Sister oh sister, you have your own freaking brain to think. Why follow me? If I freaking jump down then come jolly well jump with me ok. urgh. ohh well, i need to take the responsibility as im the eldest right. so yes, im to blame. im the bad influence.

Dear Mama,

it's irritating that you always used your tears to make me feel so bad. you know how easily affected i am by them. i hate seeing you cry. BUT i couldn be bothered anymore. if you cant trust me why should i bother explaining myself.

and please stop comparing me with your friend's "ANGELIC" daughter. please.

=(


biarlah ku bertanya pada bintang-bintang,
tentang arti kita dalam mimpi yang sempurna

Abang Azhar got engaged. Selamat Bertunang! Wasnt expecting the guys to start the whole engage thingy first. hah. Ohh well, da jodoh kan. Kak Riza turn next year. Im so excited as it has been awhile since any of my close relatives got married. YAY!

We were busy discussing our dream wedding and dowry. heh. Funny thing, we all seems excited. mcm kiter pulak yang nak kahwin. Cousins are such a joy to be with.

I dream of a white and pink wedding with lots and lots of pink roses at a beautiful green garden under a huge white tent. I want pink rose petals to be scattered all over the floor, aroma candles being lighted all around the place, my only favourite love songs being played and only my family members and closefriends around me. Pure bliss.

=)

walau cinta tak kunjung tiba
tahun pun telah memakan usia
namun satu hal pasti kurasa
suatu masa, entah dimana
kan kutemukan erti sebuah cinta


i want to love and be loved.

Gemilang was fun with lots and lots of snapping pictures. The performance was alright, I had fun eventhough I made a couple of mistakes. Hanging out with Aida, Yan, Sharifah, Ili at Starbucks after show was hilarious, so many laughters and getting bullied by them. Ohh well, you girls really are merepek and gerek to the max ok.

Luge outing with Aida and Fan was super super funtabulous. 3 rides with 5 chairlift rides. best ok. Unfortunately, my dear friends do not know what's the meaning of NO BUMPING. bump bump orang je tau. Sky towers was so cool. Thanks Aida and your friend Raudah for the free ride. Then we went to the beach to watch the sunset and headed to eat Puri and have dessert at Kulfi.

It was a beautiful day. I love my friends and yes AIDA YOU ROCK!! heh. muacks!

=)

Picture time!


pretty pretty!


mak peah muker maintain ok. hah.






hahaha. ili ili.




us with Amin


us with Mr Irfan s/o Kasban.


malu la konon. haha




we look great!


i love them.




up up up we go!




nice puree they have


kau mencuri hatiku tanpa kau sedari.

dissapointed. why walked away when we still need each other to stay strong and prove that we can make it as one. dance brought us together, why let small misunderstandings be the reason to leave.

crying can be so upsetting cause it does not only reminds me of the current situation but it also brings me back to the past. Past that I sincerely wish I could erase from the chapter of my life.

Why do we put hopes on people only to know it will be crushed. of all things, i should have learn my lesson never to be hopeful when the one person i love so dearly and trusted so much crushed me over and over again.



sukar untuk ku melupakan mu,
kau istimewa buat ku.

i squashed a cockroach and it make me smile.

and im scared of the fact that deadlines are nearing. stress-ful-nessy! but i cant wait for Retail Management and Integrated Management Project 1. Individual Journals driving me insane because am still lost on what to do. but im glad at least now my hols mood has faded away.

i love the deco and lighting at town specially CK Tangs. Im in awwww-ed everytime i pass it, enchanted-lyish dark fairytales. i like.

=)


Ku cuba hapuskan rasa
Rasa dimana ku melayang jauh

and do you know that it's very frustrating to talk to wall? especially when you're anticipating a respond/answer from the other party. and it will only result in me wondering what wrong did i do for getting the silent treatment. ive never been a fan of silent treatments. bah.

a hug from Mama the moment I came home made me realised how much I miss her. And it is such wonder that her hug always happened at the right moment, the moment Im feeling down. It made me cry yet feel so great to know that she's always there for me even when we have our countless misunderstandings.

Crying make one feels so much better. I feel at ease now.


I wish you would fade away from my mind.

Marketing Day was a success. We thought we couldnt do it well and the event would turn out quite dull but no no no it was fun fun fun! YAY! How silly, we actually underestimated ourselves. and for those who didnt turn up BWEK!IT'S YOUR LOST kentals people!!

openhouses were fun with lots of foods. 2 hrs bus journey was very dizzy and fun ( you can do alot of things ok) psycho test, laughing at a lil crazy person namely Irfan waving at unknown biker, singing and hearing raya songs. haha.

and i hearts my friends. thanks Aida and Fan for walking barefooted with me though im the only one with blisters. it was so sweet of you guys ok.

Walking from Tekka to Bugis to City Hall with Yan, Fan and Ili was fun. With picture taking-es and jokings around. Starbucks at Raffles were full of test-es, stories and i love the sofas, super comfy.

and im goin to have morning calls. super happy!! at least now i know i can come school on time and not missing the 9am tutorial again. weeeeeee. heh. and Shafique misses me. haha. Aku honoured ok. Exorcism Emily blablabla here we come. and kau tu yang bawak pillow bsar-bsar. Tong!


thanks for the barefooted walk. lurps!


hah. kalau takde muker bongok mmg tk sah.


gagak hitam as quoted by Ili. heh.

i'll post more pictures when I get them. *hint hint*


sekadar sebuah mimpi.

school school school.

i hate 9am lectures/tutorials. ive been skipping them. i hate online subjects. i need to be reminded over and over again to be participative in the tutorial discussion/forums and do the online tests.

it's only the second week of school and i feel so left behind. individual journals due in the first week of December. group written report the week after and then presentation and presentation and more of it. and now we have end sem test. KENTAL.

i love Retail Management and Integrated Marketing Project 1. am so excited to sell our products and design a visually attractive kiosk/stall. downside, forking out own money for products. ive took a liking for my-used-to-hate-cds because a cute guy is in my class and also in my group.

ive been hanging out lately. it was fun with all the crappiest-lame-iest jokes and stories. the company was great!

=)

and if you see me drinking gas-sy drinks, take and drink it or throw it away. thank you. ive been having flu for the past few days and my throat is killing me and i think my asthma is coming and to top it off, the puffer has finished. urgh!


the easiest things are just so hard,
i wish the world would just freeze when im with you.

i love my siblings. i love my bestfriends. i love my friends.

Thanks for all the sweet sweet bdae wishes, the presents. Celebrating the birthday with great people made me realise that I should be thankful to have siblings, friends who care and love me. Thank you soo much. I really am so glad to have wonderful to the max friends like you.

Let the pictures do the talking ok,


wonderful friends that made my poly life worthwhile. thanks for everything!


how could i forgot those candles. heh.


thanks for makin your ears 7-11 for me. aku ingat 24-7 rite? =)


busok, you make my day with your ever kental jokes.


mr-i-love-geeks, thanks for all those stupid jokes and the laughters.


thanks for coming Rohana. meet you soon.


sweet ar tu? haha


you guys make my life insane.


i cant live without my bestfriends.


kiter mmg suker buat kerje bodoh.

The hari raya pictures with friends,


bestfriends.


tasha, busok, kental. haha


we planned to wear diff shades of pink. tada!


thanks for calling and wishing me. it means alot to me walaupun kau lambat. heh


when we were bz teasing fikri. hah.


friends, friends, friends


we had fun.


sec friends that will always be close to my heart.


they make training fun.


bus stop snaps!


like usual, me and yan nvr fails to make a muker bodoh. haha


they can be annoying, irritating at times. BUT i love them for being them. heh


look at Irfan, annoying kn. haha


the pretty girls.


berposing.


thanks for coming guys!


kau yang biasa kini istimewa.

and ive been listed to do this,

"Post 5 weird and random facts about yourself"

1. im addicted to teh peng. ive to drink a glass everyday.

2. ive a fetish for children's hair. i love touching them.

3. im very very slow so please take time explaining things twice, thrice to me.

4. ive really short tongue and been teased by all friends. anyone knows how to make it longer? hah.

5. everytime i like a someone, we'll end up being goodfriends only. ive only fall head over stilletos for 2 guys and it's e same outcome ok. isk



"I kept it inside for the longest time and I can't keep keeping it
All this love that's inside of my heart
Maybe it's safer not to say that I care
Maybe this road won't lead me anywhere

I'd do anything to be in your dreams and I can't stand standing by
With this dream that's inside my heart
Maybe I'm only gonna make a mistake
And there's a chance maybe my heart will break

How will you know you're inside my soul
Oh it's driving me crazy
Cause you don't see, you're the world to me
I'm so afraid to see
The way that I feel for you"

His name is HAPPY.
He's huggable.
He's so cute.

He's the BESTEST BIRTHDAY present I've received.

All thanks to my younger brother. He bought me that and it's super BIG and super SOFT. I love my brother. He made my day ok. Sayang Hafiz banyak-banyak. and I haven kiss my lil brother enough.


Setiap kali ku bersamamu, semua terasa indah bagiku

18 years old.

FINALLY.

Im psyched on the fact that im a year older. weeeee!

=)

Ive gone through some horrid moments that I never want to face ever in my life again. But Im glad that it made me a lil stronger from the fragile person I am. To think of it, I think Ive cried the most this year. BUT alhamdulilah, Ive been smiling alot lately.

I used to wish for fairytales ending even when I know fairytales doesn't exists. I love to think that my prince will come someday. haha. Im such a sap when it comes to romance.

I fell for that smile of yours. And did I ever mention that I hate falling?

I learn to look at the brightside and be thankful for what HE has given me. alhamdulilah.


if it were easy,
i would say what the heart has been feeling.

I was late for the first class. So much of arriving on time. haiz. And it's frustrating to think so much on the first day of school due to groups. BUT meeting friends was fun so much shouting and catching things up.

Shopping was super gerek with Aida and her sis. Soo many thing to buy yet so little money sungguh menyedihkan. BUT i had a great time. Thanks Aida for accompanying me. Sayang kau.

and how saddening when the bestfriends went out without me! sobs sobs. Krang aku merajuk tau. Nasib kasi aku pizza kalau tak nangis aku satu malam. heh. hearts.

and since my birthday is in 4 days time. I shall post my birthday wishes again. heh. and I remembered on a particular tarian practice when we were hearing radio, there was this uztaz who was preaching saying that " It's not good to ask for things" something along that line. well, to make myself feel less guilty, im not asking, im just merely wishing. who knows my wish will be granted by wonderful wonderful family and friends that I have kan. =)


1. Family never have to go through rough moments anymore
2. Siblings always smiling and laughing
3. Parents working things out between each other
4. Being in good health. Less asthma attacks and my sinus to shoo away!
5. Seeing my love ones- family, friends in a happy state
6. Pretty pretty skirts
7. Funky-funky dresses
8. Big dangling-dangling earrings
9. Nice slips on shoes with painted flowers on it ( hint hint to Izyan.) =p
10.a prince riding a horse with a bouquet of pink roses singing a birthday song for me

ok now all of you, don't go saying you don't know what to buy for me ok.

=)


And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish and send it to heaven

and how could I have forgotten to post a special birthday entry for THE MOST IRRITATING yet AT TIMES sweet brother of mine.

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY YAN!!




You are really special Yan. Super special. I mean just who would ever punch, kick, slap, cursed me like noones business, make fun of me till i cry, break a broom, throw a chair towards me and YET still be sweet, kental, funny, the one who protects me, covers for me everytime I did something wrong, be very caring and knows how to make my gloomy day a lil better.

I love you my dearest brother but please don't take everything so lightly. Work hard and hopefully whatever you wish for come true. insyaallah. and for the sake of your birthday and pleasing you, kau memang tersangatlah handsome!

=)

Hari Raya has been great. Meeting, joking around, catching things up, taking photos with the families. And not forgetting the non-stop eating from one house to another. sheesh. hah.

Let the pictures do the talking ok,

Manis bertudung,


we go gold this yr! =)


the family and mak long and pak long.

Bergaya dengan kebaya,


pretty sisters.


handsome brothers.


haha. muke maintain yan.


hearts them.


i spend hrs doing her hair.


he makes me laugh.

Lawa berbaju kurung,


i love them much!


sweetness.


kalau kakak lawa, adik pun same eh..hahah


pretty pretty.


daddy's precious daughters.




aaahh..he's super cute!!



Cute memakai ape saja..haha,


handsome? biaselah adik-adik saya. haha


i love her.


lawa la krangs.


cute cute cuzzies.


mungkinkah apa yang ku rasa akan menjadi nyata?

♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


I forget my existence in a deep kiss with you