only time will tell if im doing the right thing.

this ramadhan, the number of times im breaking fast with the family is ATROCIOUS. thank god, the parents have always understand how committed their daughter can be and am being supportive. alhamdulilah.

i step in with the mindset of doing my OWN things, having fun, learning and doing what is needed and get it over with. but now, i feel that i am more than involved in this little game. sometimes it's better not to know anything. don't you think so? but while im here, i better make the best out of this.

im very prone agree-in on things/stuffs eventhough i know i have a freaking packed schedule OR other important things to settle/handle. the things i do to complicate matters. what do i get myself into?

it was funny, how you and i think alike. we practically finish each other sentences and start laughing at it. we share the same sentiments babe. but how do we get our point across? ah, sometimes the best thing one can ever do is just to close the gap up. sometimes ignorance is bliss.

it's weird isn't it? how we can lie to others but deep inside, we know we're not FOOLING anyone but ourselves. sometimes, i don't really mean what i said. i guess, i'm not totally over you.

maybe there's more to gain. i HOPE.

im tired but i love draining every energy i have.


So many things I want to know the answers to,
Wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story of me and you

i love being a listening ear, i really do BUT i sincerely hate having to listen about my family/friends being taken advantage of/ being hurt. i get so worked up, don't asked me why.

and to you, sometimes it's very frustrating having to WARN you about things but you would not listen. and this is not the first time, it's happening. now you're coming back to me complaining. seriously, im fine with it but don't get mad cause NOW im disliking him. i wish you could take whatever i said seriously, it's for your own good. and no, im not blaming him. im blaming you too. and pardon me for being a BITCH and saying harsh words to get you back to reality. babe, you know i have your best interest at heart. *hugs*

it's a wonderful wonderful feeling to truly say something and really mean it. to laugh and smile because it happened.


A falling star,
Least I fall alone

i've been repeating i'm falling in love. it's soo good to be feeling this good.

anyways, ive been MISSING my bestfriends. it's been EONS since i last met them. how cruel! korangs, aku nak meet korangs soooooon. *crying like mad* ohh ku menangis tidak berlagu. hahaha.




dan ku telah jatuh cinta
ku wanita dan engkau lelaki
perasaan ku berkata
im falling in love

sang cinta mendekatlah
malam menyanggup menjadi saksi
hati kecilku berkata
im falling in love

I'm falling in love - Melly



The nicest thing about the rain is that it always stops,
Eventually

so i was one happy girl cause i got to meet my boyfriend-s! ehem ehem! it was worth the shouts and screams and the silly dances and the feet aches due to heels and the tears of someone ( HAHA!) because Hady won *looks at Cipah*, like YAY! hehe. and Taufik is HOT! very mencairkan. *smiles* i had a GREAT time ladies! sayangs sayangs korangs!


SG Idol


HADY!






i heartss them!


the outing on Saturday


AMIN!! hehe.


with dearest Lina. haha!




Salai, so kurus already!


my ohh LOVE! haha.


they are BULLY-ies!!




sayang korangs!


I'm gonna keep on doing my own thing,
We all got a song that we're meant to sing

im watching SI result show tomorrow, like YAY! *shout THANKS CIPS!* hehe.

and people, vote for Hady ok! he was SUPERB just now. *drools* ok, i sound like a freaking groupie. HAHA! ohh wells, just vote!

my first day of ramadhan is LOVE! may this be a beautiful ramadhan to me and you! insyaallah.

=)


I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again

i had a wonderful day! it's been such a long time since i have a good laugh with my prettymentel ladies. hehe. town for ayam penyet was deelicious though it was hothothot, shopping, and and am loving the dress i bought! ( sungguh lawa tak boleh angkat! hehe ), fried mars bar ( like at long last!), the wrong bus stop, Arab St for sheesha, a very long game of truth and dare and dont make me want to puke ever again ok ( dosa! heh!), jokes, minah talks, teases, butt booster which is not needed, laughters and a whole lot of laughters. i love you girls and sorry for the sekejap change of mood eh. actually kan, aku main-main TAPI aku tak tau macam mane nak unmain-main. ahahah. *covers face*

and Amin, the change quite drastic ok! i want to see you dancing, mesti kelakar! hehe. and eventhough it was short meeting you, it was enough to melepaskan rindu. haha. happy serving the nation tomorrow! =)

and and Zila, thanks for driving me around ok. how's the ehem ehem? hehe. and to Parveen, we will make a good team. yes, we will! haha. ok, i need my insan sepi and "mmmm mmmm mmmm" HAHAHA! sayangs korangs! gosh, i love SIP-ing! hehe.

and and and to all umat islam, SELAMAT BERPUASA!! time for me to lose all the FATs!


Sometimes we'd never know what's wrong without the pain,
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

ive been feeling veryvery sick these past days with sore throat, flu, cough and Mr Fever that have decided to come and go as he wish, Ms Asthma has been cruel to me due to phlegm. such a wrong timing to get sick. sheesh!

ohh wells, being sick have it's advantages too. like the parents being extra caring, the mother cooking yucky stuffs ( read : my favourite sick dish= chicken ball + fishball + potatoes soup ) in the words of Baby. haha.

and and im looking forward to tommorrow, going out with my lovely SNT-ians. This time round, hopefully with the Yr 1s. yay! hehe. i can't wait! boogie oogie woogie! and and Amin's back! hehe. lotsa misses!

a rather silly conversation i had with a stall vendor

me : *dengan penuh semangat* Cik, epok-epok pisang berape?
mak cik : ape nak? epok-epok pisang?
me : ah yelah, epok-epok pisang. 3, $1 eh?
mak cik gives me the HUH look and laughing.

and then i realised, it's goreng pisang! how silly! haha.


Help me find where I am today
Life is looking very grey

To my dearest BUSOK aka Shamajiii aka Natasha,

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY BABE!!



Sweet tak aku? sweet kan kan? haha. anyways busok, you're like 19! OMG! tua tak boleh carry. haha. i hope you have a great time celebrating you birthday, i know you did. hehe. may you be blessed with everything wonderful and be in the pinkest of health always. insyaallah. and busok, sorry for cancelling manymany of your MOS trip. i'm tired la babe, with work and dance. i really hope to meet you soon! we shall buka one fine day ok with the rest. am looking forward to it! hehe. aku sayang kau! muacks! *hugs*


But I keep your memory
You visit me in my sleep

i'm sick. what's new la kan? *shrugs*

im doing on market research now! ah, am applying what i'm learning to my attachment. coolness! hehe. and it's really weird to have Mr Adi so hyped up for the day. and and the teasing have not stop. nanti aku nangis kat pantry betul-betul baru tahu! hehe. =p

dance is packed macam biase. four practices in a week, sungguh penat but time spend together, sungguh fun! so we shall go through this together ok girls! sayang korangs korangs!

sometimes, i wonder if i, myself, loves getting into a pool of complications. i've a strong feeling, Mr. Complicated is going to visit me soon.

and im missing so many people to mention names. we shall meet one fine day.

makcik-makcik opis,




my makciks-makciks, LOVE!


There's always another wound to discover ,
There's always something more you wish he'd say

im not sleepy and it's weird. i really need to sleep cause im werking later. sheesh!

im so sensitive that i cried at the slightest thing. i cried when im too mad, i cried when im being scolded, i cried when the siblings disturbed me, i cried that i misplaced the cd, i cried when i was running late, i cried when papa asked me to do his work. i just cry. maybe it's the time of the month. *shrugs*

ohh shoot, when the sun rises, it will be a better day. insyaallah. =)

and since i cant get myself to sleep, i did stupid stuffs like a survey.


1) Is there someone who you like at the moment?
- yes. not one but alot alot. my family, friends! and i don't like them, i LOVE them! hehe. if u mean if i see someone in a special way now, NO.

2) Have you ever given or been given roses?
- given and been given. BUT i hate flowers, it withers. i recall Cips saying "Dee! Kau tak romantic langsung! Ade ke tak suker bunga." hahaha!

3) What is your all time favorite romance movie?
- the wedding singer,a walk to remember, 50 first date, kal ho naa ho and lots and lots and lots more.

4) How many times can you honestly say you've been in love?
- ermm, once.

5) Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
- yes.

6) Do you think that you should become friends with someone first?
- yes.

7) Have you ever had your heart broken?
- not really.

8) What do you think about long-distance relationships?
- it won't work out.

9) Your thoughts on online relationships?
- you mean, knowing someone from msn, friendster and all? see, i always thought it was CRAP but it's not that, really. cause regular chats will led to meet up and so forth. it can work, sometimes.

10) Would you rather date someone five years older or five years younger?
- older, 24 is ok than 14!!! HAHA.

11) Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
- yes.

12) Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater?"
- no.

13) How many kids do you want to have?
- three. i want twins! haha.

14) Do you usually fall for the wrong or right boy/girl?
- right in a wrong way.

15) What is your favorite colour(s)?
- pink, black, green, purple.

16) What are your views on gay marriages?
- asalkan drangs bahagia disamping keluarga la ye.

17) Have you ever broken someones heart?
- yes.

18) Imagine you're 79 & your spouse just died, would you re-marry?
- da nak mampus, masih nak kahwin? HAHA. i think it's better for me to bring myself closer to GOD.

19) At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?
- hrmmm, 12?

20) what song do you want to hear at your wedding?
Forever - Damage, Still the one- Shania Twain, Truly, Madly Deeply - Savage Garden, This I promise - N sync, Aku Cinta, Aku Rindu - Nurul & Ajai, Cinta Abadi - Tofu and moreee. haha.

21) Do you believe at love at first sight?
no. infatuation/like at first sight. love is a strong word.

22) When was the last time you said " I love you" and mean it?
errmm, i said i love you to my family/bestfriends almost everyday.


But if I change my heart today, tomorrow it may be okay
And maybe I won't look back

my attachment have been great! what else do you need than the ever cool bosses, ever fun staffs and of course my makciks- makciks kan. hehe. but the BULLYs-ing have to stop ok! stop it already with the mat reps ( no, am not! haha), the Rs, the sumer snacks/tidbits at Dee's table just because and the many many more things. dosa ok! *shakes butt*

the event that took place at TKC was a nice bonding session with the staffs. we were busy kutuk-ings some of the artists ( HAHA! what's with the preaching?), i didnt know our bosses are THAT popular, our communication skills improved although them makciks-makciks DO NOT need it la ( mulut becok! hehe) and a very fun yet tiring time.

and dance was short but i did enjoy myself. somehow, dance really makes me all happy minus the sumpah stress part la. sorry girls, i misplaced the cd. now i've a strong feeling it's at the SAR room. bah!

im a mess.

and to Izyan, HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY BABE!



and hey, how could ive forgotten! isk! babe, have a wonderful year ahead and be bless with everything pretty and nice. may you be in the pinkest of health always. insyaallah. and smile ok. you're being miss! and eventhough, we're not as close as before, i want to THANK YOU for the wonderful and great memories. i love you! and we have dinner soon ok! buka sama-sama ke! hehe. *hugs*


my work place,


macam paham! haha.


makcik Zila, aku sayang!


makcik PAAARVEEEEN ( haha), aku love!


Asyurah, my going back home partner!






love!


Make me a storybook
Write me away from here

alhamdulilah. i pass my exams! *throws confetti* and Shaf aka Mr Psychic, yes yes, you're right. haha. BUT am not proud of the results though. baah!

im shagged and it's only the second day of work! i guess, i'll be turning in early everyday now. and the flu, irritations of eyes kills me. i have to be sick SOMEHOW! sheesh! and thank god, Mama's back. hehe.

and i voted for Hady ok! i voted for the first time! my my, i LOVE him. hahaha.

and girls, thank you. thank you for helping me/ thank you for cheering me up/ thank you for being wonderful girlfriends. you girls know who you are. *winks winks winks* damn! im LUCKY! hehe.


please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable,
impossible

my first day of attachment was alright. the staffs were friendly and very helpful, the bosses, Syah was very nice to us, the other was just pleasing to the eyes. i didnt know Adi looked so good real life! haha.

and it's been fun working/attachment-ing with my makciks-makciks and Asyurah cause things wouldn't be THAT boring. im liking my cosy corner. haha! *wiggles around*

being the kental girl i am, ive forgotten to register for the get your result's through SMS thingy. and i thought i did, so when Zila got her's, i was panicking and getting all nervous when my hp's beeps. imagine, my bismillah bismillah bismillah, ONLY to find out it's from friends asking how's my attachment been. aaarghh! but thank you friends for caring. *hugs* it was at 3 that i decided i've forgotten to register and to just wait for tomorrow for the results through web.

and GUESS WHAT? Shaf just have to tell me the results have been released earlier on. so i semangat-ly, dengan penuh kegigihan tried logging in BUT to no avail. i think the server is too lagging due to the sumpah banyak numbers of students trying to access it. sheesh! now, i miss my chance to know my results! hmph! Shaf, i BLAME you for showing off your results!

i guess ive to wait for tomorrow. sobs sobs.

and and and, i need to turn in early and NOT be hook-ed with online games! mati mati tentu mati, if i continue wanting to beat my highest score. haha!


Cause time has made me strong,
I'm starting to move on

im hook-ed to My Heart and the singer, Irwansyah. *drools*

tomorrow's the BIG day. *hop around* wish me well and luck! makcik-makciks opis here we become! haha!

im dissapointed, i should have seen it coming. thanks, you've been a 'great' help. pardon my sarcasm, you need it. it's never easy for me.




I am moving through the crowd
Trying to find myself
Feel like a guitar that's never played
Will someone strum away?

And I ask myself
Who do I wanna be?
Do I wanna throw away the key?
and invent a whole new me
and I tell myself
Don't wanna be no one but me

No one - Aly & Aj


You're, all the things I'm looking for,
Everything and so much more

SIP briefing was a nice gathering for us. i get to meet my makciks-makciks, nonsensical groupmates, coursemates. i can't wait for attachment la! and for the 28393480 times, im working with my makciks-makciks! *smiling like mad* so many plans already! hehe. and and i want to say a BIG BIG THANK YOU to Zila for the ride to school. at last, ive seen her drive! phewiiiit! *hugs*

DeepaRaya meeting was a little mind worrying due to the constraint time but then again, i hope everything will be fine. i know it will. girls, help me out ok! sayang korangs! like i said, semangat bergotong-royong mesti ade eh! hehe. =)

i want to thank Mal for accompanying me around Tampines to shop for my attachment. i got myself pants and a very nice heels. ooooh LOVE! hehe. and i didn't know that the library could change so much, thanks Mal for bringing me to the library after a very very LOOOOONG time. haha!

the families visited my house and ohh my! i simply adore my adorable little cousins. cute tak boleh carry la! *bites and kiss them non-stops* and and the aunties were sungguh kecoh, very the makcik-makcik. saya sayang keluarga la!

and and mama is going holiday-in with her friends til Thursday. ah! i hate having to mend the house alone. hmph!


Tak ingin aku lupa kenangan yang tercipta,
Belikan aku diari ku tulis setiap hari

my weekends was wonderfully spent with my love love ones! ah, sungguh gembira! hehe.

headed to Johor with the bestfriends. the baju kebayas was so manis tak boleh carry la, i can't wait for raya! hehe. Kenny Rogers, Secret Recipe, my place, jokes, teases, snapping and snapping of pictures, laughters and laughters and laughters. i had a great time! sayang korangs!

the gathering with my Yr 1s classmates was ohh so fun! of all places, my dearest Sophie and Edwina chooses Holland V! sumpah jauh nak mampus, sheesh! ohh wells, had dinner at Exclusively Brews ( i think, somewhere along that line) and it was so yummylicious. catching up and boy, do i miss so much!, non-stop teasing, snaps and snaps and snaps and not forgetting mr. LAUGHTERs. hehe. and i had a funtalicious time with you guys! and and sorry about the LATE birthday wishes! we shall meet again, LOVEs!

Kak Rozi's chalet was a fantastic time with the families. karaoke-ing the night away, playing with the little ohh so adorable cousins, bapok watching, 3am breakfast, bbq-ing, catching up, jokes, teases, laughters, laughters, laughters and a whole lot of laughters. i LOVE my family, sungguh banyak tak terkire ok! hehe.

so i want to take the opportunity to give a BIG BIG BIG HUG to those who have make my weekends a wonderful one. *TIGHT TIGHT HUG* hehe.


and to Kak Rozi, HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY BABE!



isk, da tua! hehe. mak cik, i hope you had a wonderful time. ohh wells, i know you did! may you be bless with everything pretty and nice and be in the pinkest of health always. insyaallah. i love you babe! *wet wet kisses*

Johor madness,

going there,











in Johor,






HAHAHAHA! Su, you're a very BAD me!


KENNY ROGERS!









going back,


shhhh! Mal's sleeping. hehe.











my place,


no 0 to 10 pose! haha






wooots! sweetness la bajus! hehe.


my adorable little cousins,


isn't he adorable?






i love them! cuteness!


Feel like a doll left on a shelf
Will someone take you down?

♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


I forget my existence in a deep kiss with you