If you want to be happy, be


i can't help but to smile when i was greeted by presents from the students. hehe. it's this kind of thing that gave me the assurance that teaching is what i want to do. no, not because of the gifts of course. it's a feeling of being appreciated from a young child, the sincerity from them is priceless even when it's a simple Happy Teacher's Day Miss Diyanah. hee. the teacher's day dinner at Furama was fun! i had too much laughters, it's so funny how we, teachers, behaved like kids! it was really a nice first Teacher's Day celebration, a very memorable one indeed.

the boyfriend fetched me after and despite my bloated stomach, he wanted MadJack for desserts. APE JE k! you really want to turn me into a fishball kan? but well, rezeki jangan ditolak! hahaha! after desserts, we headed home and were greeted by my enthusiastic mum (biasa jugak). this time round, we were talking about how he first make the move and how we met. and he became very malu-malu kucing la. haha! boyfriend, i'll never forget our first date. hehe. i love you cik and i can't wait for Sunday, Johor here we come!

and the long awaited karaoke session finally took place! we teteks had fun, no doubt about it! hehe. we sang our heart out like we were born singer and we danced like crazy. i swear, i was so close to losing my voice. see the video we've passionly put up for each of you below and you'll get what i mean. HAHA! i love you girls la! *sings senggolsenggolan, cubitcubitan, aku menari kau petik gitaaaar"

andand i can't wait to meet the secondary school friends for dinner later! *prance around*


Karaoke with the teteks,










my boobies.

and presenting Ratu Dangduts 08,





We love each other because of our flaws, not in spite of them.
They make us who we are.

Life's not always fair,
Sometimes you can get a splinter even sliding down a rainbow


i had a major breakdown today.

no, i wasn't sad, i guess i was too frustrated. it's like all the feelings that i thought i got over with came back and i really need to let it out. i never brood over littlelittle matters, i'll let it slide by easily. apparently, others don't.

i never really had people not liking me, what's more when they don't even know me. i don't understand and could not fathom the reasons. i mean, come on, we're all adults, and just so you know, im not here to take over whatever position you're in and outshine you in any manner. i don't need the stares or the "look" whenever you see me passing by. well hey, i'm sorry if i'm too hot that you can't take your eyes of me. i'm here to learn, yes freaking learn as much as i could.

everyone makes mistake, you're not perfect either. if you are, you won't be looking the way you are now. and it's perfectly okay for you to approach me and point out my mistakes but it's not okay when you start treating me like one of your students because i'm not. just so you know, the both of us, we're on the same level. i don't understand your need to make a mountain out of a mole hill, i just don't.

i'm definitely making all these slide me by because it's crazy. for your info, i'm here not to please you or try to look good in your eyes. i'm here for the students, for my passion and for the experience. and you, my old hag is not bringing me down.

that aside, Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers in the world! i can't wait for my pre celebration with the bastards and tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow!

me: if i love you 100%, you must love me 150% tau!
him: *laughing away* i love you 600% and miss you 10000%!

Let the things you love be your escape





I finally stopped tripping on my youth
I finally got lost inside of you
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something beautiful is happening, happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

i actually, actually, just miss my boyfriend. *insert sadface emoticons*

You can't stop your heart from loving, really,
it's like standing out there in the ocean yelling at the waves to stop

This weekend, we spend the shortest amount of time ever but it's okay with me (macam paham!), it makes the heart grow fonder. HAHA. it's funny how i always try to maintain my sulky face and then when i see him, i can't help to laugh or smile. that boy is lucky to have me, and im the luckiest to have him. because he knows the exact way to make me smile through my stomach! HAHA! the other time i sulked, he suprised me by bringing me to Paisley and Cream since i've been meaning to head there. on Friday, when my cravings get the better of me and i wanted mediterranean, we headed to Amirah's Grill. hehe. and i just got to see him from afar and i'm still smiling, the silly things love do to us. from afar because i malu to see his dad, and i asked Hafiz to take the briyani instead. i miss him a whole lot.

i finally did my baju raya! i can't wait, can't wait! hehe. after going to the tailor, i dragged my family to Taman to see my friends danced. ah, i miss them Dian peeps specially the teteks. haha! we then headed to Geylang for durians, durians, durians! ohhh, sedapilicious! and Papa, still cannot stop it with his crazy antics. i love my family laa!

yesterday was nenek's sweet sweet 70! and the whole family headed down to celebrate her big day. i love nenek so much, will always do! she pampers me more than my parents. hehe. of course, it was fun and awesome. the family is crazy! we had too much laughters from the jokes and games. SAYANG SANGAT! and Wani, i see you having fun there! hehe. you take good care of yourself and remember have a rocking good time. Partay and study hard babe!

oh oh, the bestfriend belated birthday dinner at Fig and Olive was love. i know you love the bag! hehe. we shall have more dosage of crazy soon! and and the outing with the secondary school with Rohana!! (it's been a long while) was full of jokes and laughters. i can't wait for our escape this weekend!

i better tuck in, tomorrow's going to be a loooong day. examination marking can drive me nuts, sometimes the answers given is too menyirap darah!

that say, i miss my bastards more than anything!


Family, family, family,


papa is well, papa!


i suap you, you suap i!

Nenek's birthday,




our cutest mascot!






the couple game.

the peanut one, rambut ku jadi sasaran!

escandar's the cutest! see the kakak sedare la!





my ladies,







HSBC tree top walk,













Home is not where you live but where they understand you.

Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations.
I may not reach them, but I can look up and see the beauty,
believe in them and try to follow where they lead

Teaching is crazy but in a very good way.

Now i see, the hardwork my teachers put in and the frustrations they felt whenever i (haha!) did not behave. ANNOYING I TELL YOU! i guess its like a little karma hitting right back to me, a little because i was quite well-behaved except for the time i slept during lessons(almost every other day) and when i talk non-stop with my friends. HAHA.

I love teaching, and this path I'm embarking on is challenging with different behaviours and personalities of students to tolerate and understand. But I guess, at the end of the day knowing that I've done all I could to educate them brings me the satisfaction i believe no other job can give.

Being given the opportunity to take over a form class is MADNESS, especially when the class is the weakest and the most "well-behaved". the horror, when most teachers gasped and wished me luck when i told them 4E will be my class. i must admit it was difficult but some pointers given from other teachers made life a tad lil easier. LINES, LINES AND MORE LINES! and oh, the SHOUTING, crazy la! but you know, kids are kids, no matter how irritating or annoying they could be, they're still the adorable little monsters. hehe.

Some may say, its the easiest way out, a safe career or one's last resort. But I beg to differ, it takes a whole lot of hardwork, passion and drive to teach. The rest, in Nurul's word is a bonus (HAHA).


The only way to live is by accepting each minute as an unrepeatable minute, which is exactly what it is.

Ultimately the one beautiful reason to love is,
we bring out the best in each other.

Thank you, love.

Whatever you are, be a good one

The more time we spend together, the more I could imagine it lasting in the future. This has never happened to me before and I'm not sure if it'll happen again. I've never been in love with anyone before you came along - not real love anyway. Not like this.

I cant help it that I'm still head over 5 inch heels with the boyfriend can I? How sweet the power of first love. Haha! Im feeling rather bummed that the boyfriend 3 months course will be starting next week. Now its back to meeting him weekends only! Oh wells, for future sake, whatever it takes! Hehe! *mentel modes on*

We finally went to the HSBC tree top walk, total of 4 hours walking up and down! But nature is beautiful and the view from the tree top is amazing, surrounded by fresh air and trees! oh and and we spotted monkeys (lots of them!), monitor lizards, squirrels and a whole lot of animals! after the tiring hike, we got home and cleaned up and watch Ouija, a ghost story. I hate watching ghost story with him la, he kept using my body, head, hand to cover the screen because he was too scared. Last warning eh you! Pandai mengata orang pengecut, die CHIEF PENGECUT la. Annoying! we then headed to Victory for my chicken murtabaks followed by Bedok corner for my donuts and sweets/marshmellows for my P4 kids! Semangat or what! Hehe. Headed home since mama wanted to see her favourite son, catching up with the family til midnight and off he went home. Argh! Til next Saturday love, I'm going to miss you freaking banyak!

The meet up with my secondary school friends were such phun! Finally, Shaf is present! Honoured la ok, you booked out just for us! I know you miss me like noone's business kan? Haha! We were talking about everything at all. I miss you guys already! Hopefully, our chalet will take place soon! So many plans, so little free dates! Haha!

Simpang with bastards was crazy, as usual. We were going on and on about everything and updated each other about things under the clouds andand we laughed too much(press harder, press harder)! Haha! I love them girls to tiny bits and pieces! Girls, I really can't wait for our next getaway!

Tomorrow, I'll prolly have to stay home to play host because Yan's girlfriend is here for a short holiday. I wonder what the parents had plan for her. Garh, gua harus ngomong sama pacarnya Yan si! but I can't seem to find a common topic, weather perhaps? Hmmm. Haha.

And oh, wish me all the luck for my test this coming Monday! School's out, no monkeys to yell at!

♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


I forget my existence in a deep kiss with you