. mooncake cut, lanterns lighted up. yes, it was a semangat 5 minit thing. haha. we were all very very tired and sleepy. the field will be one of the memorable places in school. and ohh not forgetting the amphitheatre. =)

my mind was at peace staring at the open sky. i feel so distance from the world, from the trouble, from the worries, from reality. how sad the reality can be eh.

and im off to ex-class chalet today!!


concentrate seh.


lantern!lantern!


cutting the so memuaking mooncake


tired faces.


all wet after final clash.


nothing related to camp,


sape giler? aku ke kau yan? hah.


terpesona ku pada pandangan pertama

sheesh.

im sick. bad bad flu, ugly ugly sorethroat and mean mean Mr.Fever.
aaaaaaaaahh.
watery watery eyes.
urgh! hasnt it always been the case? dee dee, sungguh lemah sekali. at times i hate myself because of my super the teruk nak mampus immune system and my prone-est of getting sick.

i hate this ok.there's a camp that i look forward to tmr.
=(

on a lighter note. alhamdulilah. i pass my examination! im so glad and happy. all those late nights completing projects were paid off. *jumps up and down* and the hunt for lanterns and mooncake with dearest Aida was just great la. "We got them!We got them!" *dance around*

and i just learn something from seeing the action of Mama sayang. Women the MOST SENSITIVE being. ceh, mcm Diyanah tu bukan perempuan lak.haha. Mama, Mama. haiz. Tapi akan tetapi the most easiest to coax. My mama just amazed me by her actions la. I want to be angry at her also susah. Sayang mama.

=)

so mr superman, come and get me wherever you are

spaceship moment =)i had real fun.

it wasn't our intention to hurt you.
never.
we love you.


Hati berkuntum harapan, tak ingin hidup bersendirian
Cinta yang murni, keikhlasan hati, yang aku idamkan

specially for Miss Natasha Diba aka busok,



HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!!
Jgn luper mandi tau, kau tu da besar!
hahaha.

Hope you enjoy your bdae celbration.
=)

i love you.
muacks.

My hair's so short! I cant twirl them anymore! Ohh my, camne nak mementelin? hahaha. Ok, it still can be tied but it's still super short for me. hurmph!

MIG meeting at Bugis was so productive! Dee suker productive meeting. heh. Im so so glad that at last Ive seen MIG moving. cewah, mcm die contribute banyak gitu. haha. But ohh well, im just so glad we can work our many heads off for one goal. =)

After meeting, headed to Somerset and meet my ex-classmates. A mini gathering to celebrate dearest Chun and Edwina birthday! I sang the loudest ok, ought to be thankful. hehe. HAPPY BIRTHDAY dearies! Im just so glad I headed down. Had soo much laughters! I love you guys la. And yes, cant wait for chalet! I miss Lester I have to meet him! hehe. Weeeee. Bee Hoon less spicy I ensure you guys! =p



you pose!


you blow!


you cut!


Edwina so touched by the card.


i love this girl's bf! hahaha. =p


Jer's being deprived from his childhood. pity! heh


and you think you're cuter than me ar? haha


thorn among the roses.


i love these girls!


they make me laugh. and pearlin dont show off lin's bracelet! haha


Ku cinta pada mu pujaan hati

snappy snap snap!
im going to cut my hair tmr.
im excited and yet feeling very nervous.
im so so so used to my long hair.

nyeh.


Just a friend, that's all I've ever been to you
Just a girl, who wants to be the center of your world

we were having a very semangat-to-the-max MIG meeting. planning games, deciding on foods, calling sub-comms skali tap-tup-tap-tup guess what? Mr Lin just have to cancel the whole thing down. *gedebabush* there goes our retreat. isk isk. ya, the outcome was quite bad la but for once we thought the plan will go on. it shall be postponed. =(

on a lighter note, we had so much laughters and yeay! the bond between main comm is created and strenghten. cewah cewah. haha. which now reminds me of the minutes. aah, malas mode on seh. bah.

the chop-cili-chop and "pssst" game is so super fun. wonderwoman la, superman la. haha. funny funny. and now sitting in front of the computer that i realised, searching for tadpoles is merepek. hahaha. but i had a great time with you guys.

and you know what? tmr will be my last day fasting!! yessa! hari raya here i come! =)



you see how semangat Kak Zila is? hampa die. heh


busy busy calling people.


you see, we're very shy people rite Jing Yan? hah


that's e "psst" game.


and they think they're smarter!


kesian zu kene cut off. hah


now it's irfan turn.


this girls LOVE-es bully-ing me but i <3 them.


the effect of eating telur ikan. haha



muka bongok. heh.


the nicest out of few snaps taken. kaki-es.


and Aida claimed that this is an artistic shot. ye ke? hahha



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♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


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