You can't do anything about the length of your life,
but you can do something about its width and depth

i know i will only get my hands on the computer next year. so here goes,

personally, if you were to ask me what are the things i did that im proud of this year, i can't name any except for graduating. i don't think i've put all my heart and soul in accomplishing things that i wanted so badly. but i know, feeling regretful can't help much either and life has to go on, so i'm trying to look at things positively. afterall, 2007 wasn't that bad. how could it be, with the loves that i received from my family, friends and boyfriend.

so i'm welcoming 2008 with open arms and legs, cause this will be the year, i'm making things happen. insyallah. may 2008 brings pretty schmetty experiences for you and me!

anyhoos,

my time offs have been wisely spend, i feel. i stayed home on a Sunday, just goofing around with the family and annoying my siblings. it's been a loooong while. hehe. and of course, spending time with the boyfriend since he's having his off too. bliss, just bliss. =)

yesterday was total random and i love randomness! the boyfriend surprised me at home when i haven't even BATHE yet! bongoks betul! he thinks he's very funny telling me he's watching tevee when he's already inside my home. tsk! KFC since the boy was craving for it, and since he is a total sumerpunnakmakan, we ordered twopiece meal, zinger meal and cheesy meltz. pelahap! i then followed him shopping (bloody mangkuks!) and all the year end sale isn't helping. boyfriend had to remind me of Bangkok, Bangkok, Bangkok everytime i picked up a top, dress or whatnots. it's going to be worth it, right? so i cut short his shopping trip cause i was green with envy and demanded ice-cream. hoho! so we had ice creams on wafers at Venezia, yummy! after which, we watched I am Legend, i was cringing everytime i heard zombies voices and that kental pun dua kali lima! harapkan padi, padi tak boleh harap! sheesh! but it was good for me at least cause it's sick like that. then Mr Bean decided to call our stomachs, so we had pancake meal and the tahui with balls meal before heading home with a bloated stomach.

today, after having our breakfast cum lunch at Banquet, we rent The Condemned and watched it with the siblings. the show is good and sad and insane and inhuman. you peoples should watch it, really! Steve Austin is awesome la! after he did some catching up with the family, he head home for camp. garh! im going to miss that kental boyfriend of mine, too much la! i had lovelylovely time with him, iloveyou kudut!

the family and me headed out to Courts and had our supper at Sri Sun. and we kept on laughing on the same joke LUARBIASA (hahahahahahahahahaha!) okay, inside joke. i had such fun times, always will. sayang sangat-sangat!

that said, i dont want to work tomorrow! AAAAAAAAAARGH! andand since i'll only be back after Bangkok, do pray for my safety and insyaallah, we'll have a safe journey. andand HAPPY NEW YEAR!


Courts and my two monkeys,







my crazy one,



The pieces will eventually fall into place, until then laugh at the confusion,
live for the moment, and know that everything happens for a reason

The most beautiful view is the one I share with you


boyfriend: you're crazy, really, the craziest ever.
me: *getting angry and mumble non stops*
boyfriend: belum abis la, i appreciate you so much.
me: *blushing like mad*

im a veryveryvery happy girl. everything went as plan though i had to go through thousands of obstacles. sumpah, i felt like giving up half way but thank god i was patient enough to stick through til the end. and the end result, love, just love.

i did the preperation weeks before his birthday. i effing wrap 21 times around a box, with each wrap unfold there's a GOOD characteristic of me. nyehaha! and everyone should know by now that wrapping and Dee can never get along. i used staplers, big scotchtape, small scotchtape (HAHA!) the wrapping is buruk tak terkata la but ohh wells, i managed to make the last wrapping the nicest! phew! then i filled the small box which contain the watch with candies and lots of them! i made a card for him which requires patience from the impatient me and i love the final product, lawa noh! =)) i book a room for us after knowing that KL is cancel cause there's no rooms available. tsk! since im broke, i asked boyfriend to sponsor me 200 buckeroos (hehe) for his celebration cum my gift for our 1st year. and because boyfriend loves me, he reluctantly (HAHA!) agreed.

i woke up early in the morning, and headed to NTUC for groceries shopping (SUSAH DATANG ni!). at home, i was busy-ly cooking pasta and making fruits fondue! my first time cooking without much help, PROUD or whaaaaat! and im glad to say that, it taste good cause my cousins and siblings were feasting on them! ehem! i think i want to become a chef la. hurhur! i then packed pinggans and cawans from home. imagine the bigbig plus effing heavy bags i had to carry! sheesh! i got my room BUT it wasn't clean yet and guess what, they actually gave me the wrong room. waduh! once settled in the right room, i drag table and sofas and start to arrange the food and everything. and of all things, i forgot PETALS! ohh wells, petals or no petals the plan has to continue.

i picked the boyfriend up at Aljunied station and we cabbed down. i was sungguh excited and nervous. the boyfriend was shocked upon reaching the destination and when we went in, he was surprise. the most GEREK part was seeing his face when he unwrapped the box. HAHA! and also the shocked face when i told him i cooked the pasta which he said is sedaps (he needs to anyway! hahaha) and the BEST part is seeing his ohhhokay look when he only see candies in the small box. sungguh CLASSIC! hahahaha. andand he loves the watch! YAY! cause he actually made the tsk! sound when i accidentally knocked his watch with my bracelet and he was showing it off pulling his sleeves every now and then. hehe. im glad you love it!

after everything, we headed to Bugis since the boy wanted to shop and shortened his watch strap. maklumlah, member kudut! hehe. we then had dinner at Tong Seng and we had a sungguh kenyanging dinner with additional otahs and shumais! sedaps sangat! we headed back to the room, watched tevees and laughed over silly stuffs and talking about futures and blablablablas and packed for home sweet home. i love you boyfriend! and im glad you love the littlelittle things ive planned for you.

that said, i want to thank Parveen for following me around in search of his watch, Mal for following me around in search for the materials needed and the ideas given, Sharifah for her countless ideas (i love turning to her when it comes to relationship!), Miss Janet Fang Hui Ching my working kaki who constanlty checking out the best rates of hotel for me and giving me ideas for the little book, my KBs and my girlfriends for their supports and ideas, and not forgetting my sisters who followed me to NTUC and helping me in the cooking process! without them, i swear things will never happened. i love you people!

Just for you,


im THAT BAD!





yes, im AWESOME! haha

the little book

a little sneak preview of the book






suker? hahaha!



the watch! the casio watch!
i love you.

Soul-mates are people who bring out the best in you.
They are not perfect but are always perfect for you

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love,
the things you are, the things you never want to lose

My hari raya haji is spend wisely with my family laughing the night away. i love family gatherings, the best, the best! and Nenek and Mak Long's cooking sungguh sedaps tak terkata! thus, the gain of 103893823093492 kg over the weekends! hehehe. sayang family!

Sentosa with our favourite couple, Cipah and Yusoff, was sungguh impromptu! haha. i called Cipah up to ask them to follow us to Sentosa BUT without asking, she in return asked us to follow them to Sentosa. HAHAHA! yes, our boyfriends are scary cause they share the same thoughts eh? hehe. Banquet for lunch to Hypermarket (haha) to search for Cipah's iknowyouknow and to Sentosa. and since, we're really kental, we took the wrong tram and blablablas, we reached Pahlawan at 6.30pm. so we actually took a dip for effing 45 minutes. it was fun nonetheless. hehe. kekek ar kiter! we then had dinner at Arnolds. i had fun la korangs! and too bad eh, we totally forgotten about taking pictures! tsk! ohh wells, more of this and a trip to someplace, somewhere soon okays! =)


Hari Raya Haji,











Sentosa,








In time of test, family is best

Something special happens on your birthday each year


cause when the clock strikes 12, someone i truly adore turns 21. and to that boy, the one i can't get enough of, Cik Ahmad Mahir kudut-kentalan lodehs, HAPPY 21st LOVE!!!! *throws confetti*

you, may you be bless with all the pretty and cute things in life like me, of course! may this year brings thousand of joys and happiness to you and may you be in the pinkest of health always. and because birthdays are a BIG DEAL to me, i hope you're going to enjoy what i've in store for you over the weekends and of course my littlelittle gifts. candies and lots of them like ive promise! =)

and please stop bugging me on what i've plan for you over the weekends. we shall have a small getaway. please don't spoil your surprise ok sayang?


boy, i love you so much and i miss you effing much la!

There is only one success,
To be able to spend your life in your own way

it's been awhile and i miss the worldwideweb! gosh, work and going out definitely kept me busy, busy, busy! but my life has been good i must say. alhamdulilah. what more can a girl ask for? ive got a lovely family who drives me insane, a fabulous boyfriend who is such a sweetheart and great friends who provide awesome company!

that said, i can't wait for the weekends with dearest boyfriend and next week for Bangkok! *jumps around*

ohh ohh, Selamat Hari Raya Haji!

Dian's 5th Anni,



















LOVE!
Our night (AKU NAK GAMBARS!!)
we ran like that! tsk!








It seems I'm head over heels, a case of L-O-V-E
It's like I'm glowing inside, yeah a light I can't hide

Too beautiful for words




he send me this (read:pic above) one random night, along with "you'll be my princess and i'll be your number one always" and it got me sleeping with a smile like a crazy girl. yes, the silly things we do when in love. and don't ask me about the moustache, i guess the boy wanted to feel manly since he looked young for his age. hehe.

i love the boy because of reasons i can't explain, reasons only the heart will know. i love the boy who never fails to carve a smile across my face every single day no matter how tough it can get, the boy who never mind splurging on me, the boy who's patient when it comes to my daily swings, the boy who try to understand my every needs and wants and who is there for me whenever i need him. but if you were to ask me, what about him that i love most, i'll never find the answer cause all i know is i love him most.

tomorrow, we turned one and im nothing but happy. happy that we made it this far despite the little thunderstorms. happy that ive a feeling so deep that never been so sure in my life, i want him to be my first and last and he's the one i want to grow old with. i want to see the littlelittle dreams of ours come true. we'll work towards that, i know we will. insyaallah.

we celebrated our one year with a scrumptious lunch at Manhattan Fish Market. sungguh sedaps la! definitely a must try! i wanted to watched Enchanted but no good seats were available so we decided to try E-max for movies but no rooms were available. feeling rather BUM, i decided that it's NEOPRINTs time! hahaha. it was our first time in that kental booth and it was fun, fun, fun! and it sure makes my sadness go away. since boyfriend was down with fever, we decided to rent Hairspray and watched it at home. what's best than ending the day snuggling beside him, wrapped around his arm laughing over the movie. the parents then send him home cause he's sick and since his my mum's "anak kesayangan". tsk! but im so grateful that the parents have been more than supportive since day 1. that said, i love you Ahmad Mahir.

and i know, im one lucky girl. alhamdulilah.

andand i hope you like that little something. i can't wait for my big something, a trip to KL all expense paid nextnext weekends. LOVE!

Happy 12th months saaaayang. *covers face and run away*

Ask me how we've come this far, the answer's written in my eyes



Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more



I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been coming to



I'm all about lovin' you

There will never be two things that go together better
Than you and me


i miss you kental and i can't wait for the weekends.

<3

Life, it will embrace you
Totally amaze you so you don't give up

i effing posted a WHOLE LONG ENTRY and KAPUSH!! it went blank! (me and my fingers!) i freaking deleted my own entry. *insert smacking head with hammer emoticons*

i decided to save portions of the previous entry and not made it public because i know it'll have an impact on me somewhere, somehow. me and my 1001 paranoia.

OH WELLS, let me start by wishing my sister, HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY! Ifa, have a great year ahead with us, your pretty crazy family around to bug the hell out of you. hahaha! STOP wearing my stuffs and i swear i'll STOP nagging at you. but i know, it won't happen so NAGS here we come! Ifa, PLEASE BE 15, yes LIMA BELAS, not 15+++++ okay. enjoy your day and have good clean fun! i love you sister!

it's DECEMBER! garh! im so excited over December because we, the kerinting bastards are heading over to BKK! yebaaayebaayebaaaandre! and maybe, just maybe im following the boyfriend and his squadmates to KL right before BKK, and if i were to go, it's all expense paid courtesy of boyfriend dearest! now, that's something to look forward to! *dancing around*

andand so much for having my ME TIME! haha. i guess me and me time don't really go that well. but i definitely made my parents proud by being home straight after work for a few days! hehe.

i started my brighterrfic week Arnold-ings and Starbuck-ings top up with laughters and all things sweets with my kerinting bastards, i then had a crazy and fun dosage of my babes with TCC's mudpie, i was filled with pure bliss meeting the family because dearest Izhar cut his little birdie's off and laughing over silly things, i felt like a primary school kid getting excited at Xcape! and scaring the hell out myself because Haunted House was scary like that (even the rides were not as TERRIBLE la) when everyone else felt it was BLAH! and i ended my week being stucked in the office til 8.37pm! BUT ended it perfectly with the family over silly birthday songs and fighting with sisters just for the sake of it.

that say, being broke isn't bad at all. BUT am counting down til pay day (like DUH-UH-UH) and also when we turn satu. *mentel modes on*

ok people, remember, YOU CAN'T HAVE MERRY WITHOUT ME! hahahaha!so have a gerekelicious week!

Xcape!



the cousins, cousins, cousins,










he's the CUTEST!
my babes,









my kerinting bastard,









LOVE!!

And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come

♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


I forget my existence in a deep kiss with you