But I know there's something beautiful in all life imperfections.

it's a Sunday evening, and here i am at home heeding the boyfriend's advice not to go out after he send me back. and im glad i stayed home because it's been awhile. i feel like having a me time cause firstly, i miss spending time at home just laughing away and crapping with the family and secondly, for the fact that im broke and my pay will be in freaking 2 weeks time. how sad!

anyhoos! here's a birthday shoutout to my girlfriend, Adliah! Happy 20th awak! saya sayang awak! stay menjeng dan rajin-rajin la kumpul duit untuk kahwin ye!

andand im in the mood to yak, so i shall let my pretty stumpy fingers do the typing.

i started my week with my secondary school friends because my favourite busok headed to States last Friday! garh! have fun which i know you will, have a safe journey and do take care of yourself busok! since my sec friends have such a good reputation with punctuality, i thought why not slack in the offce and take my very own teramat sweet time to head over Tampines, but despite all the attempts to be late, i am still the first to reach and had to wait for 45 freaking minutes for them! you guys are fantastic ok! hahaha. but i still love you people la! we headed to NTUC for sushis and then Starbuckings til late. it was nice having to talk and laugh and talk and laugh after eons of not meeting. and please, a real vacation for us soonest okay! love!

it was so impromtu meeting up with the Dian girls on Tuesday! Abang called each of us and off i went to meet them girls after work. Fish n Co for dinner was sedaps! (maklumlah perrrr. hehe) after which, Mc Ds for berries&cookies and mudpie&cookies (do i even get the name right?) and a lil surprise for Ms.Huda Bakar kental, hahaha! and the highlight for the day was KARAOKE-ing! sumpah fun la! too bad, i didn't get to stay until late because Mama was having her pms-ing moments asking me to reach home at effing 10 o'clock. sheesh! but it was fun shiok-sendiri singing to younameitwesangit songs! but the ride home was cwazy with rains and waiting for kental 5 to arrive and running. waduh! i had loads of fun korangs and Abang terima kasih banyak-banyak! i lurp you Dian-ians (hahaha!) and orang-orang tertentu, PICTURES PLEASE!!

the next day, as apt as it is, Amin called the SNT-ians for a gathering since he's back from camp and what's worse is that i freaking can't go out since Mama would be unhappy and continue her merajuk-ing mode with me. so i came up with a brilliant idea and persuaded them girls to head to my place and because they love me so much (HAHA!), Dee's place it is. murtabaks and ice lemon teas and them girls plus Amin are absolutely love! i had great fun just catching up til past midnight with them. aku sayang korangs! and aku promise, next time we'll go Starbuck-ings hor! hehe. and Amin teramat DIVA, gambars!

after years of not heading practice, i finally made my debut on Thursday! hehe. and boy, was contempt menyakitkan segala otot-otot tubuh ku. we practice contempt and Abang then conducted a workshop for us which allow us to improve ourselves. feel mesti ade! haha. and my group rock my socks! hehe. andand then came the surprise which was veryveryvery sweet! Abang instructed us to lie down and close our eyes while he continue his imagineyou'reatthebeach speech, then tiba-tiba the whole lot started singing birthday song for me and Iffah! and a box of present each right in front of us. korangs are da BOMB la! love sangat!

it has become a tradition for the boyfriend to fetch me after work if my GNO meetup is not being executed. we headed to Far East since the boy was craving for fried mars bar which i ended up finishing and calamaris for dinner. and eventhough it was short, it was love having to see his kudut self. =)

after work on Saturday, i headed to Cik Comel's place for kenduri cause my baby cousin circumsised (this does not sounds right but i don't know any other words to describe sunat in english! hahaha). he was being so strong and kept telling us that it's not painful, cute or what! i then had a long talk with my kakak-kakak sedaras, it was love having to see how they look at matter and hearing their advices. i love my family alot!

the boyfriend then fetched me at Woodlands and off we head to Bugis in search for his sweater. we macam paham wanted to have dinner at Popeye's but the queqe was freaking looooooong that it made me cranky because i was hungry. after much grumbles, i decided to give a pass to Popeye and wanting Spize instead, so off to Simpang we went. after dinner, the boyfriend headed to my place and stayed til late watching tevees. it's this kinda simple stuffs we do that makes me one happy girl. i love you.

and dayum, im extremely broke! thank god for boyfriend! in boyfriend words, "Ah ye, part-part ni suara you punye sweet." hohoho! mahu hidup beb!


my favourite busok, nurse and Europeboy,














love!
the sumpah FEW pictures of Dian karaoke-ing night,





ah, happy!
Dian's workshop,


kemarahan yang tak terkata! haha

HAPPY girls!





sayang merekas!
the only picture of kenduri but i love it!


CUTENESSS!
my dates with boyfriend,






If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, keep me in your heart
I'll stay there forever

im twenteen (yes! have accepted the fact that im a YEAR older) and im loving it as of far! so here goes, how yours truly celebrated her birthday (kalau nak tahu, kalau tak nak pun aku tetap nak blang!) andand i have THOUSANDS of pictures but i shall put what i HAVE with me first. for those who still owe me pictures *shout NUR AMALINA SURANI!!!!!*, don't worry aku ni loanshark, i shall HUNT you guys down! hehehehe!

12th Nov,

i celebrated my advanced birthday together with my kerinting bastards. we had a celebrate the scorpios birthday (read:me, Zila and Liyana) with dearest Veen being the planner. although there is no Marina South Pier for us but Spize and our playgroud hideout was still FUN and FULL of LOVE, LOVE, LOVE! it felt like christmas with loads of presents and ohh so cute cupcakes! i love you girls and i swear i actually wish BKK is this month! hehe!

presenting to you my KerintingBastards,


the cutest of them all!

the hercurlsbastards you'll never get to see!

the peaceoutatownupsidetochinatown!

the singingandancing dangdut and hindi sexaymama!

pweeeettty and schweeeet!

birthday girls!







hahaha!

i love them effing much!
the presents! i told ya it's xmas!

13th Nov,

at work, beside them wishes, i received two chocalatey cakes from my colleagues. it started my day pretty well. my thank yous for the cake Janet and Alan! =)

i was BUMMED actually because i did not have any plans for the BIG day itself BUT my dearest charmed sister, Ili made time for me and she brought along her three bestfriends Nur, Liyana and Izyan! how exciting! (HAHHAHAHAHA!) babe, thanks for the treat at Swensens which made us sumpah bloated and a wonderful time. terima kash banyak-banyak for always making me laugh with your classic fall. hehehe. aku sayang kau la!

that Swensens treat,
my favourite Nur, Ili, Liyana and Izyan! hehe!

14th Nov and 15th Nov,

i headed to school because i felt my dearest girls needed our support (read: the alumnis of course). and Cipah, im glad i came down because i would not know how good the dance was if i did not. and girls, thank yous for the birthday song! aku sayang korangskorangs! *boobies hug* haha!

16th Nov,

i was in the mood to dress up and dressed up, i was! haha! met up with my kerinting bastards and headed down to school. i saw many familiar faces and met with friends i ohh so miss. Pentas was a little different for me, cause now for the first time i'm in the audience anticipating the show. Pentas Rahsia left me hanging in the end, maybe that was the whole idea of rahsia. i don't know, and i think my comments should be kept to myself only. the performance displayed are good. i love dikir and Caca is so funny, i was laughing all the way.

and here to my SNT-ians, the girls who are dear to me. korangs did a PRETTY-licious job! i'm still at aww-ed on the dances and the costumes la! and though, the music sucked due to technical/human errors which you girls cant avoid, im glad you girls managed to pull through. sumpah very professional! hehe. and girls, no more fights okay (and let bygones be bygones) and dont give anymore headaches to Cipah, maklumlah die tu da tua! hahaha. and girls, continue doing what you girls are doing, you'll shine. sayang ngan adik-adik dan akak-akak aku! HAHAH!

Pentas Rahsia,

pretty ladies and handsome dudes!





ya, rock on trus!
boobs grabbing, our favourite pastime! HOHO!
17h Nov,

the day started with tears, running in the rain and loads of panic attack. i swear i thought it was dooms day for me. but boyfriend, you made it love at the end of the day. i don't know how you do it love. we had lunch at Secret Recipe and spend time talking and laughing away, i love the train rides because through the silence, i felt the way he feels for me even when i was a bitch minutes ago. it's through the little things that he did, like a peck and a hug. i love you boy. after reaching home, i open up the present he gave me and im a PROUD owner of W660i! it's definitely the best present ever! now now, you guys need not worry cause i can hear you people just fine. hahaha! at night, we hijacked Papa's car and headed to central because the boyfriend wanted to search for his PSP games, we ended up buying stickers for the PSP. pretty stickers, that it looked like a girl's one (mine) now. haha! ShengShiong for his brunch in camp and our weekly grocery shopping. MadJack for supper where we eat to our heart content! thank you love for the day! i lovelovelovelove, melebihi had maksima and totally adore you! =)

my numero uno,





ohh, my current love! sayaaaaaaang boyf!

18th Nov,

i finally celebrated my birthday with my bestfriends! we headed to Lucky for Ayam Penyet and them girls suprised with with the presents! and OMG! i freaking love each and one of it freaking bit from the oh so beautiful paperchase items the umbrella (now i have a beautiful umbrella im very much PROUD of!!!) and handphone pouch to the bangles and watch and pashima! LOVE! and the box, uber sweetness kemama ole ole ah ah! bestfriends, you girls are the BOMB! *sings to cantik, menarik tertarik kau mmg de BOMB!* HAHAHAH! aku love korangs beribu tahun!

Bestfriends! (Mal, pics prish!),







cinta terlalu banyak!

ok, now i shall wait for MOREMOREMORE pictures! andand i shall STOP my going out streak before Mama continues complaining to boyfriend and thus getting me to trouble. shhhh! have a wonderful week people and sleep well! hehe.

Things turn out best for people who make the best of the way things turn out.

Sometimes when you meet someone,
You know that whatever you did before,
It must have been right...
Because nothing you've done could be too bad,
Or have gone too far wrong,
Because it led you to this person.

terima kasih for everything. yesterday was the bestest night of my life. i love you.

twenty. dua puloh. *insert chinese and indian version*

garh! i'm 20, i'm like neither here nor there. *sings i'm not a girl, not yet a wooooman* hurhur.

seriously, being 20 is a big deal, because i'm finally hitting the BIG 2 which fyi, i've been dreading my whole entire teen life. looking at where i am now, this is not where i want to be when i reached twenteen. but i know, sometimes the road is not easy and sometimes you don't always get what you want in the easiest way. i'm working towards my goal, i just need to learn to be extra focus on my goals.

ive been thinking alot on what ive done during my teen days and im glad to say, ive never regretted any tiny bit of it. ive made mistakes but i believe those mistakes played a huge part in improving myself for the better. i partied like a rockstar, i dated with a forbidden fruit, i tell small/big white lies every now and then, i gossip like it's the right thing to do. and im glad i did all that, because now, i need not worry about asking myself the WHAT IFs.

im blessed with cool parents who trust me and who never restricted me in doing what i want and beside them cool parents, i have my crazy siblings that i can count on. despite the freaking hard times we had, the time i cried everyday thinking of home, i would never want to trade them because the good times we shared have always outweighs the bad. i love them with all my heart.

i have different sets of friends, all of which, im grateful for. im glad that i have a pretty large circle of friends, i can rely on. i have my bestfriends, my secondary school friends, my poly friends, my dance friends, my IRAS friends and my kerinting bastards. i love these group of people alot. they are the one who played a huge part in my teen life cause without them, my social life would be non-existent. and im grateful that until now, my late nights are never over and i don't see it ending soon. hehe. i always feel that when we are still young, we should have all the fun we can ever have because it will only come once. so thank god for friends! i also do have friends, a few that have drifted away and i never regretted the time im close to them. there's reason why people come and go and i believe that if we're really friends, we'll meet again soon or in the later part of our life because there's no ending for friendships.

and this year,my birthday is a little different. i get to celebrate it with someone special, someone worth waiting, someone i call my own. my boyfriend. and im pretty excited about it (maklumlah first time ade boyf. hahaha!) boy, you're my first and you know i want you to be my last. insyaallah. i don't have to tell you anymore cause you do know that i love you more than any words can describe. thanks for being that every little thing of my life. <3

i shall sum up how i celebrated my birthday at the end of the week cause the partay's not over til it's really over! have a rocking week ahead!

my birthday started with a rockinglicious good time, i hope it ends perrrfectly at the end of the week.

thanks for the birthday wishes!

The nicest and sweetest days are not those on which anything splendid or wonderful happens, but those that bring simple little pleasures

the week has been love though i wish i could stop being a woman (in Nurul's word) and being emotional over 1001 things. haha. i hope next week would be MUCH better since it's my birthday week! *sings to go shawty it's your birthday*




You're my heaven, you're my spaceman in your shiny shiny suit
I'll send up all my prayers and hope they're understood

Love started making sense
I always make mistakes at my expense
Love has placed a seed
And you're the sun that shines down upon me

boyfriend oh boyfriend! how can you ever get me so angry yet still love you the same? amazing oh so amazing. anyhoos, the boyfriend booked out for four straight days! gooooooood or whaat? so he was being the sweetest and fetched me from work soon after he booked out. Gelare for our favourite waffles, SEDAPS sesangat-sangat! we then went for a little shopping trip, my shopping trip actually with him layan-in my craps eventhough he was tired. i had a fantastic time with him, always will.

deepavali was spend getting mad and in love with him. those little actions never fail to make my heart smile. we had lunch at Banquet and without me telling he ordered everything that i wanted the way i like it and thus being mad at him was impossible. hehe. Gameplan was GOOOD! The Rock rocks my socks and that little girl was sooo cute! i love how the movie went, how funny it is and how it managed to touch a soft spot in my heart. after which, we rushed off to Eastcoast and met the family for my advanced birthday dinner. it was fun having to laugh my heart out with the family and the boyfriend in the same table. and when it's time to go back home, we had a hard time squeezing in papa's car. hahaha! my PH was spend beautifully with the people i love most.

the boyfriend fetched me after work on Saturday. we had Gelastissimo (yes, i am HOOKED to ice-creams now! i need ice-creams every single day la. shhh!) and Ayam Penyet because it's been awhile since i last ayam penyet-ings! hahaha. and the fried bakso is super sedaps, you people have to try it! we went around town to search for perfect gifts for my prettypretty girlfriends. so terima kasih awak for carrying my shopping bag-ssss and layaning my karenahs and my long face and my sumpah emotional emotions ( does it even make sense?) oh wells, kamu, ye kamu abang police yang tak menjadi, i love you for making me happy and making me mad. i love you.

before Amin headed to Taiwan, we SNT girls (read: Cipah, Hani, Sha, Rad and Wani) suprised him at his place with a cake. i know, we're such sweet stuffs right? HAHAHA! i had a great time with them girls because finally i got to lepaskan rindu and catched up with all of them. i love them girls alot cause they never fail to make my day a better one. i can't wait for Amin to come back so i can steal pictures from him. hehe. and girls, good luck for Pentas! rock the stage like you always do!

i met dearest Nurul today for lunch and spend some ustime together. it's been awhile babe! we were catching up on 2102983829361 stuffs and laughing oh so loudly over chickens and mashed potatoes. it was nice babe having to talk to you and our neverending merepeks! thank god for IRAS that i've found a great friend in you! and terima kasih for the birthday gift, im having a fun time laughing over them quotes! garh! im such a sucker for quotes! =)

and i can't wait for tomorrow and the day after and the day afterafter and the day afterafterafter! okay, i just can't wait for next week! *dances around*


my East Coast with my kerintings,


sedaps!












we're crazy and i love it!


I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be

♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


I forget my existence in a deep kiss with you