Happiness isn't something you experience; it's something you remember

i finally understand why certain events has happened and happened the way it did. and im glad that i learned to end up with the right regret. the regret that keeps me going strong in facing the world.

i no longer question my wrong step, my actions because what's done is done and there's no amount of questioning, whining and feeling stupid about myself could change the situation.

i may be stuck in a place i don't want to be in (read:work) but i never dread going there. cause it's not as bad as it seems and there's a whole things there that never fail to make me smile and laugh. my colleagues, make work a whole lot easy for me.

i figured a plan for me this year and i hope i could stick to it. do pray for me.

on a different note relating to my daily happenings, the meet up with my secondary school friends with their significant others ended my week perfectly.

and i miss the boyfriend too much, and it doesn't help that his on the other line talking crap. i feel like punching him this instant and his friends too.


Simpang with the sec friends,







All kinds of unforeseen events wait lurking to surprise you and make you glad you're alive

All I wanted to do is hold his hand for the rest of my life




Ahmad Mahir Muhammad Kamil, i want to thank you for enduring my everything. and i know, no other guys in the world could love me as much as you do despite my 128374832274832 attitudes. i'll try to be more patient and baik-er and heed my girlfriend advices on being a better girlfriend not that i'm not! (haha). i love you kudut more than you can ever imagine. and since now, you know where Adam Rd is, we shall head there next week okay? =)

after dance yesterday, we the alumnis of SNTians (ceh! alumnis seh Cipah and Sha! hehe) headed to Ili's place for her 21st Surprise Birthday Party! Happy 21st Ili Liyana! May you be bless with a bright future and be happy with the company of your loved ones always! aku sayang kau! your birhtday presents soon okay!

after which,i wanted to eat ice-cream thus dragging my friends to Adam Rd, which we took an hour to find after countless u-turns and countless salah jalans and countless bickerings between me and the boyfriend. so for the friends who had to endure our little bickerings (read: Cipah, Sha and Ad) who i think secretly wished they were in Faz's car instead, minta maaf ye. oh wells, you girls are already immune with my perangais in Ad's word buang tebiatness. BUT the best part was finding it closed since it's already midnight when we reached there. so HAHAHAHA! me! *insert sad face emoticon*

we then decided to go Simpang for drinks and crappings in the wee mornings. i love you girls and i miss this kinda night so much. im so glad we made it happened after such a looong time. sayang semuanya! and Adliah sayang, pictures please! and Wawa, thanks for the Victoria's Secret Vanilla Lace!

okay, i better get ready before i run late for a meetup with my secondary school friends later! yay! tak sabar menanti! =)


Never had a love like this

Sisters share childhood memories and grown-up dreams




This entry is dedicated specially for my dear sister(s),

Baby, congratulations!! im like so proud of you ok and i know everyone in the family does. you're the first to get a single digit point la. well, you've always been the clever one. and baby, choose the next phase of your life carefully. follow your heart and do what's best for you.

and happy 17th birthday love! may you be bless with all the beautiful things in life and may the road ahead brings thousands of happiness for you with us, the family around. and baby, thanks for listening to me whine and talk and yak 24/7 and not having enough sleep because of me. i know you love me! haha.

i'm going to give you a good treat soon. once my pay flows in, anything to celebrate the occassion baby! so set a date, pick a place and we'll celebrate your day! and Ifa sayang, you're invited to. we'll have a sister only day without them ANNOYING brothers.

i love you two.

You're on my heart just like a tattoo




and for everytime you looked and read the card, remember that my small pair of eyes is only for you and the monster on it looked just like you. hehe.

Your my sweet heart, and I'm so glad that your mine
You are one of a kind and
You mean to me, What I mean to you
And together baby, there is nothin' we wont do

Cuz with every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
And now I know I can't be the only one
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life who feel
What I feel when I'm with you

With You - Chris Brown


Baby, you're the best part of my day

You'll always, always have a spell on me

i overheard a conversation the other day, and those words hit me hard. it says "you always think of what people expects of you and work towards it. why not now, you work towards what you expect of yourself". i totally can relate to it. i need to sort what i really want and move towards that direction.

life's been pretty good to me. i finally had my first step on something i've been wanting so much in life, like finally. *smiling widely* do pray for me, insyaallah. im almost broke eventhough it's only 8 days after pay. i really need to learn to SAVE up and stop disturbing the boyfriend. sheesh!

thank god for a veryvery patient boyfriend and a generous one too. haha. yes, im spoilt and he's to blame. nyeh! sayaaaang boyfriend! and because of his course that he needs to attend, ive been missing him so much banyak-banyak tak terhingga. i can't wait for the weekends to come!

and i cant wait for work to end, if you get what i mean. this place kills the hell out me, thank god for the fun colleagues or i'll go bonkers with every single policies. HAH! POLICIES or what man!

the day at Kallang Leisure Park with our fav couple,





them, men.

us, ladies.







we love arcade! and i love him! hehe.
3/4 of my wise ladies,






maxbrenners are da bomb!









love!
Kallang Leisure Park with Dian,











sayang mereka!

And I love you, beyond the reason why

"When it’s true, when it’s right, love can give you the kind of joy that you can’t get from any other experience. I have been in love; I am in love, so I speak from any other experience. I have also lived long periods without love in my life, and there is no way to describe the difference between the two. We is always so much better than I."

Happy 13th love! *blushing like mad*

And you meet someone who makes you feel special




I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure.
I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle...
But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. - Marilyn Monroe
you, my love, sure deserve me at my veryvery best.

Bangkok was de BOMB! i miss my kerintings already. too much, too much! i shall blog about it after i get them 298334020948374 pictures!

till then,

*sings BACK TO LIFE, BACK TO REALITY!*

♥ Diyanah
♥ 13 Nov 87


I forget my existence in a deep kiss with you