Let's go to bed with a clearer heads, and hearts too big to fit our beds

me : if you love me, say sorry.
him : i love you but i tak nak cakap, how?
me : then you don't love me enough.
him : beh mcm tu, if you love me, u swim here. if not, you don't love me enough.
me : HAHA! nonsense, mane boleh!
him : boleh, see you don't love me enough.

i was demanding a sorry from Ahmad to a mistake he never did. and he is someone who won't say sorry easily if it's not his fault even to make me feel better. after more than 2 years, i can seriously count the times he actually said im sorry. pfft! but as annoying as he is, he can easily put a smile across my face. and cik, i love you more than enough, but i can't risk swimming across the sea to meet you because i might just be supper for the sharks in the deep blue sea. if i can i would okay! hehe.

i miss my boyfriend alot.

mama dragged me, papa and Hafiz out because she was bored doing nothing at home. so we headed to Warong Penyet and had a feast on the yummy chickens and HOT!HOT! chilli. we then head to East Coast where Hafiz forced me to ride on the 2 seater bicycle which is so scary nak mamps! pfft! we ended the day laughing at my parents dancing to Zapin with them CUPAKS! HAHAHA! i shall post the video here someday, one day. *evil laughters* i love them family!

my karaoke session with my Dian loves definitely started my weekends with a BANG! we sang ol jiwang songs, we dance to dangdut and zapin, we laughed too much looking at each other antics. we are crazy! and and without realising, the people above they are my Team Redang plus 4 more. (yes, yes all 12 of us, 12 of us!) hehe. i love my Dian loves!

on Wednesday, i pour my heart out to my old school loves. sometimes, all you need are friends that listen even when they don't really understand the plight you are in. i really need all the positive vibes, the every hope on earth. thank god, this bunch made my miserable day a whole lot better.

this week is definitely the most draining week of 2009. i have never felt so exhausted just thinking about everything at all. and i am definitely thankful for my family, Ahmad and my different groups of friends. i can always count on them whenever i need a shoulder, a good laugh and a wicked time.

like the time Liy and Cipah accompanied me through the morning at Simpang eventhough it was a working week and Liy stays at Jurong just because i need a breather. the time i talked to Papa til 5 in the morning because i was worried sick of school. Papa was there forcing himself to be awake and assured me that it will be alright. the time Ahmad continue to make me laugh because he knew his fragile girlfriend is breaking down.

i love every single of them so much because they're always by my side through my ups and downs. i guess, above anything at all, i shouldn't let a single issue drained my whole energy. i have a whole lot of loves around me for me to actually be sad.

think positive Diyanah. everything will be just fine, just the way you wanted it to be. insyaallah.

im not feeling too good now. school's been making me feel this way, it's crazy. no, ive yet to cry, knowing how much of a crybaby i really am. im trying not to think about it but i can't help it. thank god i have Nurul in school who really understands the plight im in. insyaallah, everything will be alright. i can't believe how draining school can get and i can't put a finger on why i still want to be a teacher after everything at all.

i have to persevere. insyaallah. now, im just hoping that when they tell me that i am lucky, they are damn right about it. now, i need to go for a drive to nowhere to ease my mind. cehwah! HAHA.

on a pretty Saturday, i was pretty excited for a picnic with my pretty ladies. i decided to tie pretty plaits, wear my pretty dress and bring loads of tidbits and Dunkin Donuts for the picnic. we lay Liyana's pretty big blue mat on a perfect spot and lay all the heavenly cooked steak, brownies, donuts, tidbits and sparkling juices. we then take time to catch up with each other, laugh our hearts out with our jokes and took a whole lot of pretty pictures.

Much Ado About Nothing is pretty good and pretty hilarious. i, however can't really understand the English cause they were going too fast but apart from all that it was goood! i love the set, awesome! and to top it off, having a picnic while watching a play was an amazing experience for me. and them KBs definitely made the experience priceless. hehe.

we then continued our picnic session under the open sky at Marina Barrage, in the middle of the field. the air was definitely filled with our crazy laughters and too much love. to July babies, to our much awaited short trip! xoxo! hehe.