We talk like we know what's going on, but we don't.

i dont like to deal with stickysticky situation. ohh SHOOOO!

i hate conversations that i had no answers to. no WHYs can? just accept the fact and move on with life. really, there's nothing to win/lose anyway.

and i don't like it when people tend to assume. assumptions are the roots of all fcuked up ok.

anyhoos, i do like the fact that im heading down school later. sungguh lamer tidak menari laa. and im so looking forward to tomorrow, celebrating Ms Zila's 21st birthday. FLOWER POWER ok! haha. *senyuman yang leebaaaaar*

and and Papa will be picking me up from work later. OHH LOVE! i love my papa aka my handsome driver. hehe!


make believe.

The family is a haven in a heartless world.

first thing first, SELAMAT BERTUNANG Kak Riza! like OMG, one by one my cousins are getting engaged. sungguh excited nak mampus menanti hari pernikahan! HAHA! anyways, insyaallah, you and Abang Hisyam will last hingga ke jingjing/jingjang ( ni part saya tak pasti) pelamin. cewah! *smiles*

the family was laughing and laughing and predicting who's going to get engaged next and Yan grabbed that title ( HAHA! ). but i wont be suprise if that brother of mine, will be the last to get engaged. choosy semacams ok! ohh, i love them family. karaoke-ing, jokes, teases, laughters and lots of love! sayang mereka!

and and im stucked reading If You Could See Me Now by Cecelia Ahern. susah datang la when I decided to indulge myself in booooks.


Kak Riza's engagement day,


pretty pretty Kak Riza.








ok, one last time, HE'S MY BROTHER not my BF! hahaha!




i miss disturbing the one in the center!


Trying to find the magic.

and you get mad, and get over it.

seriously mr, you and your freaking attitude can get the hell out of my life.

if being nice is wrong, then hey it's my BAD!

*breathes out*


the bestest feeling ever.

A bittersweet life is the only life worthwhile

my raya has been great and wonderful filled with lots and lots of love and laughters. not forgetting those nasty gassy drinks, ketupats, rendangs, sambal gorengs and more fattening foods and kueh-muehs. i think ill gain back those weight lost! HAHA! sesungguhnye aku beraya! ( mak saya kata tak baik tolak rezeki. HEH!)

ive always find seeking forgiveness so KELAKARs nak mampus, i used to laugh everytime i asked for forgiveness from the elders. BUT this year, it was different. i guess i finally found the real meaning of it. and boy, do i get emotional! ( cips should know how emotional i could get! HAHA! kentals kentals!)

each raya brings a beautiful meaning to me, another year of happiness with the family. i am blessed. alhamdulilah.

i hope your raya is wonderful too! =)

OHH NO! back to work at 9 later! sheesh! hehe.


my raya!


the family went PURPLEE!


siblings!










i love ZAFRI!


ohh so adorable!






only 1/2 of the family ok!

it's pink day!


pretty in pink!








a beautiful journey.

Because time itself is like a spiral, something special happens on your birthday each year.

and to my LABU,

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!!



Like OMG! you're FINALLY 21 babe! hehe. i want to wish you a HAPPY HAPPY 21st! May you be bless with pretty pretty white roses ( HEHE!) and be in the pinkest of health always. insyaallah. Hope you have a great time celebrating your birthday and the second day of Raya! bilang makcik-makcik birthday kau tau, nanti dapat lebih. HAHA!

anyways, Miss Scorpio, i want to say a HUGEHUGE THANK YOU for a beautiful friendship. im so glad that we actually clicked without ever being in the same tutorial class ( we always wish we were eh? haha). and all thanks to the world of blogging, exchanging numbers on tagboard (masih ingat tak? haha)! thanks for being there when i needed a sister and a listening ear, thanks for the words of advice, thanks for knocking sense into my head, thanks for making me laugh with your stupid kental antics, thanks for being you! a friend that truly cares! sayaaang kau!

and babe, dont you worry, your Mawi will be at your doorstep without you realising ( wakakaka!). and since you're a year older, act your age and stop bullying me. sedih ok aku, sedih. robek hati aku! HAHAHA!

i love you babe for this beautiful friendship.

on a different note, my first day of raya was LOVE! *senyum senyum senyum*


there is a time for departure, even when there is no certain place to go

This Ramadan has been a beautiful one for me. I finally understood the meaning of it, and am slowly trying to change for the better. insyaallah. baby step babe! i hope you had a beautifully blessed Ramadan too. *smiles*

and I want to take this opportunity to wish everyone SELAMAT HARI RAYA ( for those who deserved it laa ok)! and sorry if i've ever hurt anyone intentionally/unintentionally. afterall, we're humans kan? maaf kan saya ye! and and and jangan luper kumpul duit raya untuk hadiah saya ( HAHA! yes, Dee tidak malu)!

Hari ini hari raya, hari yang mulia, hari bahagiaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Happiness is whatever you decide it is.

my retail therapy was ohh so wonderful! gosh, the amount of money i spent was sungguh unbelievable BUT BUT am glad that i bought somethings for the families and my siblings am LOVING them. and thanks hor for being a great shopping partner and tarik-ing me into the cabin is not the way ok! HAHAHA! *senyumans yang lebar*

and and and am not regretting joining SRK, not a single bit. so i guess it wasnt a MAJOR MISTAKE afterall. hehe! i got to know the Tits peeps better and we were having the time of our life. my stomach hurts from laughing too much laa. sumpah kan aku raser kiter ni verymerepeks.com.sg ( HAHA!).

my baju rayas are very lawa tak boleh pikul ok. and korangs, am not going to cry anymore! HAHAHA. alteration do makes wonder. weeeets! *joget joget joget*

i had a LOVELY Saturday, hope you had yours to! and ohh, HAPPY DEEPAVALI!


And that's something everyone should have once in their life

and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful.

so we went to work with our kurungs. ohh BEAUTIFUL! hehe. it feels like raya ok, with baju kurungs = very manis = sungguh wanita melayu terakhir. HAHA! anyhoos, 5 days off from work couldnt make me any happier, i need the rest. and i HOPE, despite the late nights due to SRK, i'll still get to wake up at 1 pm ( speaking of anak dara yang rajin. heh!).

anyhoos, dearest Cips fetch us after work and we break fast at Teh Tarik with her bestfriends. car madness ( taxis are gilernakmampus!), almost sesat jalan, raya songs, TAPAC for a short briefing about SRK, Starbucks with dearest Ili joining, the A, B, C, D game which almost kill me and Iffah ( i think the both of us get the most beating ) and korangs, tangan aku still sakit ok! (sheesh!), jokes, laughters and tons of laughters. i had a FAB-ulous time! and Cips, thanks for the ride home and maner gambars nye? gua sayang lu la! LOVEs! *hugs korangs*

and and to all, SELAMAT HARI RAYA! haha! better early than late hor! *sings to berlalu la sudah Ramadan, sebulan berpuasa, tiba syawal kita rayakan, dengan rasa gembiraaaaaa*

and and and korangs better mintak maaf kat aku eh, specially yang tak pernah jemu kacau R aku. stop it ok! cute laaaa k! hehe.


a day with kurungs,


my babes!




Nina ohh Nina!




the interns!


love love!


Ini bukan jalan kita, bukan langkah kita

Judge me all you want, just keep the verdict to yourself.

Mama's birthday celebration at Sakura was LOVE! sungguh sedaps foods + birthday cake + a very HAPPY mama + a very KENTAL papa + 5 ADORABLE children + hugs + kisses + laughters = a HAPPY FAMILY! hehe. *shout sekuat-kuatnye dengan penuh semangat KAKAK SAYANG KORANGS LAAA!*

i guess i did a MAJOR MISTAKE in accepting the offer. my off days were wasted just like that. sheesh! gosh, i really do LOVE tiring myself out eh? sungguh selenger tak boleh carry la ok. ohh wells, for something that is lost, something will be gain. i will have a JOLLY FUN TIME and not regreting it, i hope. insyaallah. ok people, pray for me.

i'll be in pretty kurungs tomorrow, and im so excited! my eyes are killing me, they're very teary and veryveryvery RED and it's painful. the eye drop aint helping. now now, is the haze to blame? ergh!


But I've so much to say and it wouldn't matter anyway

I remember my mother's prayers and they have always followed me. They have clung to me all my life.

To the special lady that have guide me through all my life, Mama,

HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY MAMA!!




Mama on your special day, i wish you'll be bless with wonderful things and be in the pinkest-est of health always. May you be happy celebrating your special day with us. insyaallah. *peluk dan cium mama*

you have been there through my happy times, sad times, angry times, stupid times. and no matter how huge a mistake ive done, you're always there beside me supporting and guiding me through. you have never given up on me and always believe in everything i do.

i want to thank you for the support you have shown, you always turn up on my dance performances ( it means alot), you always cooked me my favourite dishes, you always go through that extra miles just to make me happy, you are always by my side when im sick, you even stayed up just to make me hot milo when i have examinations and now that Raya is nearing, you even gave up your beautiful baju kurungs to me without any hesitation when i said it was pretty. there's nothing more i can asked for. and a simple thank you will never be enough to repay all the sacrifices you made for me. that i know.

mama, i know im never that perfect daughter that you've envision but you have always accept my flaws and love me no matter. i know i can be spoilt at times and act without thinking about your feelings, and im sorry for all the hard times i made you go through.

i love you Mama. Happy Birthday once again. the 6 of us ( yes, Papa included ) will be pretty good children. i promise! thanks for the unconditional love you shower us. SAYAAAANG MAMA!


Do you fear the expressions on the faces we don't know,
It's a cold hard road when you wake up

It's about having people in your life that you love and who love you. That's all that matters.

and off we go celebrating my favourite lady birthday. once again, HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY BABE! headed to Breeks after work and have a scrumptious meal, Starbucks, catching up since it's been AGES since we last met, fighting, jokes, teases, snapping of pictures and snapping of pictures, laughters and tons of laughters. i had a FABULOUS time babes! i love you girls alotalotalot sungguh the tak terkira. LOVE! *hugs seerat-erat nye*

im veryvery happy and grateful about my attachment. alhamdulilah. *senyuman yang lebar* mentang-mentang dapat incentives! HAHA! i have a love-hate relationship with work. ohh wells, it's been fun baby! and sheesh! 6 more weeks to go, sungguh the cepat nak mampus ok. hmph!


Mal's birthday celebration


my beautiful lady is in love with her present! hehe




Susu dearest!




















aku hearts sama korangs!


I want someone who knows how completely insane I am

The language of friendship is not words but meanings.

To my dearest, my love, my bestfriend Amalina,

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY BABE!!




Love, you're finally 19! OMG, you're old like Su ( HAHA!). babe, i hope you'll be bless with everything pretty and sweet in life and be in the pinkest of health always. insyaallah. may this year bring much more happy times for you and us.

a lot of things have happened and i am glad that we managed to pull through this and overcome the obstacles. ohh wells, what is a friendship without misunderstandings/arguments eh? hehe! anyways, i want to say sorry if ever in the journey of our friendship, ive hurt you ( i know i did). i want you to know that you have always been the bestest friend i ever had no matter what happened cause you have always been there during my ups and downs and tolerate my childish like behaviour and my hard headedness.

it's almost weird how we became bestfriends cause we have never been in the same class/CCA ever. haha. i guess GOD has a reason for us to meet, it's for you to keep me grounded and for me to keep you irritated/annoyed. hehe.

babe, i love you. we shall have an AWESOME time later with dearest Susu of course. *smiles* speaking of which, she has requested a SPECIAL SHOUT OUT through here (since die kan PEMALAS NAK MAMPUS! haha!), " HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAL! AND I LOVE YOU!!". ok da! hehe.

6 years of friendship and still counting. my life's been bless with 4 wonderful bestfriends. LOVE LOVE!


And time has told me, not to ask for more,
For some day our ocean will find its shore

Remember, we all stumble, every one of us. That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand.

i had a ABSOLUTELY AWESOME time with my dearest SNT-ians yesterday. FINALLY the long awaited gathering/bonding session that ive envision came true. you girls have no idea how happy i was seeing everyone having fun specially the alumnis and freshies. thank you girls and Amin for making it happen. aku sayang korangs! *BIG BIG HUG*

we break fast drinking super big gulp and sweet talk ( passing the drinks aroung was stupidly funny. kentals!), Sakura was sungguh sedapilicious with a variety of dishes ( i LOVE baby squids!), walking around Far East, Starbucks and the passing around of drinks again ( HAHA!), Hawa's little birthday suprise, the A,B,C,D game, cherades, jokes, teases, getting to know each other better, taking tons and tons of pictures, laughters, laughters and a whole lot laughters. and Amin, thanks for the treat! i had a WONDERFUL time! more outings to come, most definitely! *grinning*


my lovely lovely SNT-ians,


super big gulp!


squeeze!


alalalalala, cute la korangs, keciks sungguh!


dearest alumnis!






starbucks.


bdae girl, HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY HAWA!


the assistant and artist. HAHA!








ohhh LOVE!

I miss you less, with each day you're gone.

♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


I forget my existence in a deep kiss with you