I guess our little hands had other plans,
We make the rules and then they just bend



interviews, interviews, interviews. okay, i've only been to two and im sick of thems. sheesh la sheesh! but do pray for me hor cause i need them moolahs. who doesn't eh? afterall money makes the world go round and round and round.

lunch with Ili was love like that and thanks for introducing me the best nasi ayam in town, eventhough Mama's taste better ( nothing beats mum's cookings la eh). catching up has never been this good after months of not meeting and babe, you still tickles me like alot. yes, we shall set a date amidst our busy schedules. i love her laa!

after which, i met up with the boyfriend and he was being the craziest boy with all those kentalish-schuweeet dreams of his. he made me blush. teehee. mr beans for our favourite ice-cream, video ezy for vcd renting ( yes, our favourite hobby) and headed to my place. 200 Pounds Beauty is funny and touching, saya suka! *sings to Mariaaaa ave mariaaaaaaaa* and we proceed to Waris Jari Hantu which is merepek like that because there's no hantu ( the irony!) but the storyline is good, all while eating ayam masak merah plus roti sardines whipped up by Mama dearest. kedai mama for nutellas and crackers to dip it with was fun, very reliving our childhood moments gitu. it was love from all the non-stop teases ( not funny Mr Kudut!), the jokes and the laughters. i cinta you to bits and your every fats! nyeh!

my night was spend with my favourite ladies, Marliany ( finally!) and Tasha at LJS just talking and talking and talking. busok, sabar adalah separuh dari iman okay! senyum-senyum selalu hor and please stock up your hair essentials before meeting us. tak abis-abis Watsons! nyehaha! you girls are love! yes, we shall partay pretty soon. =)

my day ended purrrrfectly with the family of course just watching tevee and joking around. andand talking with Mama about us and the goodtimes/problems never fail to make me feel at ease because she's always there with them advices. ah, sayang semuanya!

i cant wait for the date with girlfriend later!


you don't love the people you love because they're perfect,
you love the people you love because they are




A private kind of happiness

Rain in the clouds above, some moments last forever



the weather has been ohh so good! don't you agree? i love rains like that!

i met up with my sec school friends ( read: Tasha, Viv and her boyfriend, Syafik) in the evening for some loving and Starbucks. busok, i support you all the way! hehe. i swear some people need repeat knocks on their heads or in busok words ONE TIGHT SLAP (!!) hahaha. Banquet for dinner with the boyfriend joining. we were busy talking, teasing, joking and laughing around.i love you people-es la! andand i can't wait for Wednesday! i can sense a crazy night out again! woots!

after which, the boyfriend headed to my place and watched Sumolah which is very funny and exceptionally long with Yan friends who can't stop teasing me/us ( tsk!) korangs kental hokay! and the boyfriend was shocked that Yan's friends were around eventhough Yan has not reached home. haha! with Mama like mine, that's not so shocking la. nyeh! oh well Mr, i had a great time and this little things never fail to carve a smile across my face. i love you Cik Mahir!

i finally met up with Ili ( saya miss die banyak manyak ok!) and like Sha said LauPaSat can always wait. Cipah, i hope with us there you feel a whole lot better. we can only pray for her now. *hugs*

and after much contemplating, im leaving my previous entry as it is. im still laughing reading it. WAHAHA!

my sunshine after the rain,






I want to be there when you're happy,
I want to love you when you're sad

i think, i think better at night.

i need an organizer badly (!!) i tend to forget dates/plans and always agree on meet-ups, forgetting that i couldn't cut my body into pieces. im so good at it, i swear i can win an award. i think i should start making replicas of myself so i would not be torn in between them many plans.

i feel that my relationship with my boyfriend has too much dramas in it. i think we love and fight too much thus the sumpahmushy and the sumpahemoshit entries. and i give credits to myself because i dont only blog when things are ohhsorosy, i tell the WholeWideWorld ( worldwideweb if you stick to the rules) as it is.

some girls are just plain crazy from the sumpahkautakdelakilainkebfakujugakkaunak to the sumpahbfkaukawanakujebodoh. i think girlfriends should start blaming their boyfriends when he go astray rather than blaming only the girl. it takes two to clap dear. and on the other hand, i think girls should have the tendency to check if the guy she's interested in is attached when making a move. and i think guys should stop having a mindset of youllalwaysbeinmyheartsoitsokayififlirtsard. that say, i think this place we live in, is fuckedup like that ( i think i should stop saying fcuk already. dosa!)

i should stop being fickle minded and start planning on my future. study or work or study or work or study. actually, i don't want to do both. i secretly wish a handsome Datuk ( the one with ka-chings of course, not your datuk) reads my blog and loves me enough to adopt me. yes ADOPT so that i can live on his moolahs. and suker aku la aku nak bapak angkat aku handsome.

i miss my secondary school friends freaking banyak. i miss GNO-s like that. i miss my boyfriend more than yesterday and less than tomorrow. oh Sunday, come quick!

i think i rant enough and i've a feeling i'll delete this entry the next day.

I'm feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown



you know when they say you forgive and forget. it's not as easy as it seems eh? yes, i forgive but every little details about what had happened is still playing in this head of mine ( in repeat mode) and it freaking hurts. alot, if i may add. and no, i can't take another heartbreak, not now.

that silent journey home with your arms wrapped around me and my head resting on your shoulder was bliss like that. i want to stay that way forever but nothing stays forever, that i've learn. it's the littlest thing that you do that never fail to make me smile. i love you Mr, will always do.

boy, you know the every way to make me feel alright at the end of the day. yet why do you hurt the one you love?

and it's almost weird, because no matter how fucked up things are/were, you're still the one in my life, my first love, my numero uno.

i'm such a mess.

I'm much more than a princess but you don't have a name for it yet here on earth.



A stranger you were once.
Then, with a gentle look you took my hand.
As our lives engaged,
you lit my life and I held both your hands.
Now that decades have passed,
ours souls have indeed become one.
How fortunate we are
that we have found the love so true
that everyone dreams about.

- Laura Veronica Merodio


i didnt went for both interviews cause my eyes had gone from bad to worse. red, teary plus swollen eyes (as seen above) are such a NO-NO during interviews because eye-contact is important unless i want the interviewer to suffer the same fate as i am. sheesh la sheesh! but alhamdulilah, i managed to reschedule the interviews. *cross finger and pray hard*

and the cool thing is, all my siblings, yes all 4 monkeys are having sore eyes. such a sight la! we got Yan to blame for, he's the freaking cause of it. baaah! and that disgusting brother of mine keep telling us "Kalau korang nak baik, pakai ar urine korang" sungguh wtf ok! tsk! i wonder if he really does it. hmmmm.

but the early dinner with boyfriend made my day! eventhough he was busy making fun of my eyes. hmph! terima kasih awak for not minding me in the state i am, maklumlah Dee kalau sakit buruk ( i so can see Cipah nodding her head profusely! haha) and sitting at Banquet with shades on was such an experience. i think people that passes me by were busy whispering "budak ni pikir die cool ape, tengah makan pakai shades" ( WAHAHAHA! )

after which, we headed to my place and watched Pirates, well he did. i was busy watching Cakap Sini Abis Sini ( something along that line) and i think Mawi is hot! hahaha. he did his fair share of catching up with the family especially Mama before heading home. maklumlah, it's been sometimes since he head my place after the iknowyouknow and Mama was kinda excited to see her favourite boy back. hurhur. and good luck Mr! insyaallah, i'll pray for you hor. i love you my Mr K-duts-entalan-lodehs!

okay time to put on medication and rest my pretty swollen eyes!


Life is to be lived. No excuses. No reservations. No holding back.

There's an impression of you in my heart,
your smile forever etched in it.



my weekends was SUPERB! nownow, let us hope that my memory doesnt fail on me when im recalling the events that took place. heh!

the GirlsNightOut on Friday was pure love and fun! i love such nights, more of it hor! i met them ladies (read: Zila, Veen, Liyana, Nina and Lily) after Dance Fantasia at Esplanade and we were talking about everything under the dark blue sky, taking silly pictures, joking around, singing our heart out to Spice Girls song. *sings I WANNA I WANNA I WANNA A ZIGAGZIZIGAGZIZIGAGZI AHH!* and laughing our heart away. thank you Liyana for the ride! i had such a funtalicious time babes! and im so glad to have meet each and everyone of you old-er peoples ( hehe) and all of us have to thank Zila in one way or another eh? andand every Friday is GNO okay! =)

on Saturday, i helped SNT for Fiestari and i guess the only reason i was so noisy and kept irritate Shikin when dolling them girls up was because i needed some self-entertainment and akusungguhngantuk.com/taklehangsnye! and you girls did great and is a winner to me, always will be! aku sayang korangs la!

after which, we ( read: Amin, Cipah, Izzah, Iffah and Ayu) headed to Marina Loft for dinner. we girls, headed to the swirling and twirling staircase to sit and talked about random stuffs and laugh like crazy girls and take crazy pictures. korangs gereks and kental la! hahaha. it was great girls, we shall do it again. maybe next time, swimming akan menjadi jodoh kiter dan kiter akan berendam di dalam pool sepuas-puasnye! hehe. and i hope Huda wont miss me as much now that she has met me. nyeh! hahaha.

sunday was spend at home sleeping the day away, very the anakdara pemalas i tell you! hahaha. but i guess the parents was happy about it because ive been going home in the wee hours for the past weeks. and we went for supper as usual. yes, my family is about heading out late and eating away! but it's fun la, always will be. saya sayang family alot!

and the boyfriend has promised to accompany me now that im jobless and broke. i can't believe ive spend all my pay within 10 freaking days. ah! padan la ngan muka aku! *gigit jaris* thank god for boyfriend! hehehe.

and great, just great, with sore eyes, how am i to go for a job interview tomorrow? haiya! boyfriend told me to wear a pirate eye thingy. hmmm, maybe, just maybe i'll heed his advice. hahaha!

now may you swoon over them pictures ( HAHA!)

GirlsNightOut,


Zila!


yes, im loved like that! hehe.














love like that!

Fiestari,


if they're pretty, it's all thanks to Salai, Shikin and Dee. if they're not, they just got themselves to blame. nyehahahah! korangs lawa la!


SNT


Amin kental!


Izzah!


Huda!














funfunfun!

Supper with family,








kelakars!


cinta of my life


Anywhere there's a crowd, you stand out

It's always better when we're together



You're more than a feeling
More than I could have thought
I can't deny, I can't say love never comes
All I know is, when you know, you know
And I just know

That love has come in the form of you
If someone put me on a witness stand
I'd point to you, a hardcore evidence
You're proof that you don't have to understand
You can still fall into the right hands

When You Know, You Know - Natasha Bedengfield

the date with the boyfriend after work is cinta. Borders for some stuffs *LOL at Nurul!!*, Cineplex for Pursuit of Happiness which is sungguhbestdanmenusukkalbuku because the little boy, Will Smith's son was effing cute and it touched a spot in my heart. love, love, love.

and to you, my numero uno, thanks for sending me off right at my doorstep and ensuring that im home safely every single time, for carrying bags after bags after bags of my shopping stuffs without complaining, for going to and fro Mc D's counter just because i told you and make me laugh like a silly girl eventhough i said not to because i was down with a bad gastric. i love you like alotalotalotalot and im glad you love that lil something i had for you. and of course im clever and schhhweeeet like that, im Diyanah remember? teehee.

the meet up with my makcik-makciks on Tuesday was fun! and we shall keep it as our inside joke, little secret on what had happened at Simpang okay Veen? maybe next time, we can get NOT 20 BUT 30 cents discount! HAHAHAHAHA! tapi kena bawak Zila la. nyeh! i love you girls la! and Veen we shall find a PERMANENT ( yes, key word PERMANENT) job soon and kumpul them ka-chings untuk kahwin okay, since yours will be in a year time ( HAHAHA!) and Zila my story is not cartoon, it's unique okay and thanks for the ride home love! next time i promise not to blurt silly things out loud again. aku sayang korangs!

and it's gonna be my last day at work later! and i plan not to sleep cause i got alot of pending works to do, and here i am blogging away. HOW EXCITING! sheesh!

Love is a journey not a destination

the date with the boyfriend ( ah, yes boyfriend. hehe) is nothing but fab-O-lous! Bugis for my black patent shoes ( like finally!) and Vivo for them donuts and headed to Pahlawan beach to enjoy the night breeze, each other company just talking about everything under the stars and constantly exchanging sweet nothings. andand i wished upon a shooting star! sungguh lovely! like how you put it love, no matter what we'll run to each other cause at the end of the day we still drive each other crazy. hehe. and we're going black this year! nyeh! i love you my Mr Kuduts-kentalans-lodehs!

yesterday meet up with my secondary school friends was PHUN!PHUN!PHUN! it was such an adventure and i love such impromptu-ness! we called the roundings 4 perhentian in busok words! from Changi airport runway to Seletar Airport to Esso ( haha!) for a short break to Dome as what is being described. haha. thank you Ms Nursey aka dearest Tisa for driving us around and around and around. we had so much laughters, so much exchanging of stories and thoughts and opinions til dawn. it was love! sayang korangs!

and to the SNT-ians, i feel you girls but dont fret ok. so many shows will come lining up. ah! aku masih gerams ni but oh wells! shit happens. i love you girls and Cipah, be strong k babe. they need you, and you know i'll be here. *hugs*

and let the pictures do some talking,

the awesome date,


the only love i've known

the night out,


crazy bunch!


macam paham one


macam paham two


dekni lagi macam paham! haha.








cramped but love






us!

Love is when you find yourself spending every wish on him

Love doesn't make the world go around, love is what makes the ride worthwhile

town with Ms Nurul after work is love, love, love! Fish n Co for dinner was SUPERB! after which we went to our mini shopping spree. i really think i should stop shopping for now if i want to survive on my own for another 2 weeks and not going to my parents for them moolahs. hurhur. i had such a fun time babe with all the stupid laughters! love you!

after which, i joined the family at Mak's Place for their supper and Changi for airplanes and eating ice-cream and just enjoying each other companies. it was pure bliss. we were laughing at Papa's kental jokes every single time. and the parents was worried about me, they were giving me 101 advices and telling me things would be fine. garh! i love them family la! no worries, im doing perfectly fine specially with the love from each one of you. sayang family!

and Dian yesterday really made my day, it's been sometimes since i dance my night away. ( OMG! rhyme!) hahaha!

between you and me, we'll figure this out pretty soon. geram is the word for now. teehee.


cinta is family,


love love love!


the love of my life.


sisters.




brothers are blured but love.





my everything!
the night with Veen,


smile


pout


kiss!

On really romantic evenings of self, I go salsa dancing with my confusion.

♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


I forget my existence in a deep kiss with you